A melody, a memory, or just one picture

a melody...

Staring at the carnage, praying that the sun will never rise.
Living another day in disguise.
These feelings cant be right, lend me your courage to stand up and fight,
Ohhh, tonight.

Ooooo.. Stand up and fight.

The fighting rages on and on,
To challenge me you must be strong.
I'll walk your land but don't belong,
Two million soldiers can't be wrong.

It's no fun but I've been here before.
Far from home and I'm fighting your war.
(Not the way I pictured this, I wanted better things)
Some are scared, others killing for fun,
I shot a mother right in front of her son.
(Take this from my consciousness and please erase my dreams)

Fight for honor, fight for your life.
Pray to God that our side is right.
Though we won but still we lose, until I make it home to you.
I see our mothers filled with tears
Grew up so fast where did those years go?
Memories wont let you cry unless i don't return tonight.

So many soldiers on the other side,
I take their live so they don't take mine.
(Scared to make it out alive now, murders all i know.)
Nobody tells me all the reasons were here,
I have my weapon so there's nothing to fear .
(Another day another life but nothing real to show for.)

Fight for honor, fight for your life.
Pray to God that our side is right.
Though we won I still may lose, until i make it home to you.
I see our mothers filled with tears
Grew up so fast where did those years go?
Memories wont let you cry unless i don't return tonight.

Staring at the carnage, praying that the sun will never rise.
Living another day in disguise.
These feelings cant be right, lend me your courage to stand up and fight.

Watching the death toll rise wondering how im alive.
Strangers blood on my hands, shot all i can.
There are no silent nights watching your brothers all die
To destroy all their plans with no thought of me.
(No thought of me) No thought of me.
Ohhhhh...

Walk the city lonely, memories that haunt are passing by.
A murderer walks your streets tonight.
Forgive me for my crimes.
Don't forget that I was so young,
Fought so scared, in the name of God and Country.

don't supposed that this song is appropriate for what i'm gonna write. but what the "toot"! *heh* i'm juz not feeling Vitamin C-ish, u know?! (",)

a memory...

year 2002 - 2005. zmn² mngenal dunia luar slain raub =) penuh aksi! muahahaha cenggitu rasenye duk berkwn ye. met new friends. wif so many different "pe'el"! yg skepala, yg skaki. the best of all - yg setilam sebantal sebaju setudung - slagi ade "se" la! byg kn, single bed nye tilam tuh bleh tdo 2org. bkn hak keding², hak teletubbies nih!!!

muakakakakakaka kalo begadoh, xyah citer la. pompuan kn, gadoh bkn pakai tgn. psycho. simpan dlm. once boom! siap pindah umah. then dlm serumah bleh ade mazhab lain² (interms of 'kepala' la). kwn dpn, musuh blakang, backstabber, 2faced (rasenye sume tuh same jek tehee). kadang bleh memekak sampai pg, gelak cam setan. tepk gak auntie² kt sblh nih xkesah ke. tp rase nye xde sbrg aduan pon =P

bosan jek "projet jom"! penuh la keta. kul baper? 12midnight & above! ice capucino sglas ngan sandwich, tuh jek. kalo x, mcD. sejam 2 plak tuh, cam order satey! satey pon skang org order beforehand. kalo lapa jek tp xmo lepaks, pi hj tapah kt otk. nasik goreng ayam! xpon beli kt abg burger sblh "burger special 4 bang, 2 ayam 2 daging". wa? driver duk dlm keta jek, bebdk nih la kuli. muahaha wa suke jek. "milo ais jgn lupe tau!". rase kaye sket, kol 2 pi cari kfc 24hrs. ya Allah indah nye alam! pak guard kt umah tuh pandang jek la. kitorg kalo lalu, buat dialog. pak guard: "bebdk nih xreti duk umah ke hape?!". ekekeke

oh ye, yg best tuh. 1mlm saje la ngade pi dataran merdeka. almost midnight nih, lepak lg. dataran quite bz that nite, rehersal citrawarna. tp time tuh dh blk memsg, tinggal couple², mat² motor, mat² lepaks. clock struck midnight. lepak lagi! dkt tiang bendera tgh tuh besar gabak tuh nih. 1am. still lepak. tetiba ade pakcik datang. "nih buat pe sinih" "korg nih student" "sedar jam kol baper" - dbkl! to spice things up, MINAH SORG NIH PI TINGGALKN IC KT DLM PENCIL CASE!!!!! CERDIK!!!!!!!

