Thursday 24 November 2005

In the middle of nowhere

"But there is something left in my head..."

Just finished what's supposed to be done eons ago. at last! one more to go tho' =P been up all nite. now waiting for subuh prayer. got nothing to do, done attacking every possible losers in KOC. waited for my fav clip to be played, no luck! either i missed it or they ain't playin it anymo :'(

ok that's it. juz need to scrabble a few things =)) nite/morning everyone. here I reveal my newest guilty pleasure (dunno y I like dis song so much. catchy tunes!)...

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Time goes by so slowly
Every little thing that you say or do

I'm hung upI'm hung up on you
Waiting for your call
Baby night and day
I'm fed up
I'm tired of waiting on you

Time goes by so slowly for those who wait
No time to hesitate
Those who run seem to have all the fun
I'm caught up
I don't know what to do

Time goes by so slowly
I don't know what to do

Every little thing that you say or do
I'm hung up
I'm hung up on you
Waiting for your call
Baby night and day
I'm fed up
I'm tired of waiting on you

Ring ring ring goes the telephone
The lights are on but there's no-one home
Tick tick tock it's a quarter to two
And I'm done
I'm hanging up on you

I can't keep on waiting for you
I know that you're still hesitating
Don't cry for me
'cause I'll find my way
you'll wake up one day
but it'll be too late

Every little thing that you say or do
I'm hung upI'm hung up on you
Waiting for your call
Baby night and day
I'm fed up
I'm tired of waiting on you

Monday 21 November 2005

Kekasih awal dan akhir

"If only tears could bring you back"

u were wondering bout my title? hv no reason at all. i was browsing thru my lyric collection and there it was - Jamal Abdillah's Kekasih Awal Dan Akhir. god knows how it got into my comp! ;-) "i don't care!" as ricky martin sings his not so appealing song. as long as this post has a title, anything will do (ayat kaklong, copyrighted tuh!!! =P)

kay, i hv a new obsession - KINGS OF CHAOS!!! abg le yg bwk wabak nih! i know, u'd probably think "it's yesterdays news, girl!". t'hell wif u! it's new to me! much simpler than i thought it'd be. tekan situ, tekan sini, serang sana, serang sini. voila! seda² turns abih, duit ade dkt 2juta. muahahaha! ade la player offer jd commander, but i already hv one =P~ a good one too ;-\ "kakde, slalu upgrade yg nih. yg tuh xyah usik pon xpe. yg penting yg nih musti tinggi. slalu naikkan hak tuh, yg sana tuh biar. yg nih xpe". slmt ari raye abg! raya sbln kn. blk beli piza ye. takat double cheese burger mcd jek xpe ah! nani bleh beli sendiri! >:P

peh! sedap eskrem Xchoc nih, shingga menjilat buku lali!! kol 12 tgh mlm mkn eskrem? raub ade 7e skang kn =P

ehmm ttg arini. bgn kol10, mkn kueh bwg (lebih kueh raya). abah, mak, ajib lps ke benta (brekfes!) shopping skali le kot. penuh le sbakul. kol11 diorg blk, n.lemak utk wa 2bungkus (skit dol! tuh sbb 2bungkus) =P ajib pi main kompang, abah keje, mak tgk tv. wa tgk tv kejap pastu sambung membungkang sampai ptg. comp nih dh 2ari xtutup. duk render animation, gile lame! 1 1/2 mins nye animation render sampai 12jam!

adei! internet nih dh 8x disco dh, suh tutup aa maksud tersirat dan tersurat nye =P~ thats all 4 today kids! tune in again same time, same place, same channel. me - signing off...

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I tried to be perfect, but nothing was worth it
I don't believe it makes me real
I thought it'd be easy, but no one believes me
I meant all the things that I said.
If you believe it's in my soul
I'd say all the words that I know
Just to see if it would show
That I'm trying to let you know
That I'm better off on my own.
This place is so empty
My thoughts are so tempting
I don't know how it got so bad
Sometimes it's so crazy
That nothing can save me,
But it's the only thing that I have.
If you believe it's in my soul
I'd say all the words that I know
Just to see if it would show
That I'm trying to let you know
That I'm better off on my own.
I tried to be perfect it just wasn't worth it
Nothing could ever be so wrong
It's hard to believe me
It never gets easy
I guess I knew that all along.
If you believe it's in my soul
I'd say all the words that I know
Just to see if it would show
That I'm trying to let you know
That I'm better off on my own

