Subhanallah!

did you guys look up at the sky tonight?

I had to draw that (in Paint) coz my camera decided to go against me. but yes, that was EXACTLY what I saw. the moon's smiling. subhanallah indeed.

p/s: abg off to mauritania for a month. pray for his safe journey.

You thought that was the end of the story

46 days to go.

wa kebosanan. duk layan rerun Raja Lawak. buat la rerun sampai 100kali pon, wa AKAN gelak guling2 tepuk2 lantai tengok JoZan. tak boleh tahan.

wa baca blog kakngah yang 4bulan bersawang. memang laman sesawang (website) betul! lama tak jumpa kan. rindu ye? anggap je ni praktis. nanti dah kahwin takde la selalu keluar ke, layan wayang ke, dengan wa dah kan. alah bisa tegal biasa. lama2 takde la rindu2 dah. wahaks! boleh gitu? sms la wa lagi banyak2. wa dah bukak buku Geografi. excited nak jawab soalan awak. "Lokasi?" - "Ulaanbaatar. Join?". ok ke ok?

berjaga pepagi buta ni buat perut wa lapar tau. is cannot.

nak story mory backdated punya cer. akhirnya wa berjaya masuk hospital. haha. jaga mak la konon. wa kan anak mithali. ngeee.

14 Oct 2008, 8am masuk OT, dalam 11.30am keluar. wa terus duk dengan mak sampai 16 Oct. alhamdulillah la takde komplikasi kan. dengan kencing manis, darah tinggi segala.

2bijiks. tu kira besar la untuk hempedu.

sian abah :(

mana ajib? balik langsir katil depan. bawak diri ke ape bai?

membaca la konon kan. padahal wa usha 2-3 doktor ensem tengah ronda wad. mua a a a.

pindah katil depan - dalam pemerhatian. eleh. mak boleh gelak sakan sehari lepas operate. lepas tu sakit. wa dah pesan jangan, dia sendiri yang buat lawak. camne?

niat wa nak tunjuk kabus seawal pagi wa turun breakfast. nampak? kalo tak nampak, sah la. tak sampai jumaat depan la tu. nyeh nyeh!

helep! tali perut berpintal. helep! haha. wa saja nak tarik boleh? nak tengok apa jadi. kan.

la ni mak dah boleh jalan2 cari pasal sampai ke sungai buloh (cari orkid), ke melaka (tengok cucu tuah ngan jebat). handal la konon. pastu sakit badan la. angin la. wa dengan abah jugak yang dengar dia mengeluh.

lepas buat statement camtu, wa patut posing ke posing?

I twist and turn in the darkest space

wa mengantuk tahap tak boleh ditolong2. tapi wa nak melayan emo wa kejap.

my mom was admitted to Hospital Temerloh this morning. will undergo a gallstone-removal surgery. scheduled this coming Tuesday, oct 14th. been having the problem since 2001. got worse earlier this year.

yang wa tau, mak bukan la orang yang biasa masuk hospital. selain daripada memberanakkan kami berempat beradik, ada la dalam tahun 2005 tu dia masuk. tu pon sebab nak kasi stabil insulin, nak tau dos yang betul je. ni pon buat jugak sebab dah tak daya mengidap. nak bergerak pon payah. malam2 terjaga jam 2-3pagi. dia menangis, sakit sangat.

mom in hospital's dress. wa yang berjiwa emo ni, bila tengok agak sebak la sikit. heh. is cannot helep! wa lagi emo bila dia start buat pesanan yang bukan2. adoiyay! dah la wa tak boleh tido semalam.

makde - you are, LITERALLY, a shoulder for me to cry on. nyeh nyeh! pagi2 buta wa dah membanjirkan bahu dia.

mak ni bikin panas tau.

wa sempat candid Dr. Shahrawati tengah amik darah mak. doktor muda. tahun '82 kalo wa tak salah pandang. dengan selamba, bongkak lagi takbur dia cocoks jarum tu. uiiiii wa ngilu.

dengan selamba, bongkak lagi takbur jugak wa mintak mak pose. DAN dengan selamba, bongkak lagi takbur berbakul2 mak meng-pose untuk wa. mua a a a. I lebiu la mak.

la ni abah la tunggu dekat mak. tak le jujur duk tepi katil kan. tak relevan woo. wad perempuan :P abah pon agak tak keruan jugak wa tengok. semalam wa tak boleh tido, tapi wa purak2 pengsan. abah kul 3pagi baru dia masuk tido. entah ape dia buat duk ke hulu, ke hilir, ke depan, ke dapur, bawak kain, amik beg, bawak fail. tsk! jangan la ribut abah. kaklong rina je yang suka ribut2 ni. dia kan siti ribut. ngeee!!

mak duk wad kenanga 7, tingkat 6, katil 24. memang wad pembedahan. ada makcik depan katil mak tu nak buang ketumbuhan dalam perut. aunty sebelah, langgar lari. dia sedar2 dah tepi jalan. kesian dia. tak reti cakap melayu, susah jugak la nurse kalo takde tukang jaga.

tengok board tu, nampak tak "tingkat 9: wad bunga raya 2 - wad diraja". wa nak request tukar ke wad tu boleh? boleh aje? boleh blah? mua a a a.

dua ari ni emo wa agak melampaui batas. wa drive pegi hantar, balik menghantar - emo. cik keli wa "berenang2" di muara. haha. kalo orang lain kena amik anger management therapy, wa kena amik emo management therapy. coih!

kepala wa sakit. wa dah start selsema. ni budak2 office la bawak virus2 demam. wa menci betoi!