ape lg, kire cam kene tahan la jap. pakcik tuh membebel la pot pet po pet. duit 1sen la, 5sen la. siap bwk van dpn opis, kuar gari (kecut dol! sungguh!). masalah nye pakcik tuh bleh pakat ngan memember dia plak takut kn kitorg! biadapZz! rupe nye, mlm sblum nye ade student kene ragut. tuh yg diorg lecture abih tuh. insaf aa sejam. sejam!! diorg duk takut kn kitorg sampai dkt kul 3pg!

last² pakcik tuh kate " ha nih amik nasik bungkus lebih org citrawarna td. byk lebih nye, korg amik la yg nih". dpt la kami 4 bungkus nasi. akakakakakakakakakaka on da way blk, dlm keta senyap! bkn malaikat jek dh lalu tuh =P dh sampai umah, mentekedarah! pastuh kitorg gelak sampai pg. mengimbau blk ape dh jd mlm tuh. heh sok nye pi klas mamai!! blk klas qada' tdo memsg! adoi la! since then gang betukar ganti la. kwn tetap kwn, tp gang tuh lain. rite guys?!

or just one picture...

well actually, whole bunch of pics combined into 1! center - me n mak dlm keta, dlm jam, dpn library negara. clockwise - azie, kakngah, pawie, mak. atau name glamer - kak nah, kakngah (xtuka sbb dh mmg 'kak'), kak pawie, kak mak! me? kak pura!!! kuangkuangkuang korg nih kn, menguji kekampungan sy jek la! mak nye keje la nih. bebdk junior called her "kak" mak. dia nk suma org pon ade kak. so every one of us has been promoted to "kak-". hermm, remember the good ol' days girls...

--> dedicated to wdn 8819 & kbe 2593 nye gang. miss ya!
--> kaklong, when r u planning to tell me (us in raub) bout this new B of urs? dh belari nnt? ;-) trase nih. perisa megi ayam!

Coz everyday we're gettin' older, everyday we're gettin' colder

hah! good mornin' everyone. this is early. woke up after 2 hours of dreamless sleep?! or maybe i juz don't remember what i dream about :-/

made myself an EARLY morning meal. telur goreng n nasik!! =D mkn pns² sedap dol! pe lg time² ujan pepg buta nih. katak msk kt dpr! buduss la kataks! >:O komdian smpt lg layan raising helen - for the 2nd time. not 15mins later, i cried - for the 2nd time! =P

umah dh sunyi blk skang. along dh naik umah mentua dia. so abg u don't hv to worry bout me being mad at ur FAV nephew anymo' ;-) bile nk blk oi? mcd 1 set ek! mekasih daun keladi =))

got nothin' more to say. juz bored, so decided to scribble few things. now it's out of my system. nighty nite toots...

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Hey...J-J-Jaded
You got your mama's style
But you're yesterday's child to me
So JadedYou think that's where it's at
But is that where it's supposed to be
You're gettin' it all over me
Exer-ated

My my baby blue
Yeah I've been thinkin' 'bout you
My my baby blue
Yeah you're so Jaded
And i'm the one that Jaded you

Hey...J-J-Jaded
In all it's misery
It will always be what I love...and hated
And maybe take a ride to the other side
We're thinkin' of
We'll slip into the velvet glove
And be Jaded

My my baby blue
Yeah I been thinkin' 'bout you
My my baby blue
Yeah i'm so Jaded
And baby, i'm afraid of you

You're thinkin' so complicated
I've had it way up to here
But it's so over rated
Love and hate it
Wouldn't trade it
Love me Jaded...yeah...

Hey...J-J-Jaded
There ain't no baby please
When i'm shootin' the breeze with her
When everything you see is a blur
And ecstacy's what you prefer

Untitled

ok this has nothing to do wif Simple Plan's Untitled or what so ever. not even bau² kentots! tehee =P~ I juz simply run out of title. so that's 1st thing come to my mind.

anywayZz, sminggu dh danial kt umah. perot manjang nye kosong! jaga jek nk menyoyot. xdpt jek mraung la dia. kalah makde nih ha! ;) yesterday pakteh n makteh came from karak, bwk wan ngan atuk skali. ala² mkn besar la gak belah mlm nye. poor kaklong, couldn't join us mkn² - dlm pantang! mak xde, pi serdang ade kursus.

si muhammad haikal ngan pe'el dia la. oh ye, need to clear things up. abg - idak le nani hamuk ke si muhammad tuh. ckp jek, menyatakan perasaan pd ketika kejadian. kalo le nani bjaya time square menghamukkn diri, it means that my transformation is complete!! jd 'ehem²'!! wargh! durhaka! tbakar dpn kaabah! muahahahahaha raya dpn mintak ampon >:D

k.long - jujur!! patut wa klentong. kata nam stengah ke, 15.90sen ke, 8.30sen ke. =)) piza mane? thn lps bwk ke thn ni dh tuh! kene ade bunga nih!! bwk mai sini la ur baby jumpe "pembuli-in-the-making" kt umah nih =P trase cam sjarah mungkin berulang x? ;)

well that's all i hv to say, for now. later peeps...