Thursday 17 November 2005

Not meant for me

rite. have nothing to say, but i juz have to share this wif all of u out there.

now there's a lot of things goin on in my mind. muahahahahaha *wink* *drool* *dreaming*. however, since it's not relevant enuff to state it here (it's so controversial, i'd be on ntv7's edisi siasat - ape kejadah nye yg dipk kn dek bdk nih?!) =P

well i'm watching Santa Clause 2 for the 2nd time today, and god knows how many times i've watched it b4. btw it's 2.45 am. so that's it. nite everyone! (or morning?).

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You think you're smart
You're not, it's plain to see
That you want me to fall off
It's killing me, let's see
You've got the gall
Come take it all
The jury is coming
Coming to tear me apart
All this bitching and moaning
Come on it's on
I'm trapped in this world
Lonely and fading
Heartbroke and waiting
For you to come
We are stuck in this world
That's not meant for me
For me
So what you got
One last shot
It seems to me
That you're not needed
Come on
It's killing me, let's see
You got the gall
Come take it all
The jury is coming
Coming to tear me apart
All this bitching and moaning
Come on it's on
I'm trapped in this world
Lonely and fading
Heartbroke and waiting
For you to come
We are stuck in this world
That's not meant for me
For me

Tuesday 15 November 2005

Falling apart to half time

"I cry silently, I cry inside of me, I cry hopelessly, Cause I know I'll never breathe your love again..."

tgh tgk tiga abdul, smbl lyn kings of chaos. attack!!! dgn riak dan bongkak nye. padahal ade projek xsiap nih =P warghh spoil la tiga abdul tgh scene cintan *blthhrr!* tido kt kandang kuda. ekeke. movie dolu², nk dijadikn cite. kandang kuda pon jd!!! *ihiks!* menyerang sat. hah! duit 834K!!! how's that! =D bleh beli blackpowder missile lg sebjk. muahahahaha >:D

1,184,920 gold!!!! warghhhkakakakaka =D >:D =P~ beta suka! cukup², jgn tamak haloba. upgrade situ sket, sini sket. turn pon dh abih huhuhu. adeh letih! =P chief khadam!

ermm no story mory the morning glory. sbb duk umah lg, xbuat pape. membuta, tgk tv, mkn, lyn solitaire, mkn lg, tgk tv lg, tebungkang lg. i hv exam dis friday, 3d animation & modelling. jgn xcaye!! sronot blaja, tp bile nk buat sendri tuh mls sket. leceh! tuh yg projek xsesiap lg nih. idea kering! xtau nk buat psl ape. buat crazy frog pon best kn. tp xde ke-original-an la plak kn. biasa pepg buta nih la byk idea, nih dh nmpk byg bantal ngan katil jek dh. hehek!

orait ah. nk surf internet, kot ade pape yg bleh mendtgkn idea² bernas disaat² kritikal nih. wa mmg suke jek buat keje last² minit nih. alaa Numb3rs la plak main la ni. pakwe ensem blakon dol! biasa blakon citer bodo² jek, skali dlm nih jd mat genius! lyn tv la dulu ek tehee... *wink wink*

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I'm being haunted by a whisper
A chill comes over me
I've been trapped inside this moment
I'm not a victim, I'm not a freak

Free me
before I slip away
Heal me
wake me from this day
Can somebody help me?

I've seen the face of my affliction
of my reality
I'm being tortured by the future
of things that are yet to be
I'm being haunted by a vision
it's like the morning never comes
I feel the burden of confusion
always searching... on the run

Free me
before I slip away
Heal me
wake me from this day
Can somebody help me?

Now, I'm not a hero... no
but the weight of the world's
is on my soul
these imagines burn my eyes
they're burning me up inside

Free me
before I slip away
Heal me
wake me from this day
Can somebody help me?