Trying to let go

nak baca, baca. tak mau, press alt+f4. problem solve!

hari ni hari emo wa. abg bawak kak siti balik melaka. berpantang.

nazmi bangun awal. dia dengar wa bukak pintu bilik, dia kejar. heh. wa berebut masuk bilik air - nangis. bila wa nak keluar pi keje, dia ngan abg dalam bilik. wa menonong je keluar. dalam kereta wa nangis lagi. nasib la wa punye eyeliner tak rosak :P dekat office pon wa nangis lagi. balik dari office pon nangis jugak. la ni pon mata wa dah sakit rasanye.

ape ke punca ke-emo-an wa hari ni? nazmi la. tsk tsk!

berapa lama dia duduk Raub. kan. start kak siti masuk upsi. atuk dengan nenek jaga. kalau balik weekend, dia la yang kejar ke pintu. daripada belum reti merangkak sampai la sekarang ni dah boleh panjat pintu!

bila dia bangun dulu, dia datang depan muka wa (yang tengah tido ni). mengaum. sambil tu tangan tunjuk kat gambar singa dalam buku Wild Animal dia. tak pon dia datang je dekat kita, menempek. tepuk2 pipi, main2 hidung.

kadang dia cekik kita dengan jari dia. dapat pulak kuku panjang. adoiyay. tak pon datang menggigit lutut/ibu jari kaki. apa kes? amik berkat ke? ikan dalam akuarium tu - shhh (fish). ikan goreng - kang (ikang). ikut abg haikal dengan danial la tu :P

kalau nak mintak kita buat sesuatu, dia tarik tangan kita. kalau nampak orang pakai tudung, dia nak mintak dukung. dia tau tu tanda nak keluar.

wa biasa jumpa dia weekend je. bayangkan apa perasaan atuk dengan nenek yang memang hari2 duk tatang dia. hmm..

"bulu" monster! mua a a a. banyak nye bulu bai.

presenting abg-and-kak siti's new toots. Muhammad Nur Hakimi bin Mohd Nizam, born 21st september 2008. 3,75kg. berat dol.

'muhammad' je. bila nak ada 'siti' nya pulak ;-)

ermm kepala wa sakit!

Coba kau dengar...

my eyes get all misty when wa heard takbir raya on radio yesterday. it wasn't even a full takbir! uff. need to get things off my chest BADLY. how? to whom?

wanted to write about Naili's and Felda d'Saji. drowsy. forget it, just another sesi berbuka (and bikin kecoh, I'd say) with officemates. might post some pictures later.

going home tomorrow. yay! waiting for my copy of Brisingr. the MPH lady told me on the phone - "Sebab cik order yang hardcover, sampai hari selasa". as long as wa get the magnetic bookmark, nevermind the extra 3days. got my 250pcs of Almond London. going to 'kekah' sebekas first thing tomorrow, after berbuka of course.

and what about my kuih siput? ajib kata - "apa kata buat 6kilo?". wa kata - "memang tersiput la kakde!". eee-ouch!

Mamarazzi in action

guess who? yes! fahrin ahmad. in the flesh. right under our very own dusty windows. having a drama shoot - 07.09.08.

kak siti, the alleged 'mamarazzi' took these from her bedroom windows (I suppose).

cough. by the way, that silver-roofed car next to him, is my Cute Little Kelisa (CLK). mua a a a a. wa frust sebab ketika kejadian wa tido mati!! choih! abang fahrinnnnn!!

Got to remember this is just a game

wa wanna sleep but wa can't and don't want to. so wa gonna past my time by doing what wa best at - writing random, nonsense stuff.

- watched Merdeka rehearsal, since wa work right where they held the event. cool!
- wa saw Dato' A. Samad Said, again, few weeks back. at Bazar jalan TAR. was walking to work when wa saw him.
- last Friday, same place, wa saw Hatta Dolmat. cute guy, he is.
- no "raub" for me this weekend. unavoidable.
- break fast @ Naili's Place 05.09.08. will story mory later when wa can really focus.
- watching Small Soldiers for the n-th times.
- another 100 pages of Eldest and I'll be done, can't wait for Brisingr.
- come Monday, break fast @ Felda D'saji.

ohh! Laksamana Do Re Mi is on @ prima. "Do! Naik... hari nak kiamat!".