Thursday 10 November 2005

God put a smile upon your face

wahh sminggu dh lps syawal. raya ke8 dh arinih (it's actually 2.22 in the morning) just woke up after dozing for half an hour kot. mule wa tgk csi, pastu csi buat autopsi kt wa muekekeke =P okla readers² skalian (korg xde keje lain ke dr mbaca blog org nih ;-)) kita stat citer dr raya ke4.

abg is officially engaged!!! akhirnya! i'm not okayyyyyyy.. u wear me out!! *iklan sket, wa tgh lyn mcr live on bbc - ulangan la tp*. ha abg kaeh btunang dh! suke dia. bkn slalu btunang ye bang ye =)) ari ahad tuh bgn punye la pg. wa ngan k.ngah lyn enset, tdo kul3.30pg. ha amik! kene bgn kul5.30. rase mual, nk muntah, nk pensan, yg penting NGATOKSS la! pdn muke! siap punye siap, kami be2 gak yg last skali trun. mekap dol! muahahaha =D

around 7 - 7.30am gerak dr raub. kotnye la, xmandang jam pon. benti kt hajrah bentong, pekena roti canai skeping. abg xmkn! minum jek. hek hek! oh ye, dr raub 6keta. pot pet siap mkn sume, gerak benti kt hentian gombak. joined by pakteh sekuarge (6keta n counting). nk dijd kan citer la kn, keta abg buat hal. kire gempar n gempak gak aa skejap. sian abg (ni blog wa ke blog abg, penuh ngan 'abg' jek dh). tinggal la keta kesygn kt kl. dia naik ngan along. isi² keta dia dibahagi la kt keta² lain - tolak 1 keta.

woohoo!!! when i feel heavy metal!! woohoo!! *eklan lg! mcr buat cover blur - song 2 live! woohoo!!* kami pon bransur la peplahan. plahan?! cannot la, wa dh biasa bwk sensorg kn. kalo xpusing 3kali meter tuh xsah. abah kata gerak jek la memsg janji sampai tol alor gajah kump. wa ape lg, dgn bangganya zoommmm!! 8-O kt tol sg. besi, k.linah n husband plak join (tmbh blk 1 keta). ha abg (lg!) btunang jek 7keta, agak² kawen nnt sewa bas keat kita ekekekekekekekeke (slmt ari raya =P~)

kt hentian senawang, abah potong! laju woooooo! bkn sng nk tgk abah bwk laju. wa benti kt situ, k.ngah kene bwk keta. si anis nk ke mummy nye plak. xpela, wa dpt le bwk truna² idaman mlaya. dh benti kt tol a.gajah, naik lg epit plak. nye bantai la buat xsmenggah 1keta tuh, rasa cam "korg trun jln kaki!". seb baik le adik², biol wa duk seketa ngan dorg 8-P~ belok nye belok nye signal nye brek, around noon sampai destinasi yg dituju.

bwk tepak nih, ingatkn ade la yg nk menyambut. disuruh nye kita letak sendiri *tsk tsk* tuh thn lg la. nih dh duk mule majlis nih, dibhn nye la pot pet pot pet kuar nujum pak blalang la (adoiiiii! lapa tuhhhhh!!!) abg kira besyukur le xde kt atas. pastuh kt krusi tmpt sarung cincin, bleh plak ade LIPAS!!! wargh!!! geligeligeligeligeligeligeligeligeligeligeligeligeli yuck! harkk tuihh! pesal la kuar sensiang buta, kuar aa blah mlm, wa dh blk =P

dipendekkan citer, btunang le mamat ngan minah nih. kami bwk dulang 7, dibls 12 ke 14. ntah le xkira. byk mknan jek, suke la! kueh raya, kek, kek lg, buah²an, baulu beso kecik, bunga telur, bunga rampai, sireh, baju songkok abg, ade lg ke? kire slmt la. alhamdulillah...

blk dh dkt asar, singgah kt hentian seremban. GILE BAGAK RAMEI ORG!!! sume nk keje senin nye kan. dlm keta wa ade ajib, pade, kodek, epit *name memsg gangster kg dusun!*. bebdk nih biadapZz sungguh la! kejung pipi wa gelak =)) bkn slalu wa nk mrasa ramai adik. laki plak tuh, rasa nk ditampar sensorg =P bile blk tuh memsg jek dh la. k.long k.ngah blk kl, aide dr mlk lg dh blah xikut kl. wa benti kt projet gombak, abg amik pade. wa pecut dr tol gmbk pi bentong 15min (rekod baru wa) dgn ujan nye, mlm nye, ramai keta nye. y? sbb wa ingat abg dh tinggalkn kami *tsk tsk*