The silence ends

wa bagai nak pitam beratur tunggu tren sejam, si lahanat sorang ni senang2 tempel tepi wa. dan2 tren datang dia potong line wa. ewah2. jangan uji kesabaran orang puasa beb. wa tolak dia masuk dalam. padan muka. lepas tu tau pulak marah bila orang himpit dia. PADAN MUKA lagi sekali. wa gunakan KEBESARAN wa ni. mua a a a. wa peduli hape.

dah. wa nak melepaskan kemarahan pagi tadi je. wa buat muka baik, pijak wa. kan. next time kak, buat la lagi. wa sukeeeee sangat!

Take me, seize me

wa meant to write 3 days ago. was too tired, too eager to finish my book and of course too lazy to sit in front this old lappy.

wa nak cerita wa buat mission impossible. cubaan mengqada' puasa dalam saat2 genting. accomplished! wa start 21-26, no gap. even Saturday & Sunday wa puasa. kenapa "saat2 genting"? mengikut perkiraan bulan dan bintang, 'bendera merah' wa hampir tiba. tapi tak tau la kot sebab puasa mengejut ni dia sikit terganggu ke kan :P

yang penting, mak kejut wa sahur. mak masakkan kan lauk. mak teman wa sahur. mak suruh wa tido, rehat. peh! bagai menatang minyak yang penuh. wa terasa disayangi. mua a a a a. rabu wa raya. kalo ikut jam, tadi la kan. rasa tak sedap perut kejap bila makan siang. coih.

hari ahad tu kami (wa+kak siti) balik KL pukul 8.40pm dari raub. wa suka cerita tunggang tebalik ni. sambung balik.. biasa wa rempit sejam je perjalanan. kena malam tu, dengan accident lepas terowong. jamming dekat tol gombak. 3 jam! adoiyay! dengan hujan lagi, dengan kelahanatan driver lain lagi. tensi wa tau.

supposedly Ajib planned to stay over tonight. dia boleh pegi layan movie-marathon dekat Midvalley. stuck sana sebab hujan. cancel, balik kolej. postpone esok. huh.

made him buy me Christopher Paolini's Eldest. and he did just that. hoyeah! me likey. ooh how I love having a baby bro to toy around ;-)

Blackbird, fly away!

batang pinang dan pohon renek. mua a a a. since wa don't know where to begin with, wa jump straight to the cer yang wa nak cer kat sini. about kakngah's (FINALLY!!!) engagement ceremony. maka pada tarikh 09082008 termaktub lah bahawa, kakngah dah jadi tunangan orang. yo sis, remember aa. kaki sudah kena ikat. beringat2 la berkawan tu. memang orang kata berkawan biar seribu. tapi jangan biar yang seribu tu jadi punca hilang yang SATU tu ye. wink!

anyhoo, 08082008 malam nya buat tahlil kat surau. lepas tu majlis makan nya kat rumah aide. nak cuci beras, wa nak bukak kampit beras tu, dengan tanpa rasa menyesal wa toreh ke jari sendiri. wa cedera di medan perang! ada dekat 10min wa buat cubaan menghentikan darah, mengalir macam air paip wa cakap lu! nasib la takde yang jadi raja bersiong lepas tu kan. tsk tsk!

lagi best, sepatut nya malam sebelum kenduri tu tidur awal la kan. esok tentu nak nampak segar ke kan. kitorang? masih lagi buat cubaan menyiapkan barang hantaran + bunga rampai. adoiyay! sampai pukul 5 pagi la jugak. masa kaklong dah letak minyak wangi keramat tu, pergh! kalau tak sebab orang dah ramai time tu kan, memang ada 'kebanjiran' la jugak wa rasa.

malam lepas tahlil+makan, biasa la ada sesi karaoke. nanti wa rajin wa upload video. wa tengah malas nak menggodek video tu lagi.
ada yang tanya, nikah ke nikah? masa mula2 cerita pasal jumlah jemputan dulu pon wa sendiri tanya soalan yang sama. bila dah setel wa baru perasan, majlis sebelah perempuan. memang agak meriah sikit kot. tapi memang seriously, totally flat out! walaupon wa ada buat cubaan melarikan diri kan. heh. golongan senior dah jadi pesara veteren yang sememang nya tak daya nak buat kerja. yang muda2 tak ramai. terang2 pulak tu memang ada yang tak terlibat pon. peh. ni warning kali ke18 dah kakngah. jangan spoil lagi aa. memang wa tak mau balik Raub langsung nanti. (sekarang kira berapa kali wa sebut 'memang').
wa melaram. bukan selalu nak tengok wa melaram. excited wa pegi beli baju tu tau. ada satu lagu patern, lagi lawa. tapi takde saiz L nye, yang tinggal saiz lagi kecik/lagi besar.
tup2 siap kenduri semua, wa demam seminggu. sakit2 badan segala. tipu ke tipu kan. minggu ni, demam dah takde, dia pakat batuk+selesema. aduh la. sakit tau batuk ni, dia tarik sampai ke ulu hati. rasa nak mintak MC sampai sihat betul. sebab duduk dalam aircond tu rasa sakit, tapi tiap kali balik je lega. haha. bos? amacam? awak ingat ni kompeni bapak awak? kalau kompeni bapak sendiri pon, wa rasa, abah wa pecat wa tanpa notis je.

kepada yang bertunang dan si penunang - tahniah. ni la tempoh dugaan korang. wa doakan yang baik2 je untuk korang. doa, doa jugak kan. iPhone wa mana?! dah la majlis ni banyak 'pengorbanan' wa buat. gila banyak darah menitik2. compensate la beb! wa hampir hilang jari, hilang mata. tapi tak mau iPhone dah. wa nak laptop jugak la macam kaklong. dapat Toshiba toughbook pon jadi. macihhh umiiiii!

mummy... bila turn kita?

Unnecessary luxury

happy 8th of 8, '08 guys! pretty numbers. apa lagi kalau sekali dengan jam: 8.08am kan. rasa macam keramat. heh.

mesti ramai orang nikah hari ni kan. saja la konon nak ambik berkat nombor lawa. choih.

wa dengan selambe rock cuti. tunggu kak siti abih kelas 12.30pm karang, jemput dia. kami ciao balik Raub. sat lagi nak pegi beli kek, mini-dvd, dengan abah punya jumper-cable.

coklat untuk tepak ni kan sungguh menggiurkan. wa beli hari selasa kat Hanifah, jalan TAR sana. pergh! syurga coklat rupanya situ. esok lusa wa pegi situ semata borong coklat.

doing some laundries, packing my stuff, and Raub... here I come!

I know I'm too set in my ways

longed to add to that post count. so here goes.

waiting for my gaji so I can shop 'til I drop! shopping list:

- a baju and tudung for Aug 9th.

- CDs for myself and Along (going to claim for expenses + a bit of riba' wouldn't hurt) haha.

- books? pass - got a stack of them unread, as tall as Petronas twin towers!

- sandals definitely.

- books... I thought I'd scratch this one off the list ;)

- few stuff for 'home'.

- aaaaaand books! OK. my kaki already gatal to be in a bookstore. how la? cannot stop one.

helep!

Let's pretend, happy end

ajib dropped by this evening. amik 'rete perdok' dia. macam biasa la kan. wa yang hantar balik. dah malam pon. sebelum tu sempat pegi makan dulu. ingatkan nak bawak pegi layan nasi goreng chicken chop SS2. macam tak sempat je. by 10pm he should be at his hostel. next time eh bro.

dah 9.30pm ni. apa lagi kan.

sebenar nya nak cerita part kelakar nya ni. exit tol bangi, dengan bangga wa pegang kad T'nG tu kan. tiba2 jatuh. adoiyay!! nasib baik la jatuh dekat je. kalo nya bergolek jauh? kad yang leper tu boleh bergolek ke? wa leave that to beloved reader's imagination.

sumpah wa dengan ajib gelak bagai nak rak. terus wa teringat tragedi 'buat baik berpada-pada' kakngah. rm5 melayang laju je. mua a a a a.

'Cause you bring me to my knees

I'm double posting. why do you care?

so, Monday morning, as I was just arriving at Masjid Jamek, abah called. mak got sick, I should come home. with nazmi around abah couldn't drive and expect his cucu to sit quietly.

kita, orang melayu particularly, ada kepercayaan. tak tau la nak kata tahyul ke apa. but God somehow provides us with instinct. cerita nya, orang kata kalo kening kanan bergerak tu petanda elok. kalo kening kiri petanda tak elok la kan. been having such HEAVY and RAPID tingling sensation on my left brow for the last couple of days. bukan la nak kata percaya benda mengarut2 kan. but base on experience je la, it will stop after any bad news or unpleasant event. seriously.

apa lagi kan. wa memang tak sedap hati. tambah pulak wa yang berimaginasi tinggi ni. memang kemain la wa membayang dan terbayang. orang meninggal la, accident la, some creepy skeleton coming out of closet la. kan. tsk!

tup tup abah yang call.

tak la kata kronik mana sakit nya mak tu. tapi badan orang tua. batu karang yang dia ada tu limits her movement and activities. kadang tidur pon payah. pegi hospital (gov), doktor suruh tunggu sampai mata kuning baru nak operate. hoh?! wa nak mencarut perkataan yang orang suka mencarut pon siap beristighfar. camne?

kalo private, sediakan ongkos nya, jalan je kan. bila cakap pasal duit, mak akan cakap biar la dia sakit. duit tu lagi elok buat belanja korang belajar etc. ooh tiktiktik air mata wa :P

abah's going to persuade her somehow. or we'll just drag her to tawakal. how's that. haha. meanwhile, berubat cara kampung. just to hold it off.

nak tahlil/kenduri ni. hope all goes well.