akhir citer, bentong - raub xbleh nk lelaju, potong². lane ke kl jammed! penuh! tetiba jln yg gelap jd terang - spt diberkati bak kata k.ngah. sampai umah dkt 10pm. abg nk tgk smallville skali kuar kalho na hoo. kuang kuang kuang! wa gelak guling² =D sok nye wa sakit kpala, sampai le la nih 4 ari kendian bedenyut lg. sungguh wa nangis, gile skt! *:-( tp raya kali nih yg plg best la smenjak dh besar² nih. pe lg dpt 2gether² reramai, walo pun utk 1mlm jek. mintak² masih ade raya thn dpn, n makin meriah hendaknye =)) slmt ari raya n maaf zahir & batin kt sume²... :'-)

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Wooooo Hooooooo!

I got my head checked
By a jumbo jet
It wasn't easy
but nothing is... no

When I feel heavy metal
And I'm pins and I'm needles
Well, I lie and I'm easy
All the time but I am never sure why I need you
Pleased to meet you

I got my head done
When I was young
It's not my problem
It's not my problem

When I feel heavy metal
And I'm pins and I'm needles
Well, I lie and I'm easy
All the time but I am never sure why I need you
Pleased to meet you

Oh Yeah

Friday 4 November 2005

Come, angel of unknown

1st day of raya. lps berslman di pg raya, mintak ampun maap, nangis skit² (kene jaga bedak dol!) blk karak. pe best? dpt duit raya!!!! muahahaha sronot bangka² dpt duit raya lg. ade la 90hengget gak, tuh kira byk gile dh utk kaum² yg patut xde peruntukan dh nih =P
sampai around noon trus pi umah wan dulu (lewat sbb mohd² skalian pi masjid dulu, along naik ke bkt dulu). mende yg dituju, lemang! lembut, xmcm lemang biasa beli. tesandar le skali pulun. mmg xsentuh mende lain dh, xde ruang ehehe =D


dh dkt asar nk ke bentong sbenanye, tp dlm pd nk cpt nih td singgah plak dulu umah makteh. mmg kejap jek la tp. org² tua² sempat le ngumpat sket² pastuh blah le. sampai umah wan de kt bentong dlm kul5 kot. smayang.. mkn!!! 8-D nasik himpit plak, pedas! ratah rendang ayam, pergh! rase cam nk "wan, bungkus!". =P~ kata biadapZz plak kang kan.

6.30 blk umah, mak nk ngeja kedai spek. dkt kul7 sampai, dlm ati ade skit sedih. y? terlps diary of: my chemical romance!!!! huwaaaaaaaaaa!!! :'( xpe la raye nye psl kan. janji duit raya ade beb! bleh beli cd! yes! s.o.a.d nk kuar baru lg! tower record, nnt kan kemunculan ku! =))

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Stay out of the light
Or the photographs that I gave you
You can say a prayer if you need to
Or just get in line and I’ll grieve you

Can I meet you, alone
Another night and I’ll see you
Another night and I’ll be you
Some other way to continue
To hide my face

Another knife in my hands
A stain that never comes off the sheets
Clean me offI'm so dirty, babe
The kind of dirty
Where the water never cleans off the clothes
I keep a book of the names and those

Only go so far to bury them
So deep and down we go

Touched by angels though
I fall out of grace
I did it all so maybe
I’d live this everyday

Another knife in my hands
A stain that never comes off the sheets
Clean me offI’m so dirty, babe
It ain't the money
And it sure as hell ain't just for the fame
It’s for the bodies I claim and those

Only go so far to bury them
So deep and down we go

Down
And down we go
And we all fall down


And we'll all dance along to the tune of your death
We’ll love again, we'll laugh again
And it's better off this way

And never again, and never again
They gave us two shots to the back of the head
And we're all dead now

I tried, one more night, one more night
Well I’m laughing', crying', laughing'I tried, well I tried, well I tried
Cause I tried, but I lied
I tried


And we'll love again and we'll laugh again
We’ll try again and we'll dance again
And it's better off this way
So much better off this way
I can't clean the blood off the sheets in my bed

Never again, and never again
They gave us two shots to the back of the head
And we're all dead now