Lost on a highway that never takes me home

my travelling chronology for the last 72 hours (from KL): [Saturday] Tanjung Malim - Kuala Lumpur - Raub (stayed overnight) - [Sunday] Tanjung Malim - Kuala Lumpur (stayed overnight) - [Monday] Raub (again and of course wa tido la kan) - [Tuesday] back in Kuala Lumpur.

wa is still very ketoyong.

I slept well. that's never a problem, unless I had to much caffein in my system. but I was spent. my body ached from the constant driving. why and what on earth was I doing all the way to Tanjung Malim and Raub and back again? ahaa!

last Saturday morning wa pegi jemput kak siti, angkut barang. she's done with her short course and ready for practical training. wa kan adik ipar mithali. weeehem!! al kisah nya, wa bukan tau pon jalan ke UPSI tu. maka dengan bangga dan takbur nya wa "redah aje"! simply followed 'Ipoh' route on the green signboard.

at first wa agak cuak. siapa tak cuak kalo destinasi tak tertulis atas signboard. wa saw Ipoh, Sungai Buloh, Batang Berjuntai, Rawang. but NO 'Tanjung Malim' in sight. Bukit Kayu Hitam - yang paling jauh sekali tu dia letak! huh!

the highway is heading north, so mostly the cars on the road have 'a', 'p' plate number la kan. tiba2 wa 'k'. dah wa gelak guling2 sorang2 dalam kereta. sedagha no!

an hour (or so) of driving (and singing, or rather screaming on the top of my lungs), wa arrived to the unfamiliar town. stuffed kak siti's stuff in my CLK (cute little kelisa), stopped by KL and dropped 'em off, and off to Raub.

takde niat pon nak balik raub. tapi sebelum jemput kak siti, abah called tanya ada ura2 nak balik ke. wa tercerita la perihal nak pegi menjemput ni. later mak called saying she asked the police about Kuala Kubu - Raub route. wah! sungguh excited bonda ku. kira dua kali dah la kan, tanya wa balik ke tak.

mak, nani tau mak lindhu kat nani cangat2 lancung2. ihiks! to tell you the truth, wa dah sebulan tak jumpa jalan pulang. CLK kaput, out of budget. tapi bukan la langsung tak jumpa diorang. mak abah ada datang tidur sini. weekend pegi hantar ajib.

FYI, ajib is now in UKM. alhamdulillah rezeki dia ke situ. enrolled june 29th.

sambung balik. Sunday noon wa sent kak siti back to UPSI via Kuala Kubu. jalan lama, lalu gap Bukit Fraser. which is the reason of my state of ketoyong-ness. lama tak lalu jalan tu. that was actually my first trip using the old road - wa, personally, driving.

cut to the chase, 1.30pm dropped kak siti off, and wa back in KL by 2.30pm. yes. rempit all the way! as soon as wa stepped in the house, booffff! wa nampak tilam, bantal, put handphone on the side (mode: defeaningly LOUD - just in case wa tidur mati, which WAS the case)... and Zzz!

wa barely heard the phone ring around 5pm - abah asking about yadda yadda. I heard nazmi on the background, and abah saying "aa dah makde nak tidur". and bye. by then my head was pounding like hell!

and just when I thought my Monday going to be the usual lame Mondays I pretty much have...

Ache to be free

When boredom strikes...

Name one person you think is beautiful
-- Brian Haner Jr.

Name one thing you think is fun
-- Driving (wayyy beyond speed limit!).

Name one place you want to visit
-- Stonehenge, UK.

Name one of your favorite curse words
-- Mak dia cun! (which equivalent to any curse words you can think of - I don't actually curse).

Name one song you think describes you
-- Wayward One by Alter Bridge.

Name one of your fears
-- Cockroach.

Name one thing you love
-- Books.

Name one thing you hate
-- Being left out.

Name one language you want to learn
-- French.

Name one occupation you'd like to have
-- Successful business mogul (in my dream!).

Name one thing you want to accomplish before you die
-- Having a meet & greet session with any of my favourite bands would be nice.

Name one thing you are allergic to
-- No allergies so far.

Name one time you stayed up all night
-- This one night I got home from Cyberjaya, and later in the morning I had to drive my bro back to his school.

Name one thing that you really can't understand
-- People.

Name one day you hate
-- That day before she went away, for good.

Name one person you love
-- Mak - sorry Abah :P you're next to her, though.

Name one thing that changed your life
-- Internet.

Name one car you want to drive
-- A Hummer, for sure.

Name one thing you would give your life for
-- Another life.

Name one thing that really annoys you
-- Stereotype.

Name one time you felt rejected
-- Err...

Name one crazy place you fell asleep
-- Can't think of one.

Name one time you felt on top of the world
-- When I get good results.

Name one friend that you miss
-- *cough*

...and boredom wins!

HER 6th year...

Thanks for all you’ve done
I’ve missed you for so long
I can’t believe you’re gone
And you still live in me
I feel you in the wind
You guide me constantly

I’ve never knew what it was to be alone... no
Cause you were always there for me
You were always home waiting
But now I come home
And I miss your face so
Smiling down on me
I close my eyes to see

And I know
You’re a part of me
And it’s your song
That sets me free
I sing it while
I feel I can’t hold on
I sing tonight
'Cause it comforts me

I carry the things that remind me of you
In loving memory of the one that was so true
You were as kind as you could be
And even though you’re gone
You still mean the world to me

I’ve never knew what it was to be alone... no
Cause you were always there for me
You were always home waiting
But now I come home and it's not the same no
It feels empty and alone
I can't believe you're gone

And I know
You’re a part of me
And it’s your song
That sets me free
I sing it while
I feel I can’t hold on
I sing tonight
'Cause it comforts me

I’m glad He sets you free from sorrow
But I’ll still love you more tomorrow
And you will be here with me still
All you did you did with feeling
And you always found a meaning
And you always will...

Defeated and brought down

just got done watching "Life". and I was so bored I had to do this.

1) The phone rings, what is your ring tone?
Depends on who's calling: AB's "New Way To Live" - Mom & Dad. LP's "Given Up" - Abg. A7X's "Brompton Cocktail" - Ajib. LoG's "Requiem" - Along. A7X's "Almost Easy" - kakngah. 30STM's "Beautiful Lie" - maRk. OneRepublic's "Apologize" - Mimi. AB's "Ahavo Rabo Taco Salad" - General.

2) Who is your last text from?
My officemate, Hany.

3) Who was the hottest person you talked to today?
Myself :P

4) Favorite alcoholic drink?
Is nescafe considered 'alcoholic'? It IS addictive though.

5) Does the person you like know that you like them?
No.

6) Last time you talked to your mum?
Last wednesday, june 18.

7) Where are you right now?
Abg's crib.

8) If you HAD to kiss the last person you kissed, would you?
Yes. My nephew, duh!

9) Favorite gadget in the kitchen?
The electric kettle.

10) Favorite pie?
None.

11) How is your hair?
OK, I guess.

12) Any complaints?
I need a cut.

13) Who's the 1st person on your missed calls list?
maRk.

14) What did the last text message you received say?
Deleted. Don't remember.

15) Story behind your Friendster song?
Reminds me of my atuk rumah :(

16) Do you care if people hate you for no reason?
Not really.

Describe your:
17) Wallet?
Big but EMPTY. If you know what I mean.

18) Eyes?
Fits me.

19) Life?
Loads to improve.

20) Doing this weekend to come?
Send ajib off to further his study.

21) Wearing?
Tank top and long skirt.

22) Wanting?
More: CDs, books, chocolate.

23) Listening to?
The Mayfield Four - White Flag.

24) What do you smell?
Nivea deo.

25) Do you sleep naked?
No.

26) Do you like seafood?
No.

27) Do you remember your dreams?
Tried to.

28) Do you consider yourself a study freak?
NOT AT ALL :D

Are you still lost tonight?

dah lama tak menulis. bukan semalam baru? dah lama tak RAJIN menulis. haha.

tadi (pada ketika masih lagi hari sabtu) bosan. tido lambat bangun lambat, tido cepat pon lambat jugak bangun nye. wa peduli hape :P sensorang. KAT KOLUMPO. plan nak lepak dengan maRk. ajak kak isma.

mula2 ingat nak keluar petang2 sikit. tiba2 guruh, postponed lepas maghrib. sempat berkeruh dulu. dari lepas maghrib dah jadi pukul 9. layan meet the robinson :D favourite port - McD's jalan pahang. dah renovate lain ciot! euro 2008 punya pasal. ramai orang.

around 10.15pm kaklong called. I got a birthday wish PLUS siap nyanyi loudspeaker. wa teruja. makde, kalo tak sebab ramai orang, memang nani nangis tiktiktik air mata menitis kat situ. heh. balak encen depan mata. kena control beb! macehhh kepada anak2 ibu. walaupon tak jelas disebabkan "kebebirian" bebiri mummy. wa rasa cam korang call wa sambil duk kat tepi air terjun.

setelah lebam kitorang kat situ sampai 11pm, blah.

konon nak balik pi kedai makan kat dato' keramat. kak isma layan kuey teow kungfu - kat McD's jual mahal taknak konon. kan. hujan - nescafe la pilihan wa. bercerita pasal kucing dan lipas sampai 12.30am, blah.

diorang pujuk wa lagi bawak ronda KL. wa kan tergolong dalam golongan orang2 yang lembut hati. walawehh! ronda la. KLCC - Bukit Bintang. tepi2 club2 pub2 disco2. TEPI je ok. gatal lalu situ weekend kan. orang lain yang lalu situ semua nak kesitu. maka kami pon dengan selambe rock layan jamming sekali. adoiyay!

2am balik. dah la kan. bazir minyak kereta beb! rm2.70 seliter! ohh saja kasitau.

wa dah lama tak keluar malam. semenjak duamenjak tigamenjak ni wa tiada perasaan. errr no further comment ;)

kawan2 buat cubaan mem-pink-kan wa. sebab wa dah lama teringin nakkan stocking yang ada jari2, wa pakai jugak.

These are the lies I have created

right. this is going to be my 'About Me'. sort of. will be updated from time to time. whenever I discover any hidden talent, or something new.

- my real name: Hanie Syafura. people call me Hanie, Syafura, Nani, Kakde and Kak Pura. haha!
- I am, most of the time, a Gemini. and Cancer, some other time. June 21st, 1984.
- lazybum, which simply can't be help.
- at home, I'm a devoted couch potato.
- I read fiction novel. crime & mystery/horror/fantasy.
- I love rock/metal/alternative music. but I do also enjoy all those nonsense pop stuff. basically, anything that suit and soothe my ears.
- despite my age, I still watch (and loving it!) cartoon/anime.
- I indulge in anything made of/with chocolate. drinks, cake, ice cream, and of course - chocolate itself. dark chocolate preferrably.
- I get bored easily.
- I have a habit of reading several books at a time. so I need to buy books in bulk (more like 3-4 books).
- I'm one of those who possess a high-level patience. I put up with people too much, that sometimes I do feel like being used. but hey, test my patience, face the consequences ;-)
- You'd probably won't see me throwing fits at anyone, since I'm the type that 'simpan dalam'. which cost me a great deal of tears and headache!

But why'd she have to take advantage of me

happy 24 to me!

been one of THE conspirator with them before. so I knew this was coming. just didn't expect I would be so royally surprised, punk'd, flushed... and delighted.

may there'll be more years to come for me. insyaAllah.

I've been burried alive

ever felt used? especially with ones who are close to you. which makes it much worst. takes 'hurt' to a whole new/different level.

you want them to know - that they've used you. yet, you kept it to yourself.

if I have ever done the same, unintentionally, sorry to whoever you are. I know now, what it feels.

It's tearing me inside the way you break me down!

retail therapy has left me wanting more... and BROKE! aisyoo!


next:
- black leather case and/or black rubber incase
- in-ear earphone
- usb power adapter

and of course, new CDs. lots and lots of 'em! hooyeah!

Weary and bored...

one month since last post.

kak siti @ upsi - should be seeing her again this weekend. abg's away for 2 weeks - duty calls. nazmi is proudly being spoiled by nenek and atuk misai.

as for me. alone. spent MOST of my fulus on stuff that delight me, always. got me self a new Hello Kittie handbag, Sixx:A.M. and Alter Bridge cds, 2 limited KFC mugs, 4 novels, kain kurung & tudung (s), lots and lots of McD's & KFC & mamak's, and yada yada.

thanks to dearest officemate, wa demam for the 2nd time - 3 weeks after 1st recovery. and got worst. aisyoo! on the bright side, mak and abah spoil me more when I'm sick. hoyeah!

cik keli got kaput a few weeks back. new engine, new rempit-feel. smoother. haha.

aide is ok now. moved to a new home, just few kentuts from our home. heh.

bang bil (nabil of raja lawak) has won! yay! gonna miss JoZan.

lappy is getting old. no. ancient! proud owner of a 7-month-old-and-fully-cracked-keypad SE.

ban me self from any music store and bookstore, especially Kinokuniya, at least until next paycheck.

I should stop listening to songs, which remind me of how much I miss my atuk rumah so much - failed attempt!

Just so you know, you're on your own now - believe me!

wa demam for a week. selesema + sengau for another week. AND my lappy kaput, again, for the n-th time, for a week jugak - sebab tunggu my personal techies balik dari outstation. mua a a a. ni pon tunggu masa nak kaput semula je. dah la abang tak backup file² wa. masa dia cabut segala harddisk, ingatkan dia backup. tsk! gila ramai file yang wa sayang. gambar pakwe² wa. syn!!!

takpe. alah bisa tegal biasa. walaupun tak releven peribahasa tu, wa pajak letak je. wa download semula! kuangkuangBukitkuang.

jepun kalau buat cerita hantu, seram. tapi jalan cerita kebab. wa bosan. saja iklan.

cakap pasal cerita, siapa² mau teman wa tengok wayang? layan midnite best. wa rajin sekarang. tapi cerita kena best. takat layan Dunia Baru The Movie, tak payah beli pirate pon. download je. membazir!

Memoriku, genggami-lah

this may seems like I'm bragging. a bit :D so what. get over it.

a gift from my brother, when he came home after finishing his studies in the US. how happy I was. mind you, I don't get much presents, from anyone, you know. never thought it will last for 10 solid years. and after all this while, I still can use it even with some cracks here and there. want to know why I love this wallet so much? there are so many compartments that I even lost some of my stuff in there. seriously. and when I got to many coins and receipts in there, it would bulge. no wonder it cracked! haha. then I thought I treat myself (as a new year's present, sort of) for a new purse/wallet. guess what I found? drum roll. holy sh*t! that is even bigger than my mom's "purse pergi pasar". plus it is Nightmare Before Christmas's. wanted to get one of those for a long time now. just need a reason to have one. finally. it is, what should I say, spacious? just look at that. loads and loads of place to literally hide my fulus from myself. yes! urgh.

new mission: get me self a bigger handbag. I've 'usha'-ed this Hello Kittie's bag, where I bought the NBC purse (a stall in Midvalley, by the way. right in front of Harvey Norman's entrance). just the right size and colour. no, it is not pink or near that colour in ANY way. a dark chocolate handbag with HK head-figure. simple and pretty.

wa sudah menjadi seorang perempuan. akhirnya! my mom would've been proud if she knew. "uihh anak aku dah pandai melawa sekarang. anak aku ke?". mua a a a a!

Make it right!

haven't got the chance to tell you about my first concert. a bit backdated. well here goes.

Dec 9th 2007. MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE LIVE IN STADIUM MERDEKA, KL. nyeh nyeh! this won't be the last time. going to a concert I mean. considering the good time I had that day. it was raining, yeah. but it definitely worth the 103bucks I spent.

free-seating. quite far from the stage. they set up 2 big screens, so we free-seaters could see gerard's face CLEARLY. grin. letdowns? the guards found my camera. yes. they didn't allow us to bring any sort of camera in. WTF?! you went to a concert and no camera's allowed?! I was left out of curses. seriously. but on the bright side, it WAS raining. so tak la rosak camera kena hujan. kan.

started off with performances by Pop Shuvit and Onebuckshort. it's not that I don't support our local band. but they're just not my cup of tea. this and that, tech and sound check, MCR appeared around 8.30-ish pm.

we were [almost] soaking wet when the concert management gave us each a "garbage-plastic"-like raincoat. better than nothing, eh?

ok. the minute they showed up, the moment gerard opened his mouth, I wasn't myself anymore. I was "woohoo-ing" all thru the concert. for real yo! they were brilliantly awesome! I'm used to their live performance, thanks to youtube and other online sources. so I knew then what to expect. but watching them live, literally, few hundred metres away, was quite an experience for me. their songlist, not exactly in concert-play order but alphabetically:

01. Cancer
02. Cemetery Drive
03. Dead!
04. Desert Song
05. Famous Last Words
06. Give 'Em Hell Kid
07. Helena
08. House Of Wolves
09. I Don't Love You
10. I'm Not Okay (I Promise)
11. Mama
12. Sleep
13. Teenagers
14. The Sharpest Lives
15. This Is How I Disappear
16. Welcome To The Black Parade
17. You Know What They Do To Guys Like Us In Prison

they didn't play my favourite (among favourites) song - The Ghost Of You. why?

my pick for this particular show, "Sleep". that one was overwhelming. the one that really made me screamed my lungs out.

it was over in 2hours time. at home by 10.40pm. was hoping we'd bump into them outside stadium. no luck. sigh. I had 1st-timer-post-concert-syndrome (ok I made that term up, so what). I had the urge to "woohoo" out loud every now and then. even right now, as I'm typing this, which is 1-month later. well just for the sake of it... WOOOOHOOOOO!!!!! YEAHHH!!!

Cause I can't feel my face!

wa rasa wa salah bagi pendapat. wa rasa pendapatan wa disalah-erti. wa rasa wa terasa. wa rasa wa elok diam. wa rasa, wa dah tiada perasaan.

...but - know it's too late!

happy new year! 2008 is here. so what is everybody's resolution? I've given up of having one, long time ago. heh. I figured I'd just change or do anything that's need to be done, like, snap! done! doesn't need no new year's resolution of sort. or maybe that IS my 2008 resolution? ;-) abaikan rintangan udara.

been AWOL from blogging for a while. bantal dengan tilam dalam bilik selalu menang. nyeh nyeh. dah lama tak baca buku. 2 unread, 1 1/10-read, 1 new - bought it just now. yep. grabbed it after makan² with abg and kakngah. piza. best.

yang best lagi, sesi makan² jadi sesi luahan hati ke hati. wa ingat, wa je pernah tak bercakap dengan mak sebab dia marah wa (3 minggu beb. 3 hari tak bertegur je Allah dah tak terima amalan kita. pergh!). rupenya abg pon ade episod camtu. heh.

dah besar² ni semua benda dah jadi serius kan. seserius tahi pulak tu. wa terasa sangat tua. baru 23 tahun 6 bulan je rasa nye. tsk.

wa dah start merapek. ngantuk. tido 3 jam je. bagi la wa tido. sat lagi tah benda lagi wa mengarut. esok hari rabu! yay! esok hari keje. Zzz...