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she can do anything at all
have anything she pleases
the power to change what she thinks is wrong
what could she want with me
yeah

wait just one minute here
i can see that she´s trying to read me
suddenly i know

she´s going to change the world
she´s going to change the world
she´s going to change the world
but she can´t change me
no she can´t change me

she has the daylight at her command
she gives the night its dreams
yeah
she can un cover your darkest fears
make you forget you feel them
wait just one minute more
i can see that she´s trying to free me
suddenly I know

she´s going to change the world
she´s going to change the world
she´s going to change the world
but she can´t change me
no she can´t change me

suddenly i can see everything thats wrong
with me yeah
what can i do im the only thing i really have
at all

wait just one minute here
i can see that she´s trying to need me
suddenly i know

she´s going to change the world
she´s going to change the world
she´s going to change the world
but she can´t change me
no she can´t change me

Living another day in disguise

1st entry for the year! welcome 2006. pejam celik dh msk 2nd week pon. my resolution for 2006? stop making anymore NEW resolution from now on. y? coz I never really try to fulfill 'em =P

rite. what i've been doin' since my last post. 3 minggu dok ulang alik pi kemaman!! letih dol! memula saje jek aa bejln. tgk umah baru along, xjauh dr umah lame pon. dulu msk kiri, la ni msk kanan. yg mnarik? coverage enset xkuat, 1-2 bar jek. rase nk campak jek tepon. seb baik la syg. kalo xbekecai dh.

komdian, 2nd week nye pi lg sana. kaklong pensan kt opis. pitam jek, pas kuar toilet. doc tahan la 1mlm kt wad. due date not until 21jan. mmg xde pape la pon, sok nye blk umah. tp gaye kaklong dh rupe nk bsalin sok nye gak heh =P kebetulan ajib dpt cuti, jmpt la dia skali. seb la jmpt kt stesen bas jek. kalo kena pi muazam skali, letih wa lg!

finally, 4 days ago. along called, kaklong msk wad blk. trun air dh. lbh sminggu awal! ari raya pi la smula, mak kemain le cemas nye. guess what? after 24hr her water broke, si muhammad sorg tuh xnk kuar gak lg. pecah ketuban nye kemain lg xnyempat! so kena induce la. 2hours later, 11.37 - 11 jan 2006 lahir la sinchan the 2nd. MUHAMMAD DANIAL BIN MOHD. RIZAL.

haa, tuh idong 'kuturunan' tuh!! muahahahahaha >:D jari panjang² dol! ikut abah dia. si haikal segan² silu jek nk pegang adik dia. bile kita duk lyn danial, mule la dia tarik muncung la, mengeluh la. xreti dia nk 'berkongsi'. 4thn sensorg, tetiba dtg geng =))

nih td baru blk dr sana. from kemaman wa drive. sampai bentong tengkorok wa kejung!! ntah pehal wa tringat kt brita dlm paper td pg. hak mat motor eksiden 3 kali langgar dek keta tuh. siap ade ilustrasi tuh! trus rase beterbangan di angkasa jek. so sblum wa drive 1family pi spital, baik wa kasi abah plak bwk.

ok that concludes today's post. pretty damn tired! so i'm gonna crash for now. slmt ari raya qurban to all muslims. think it's not too late to wish a happy new year to everyone...

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Seize the day or die regretting the time you lost
It's empty and cold without you here, too many people to ache over

I see my vision burn, I feel my memories fade with time
But I'm too young to worry
These streets we travel on will undergo our same lost past

I found you here, now please just stay for a while
I can move on with you around
I hand you my mortal life, but will it be forever?
I'd do anything for a smile, holding you 'til our time is done
We both know the day will come, but I don't want to leave you

I see my vision burn, I feel my memories fade with time
But I'm too young to worry, (a melody, a memory, or just one picture)

Seize the day or die regretting the time you lost
It's empty and cold without you here, too many people to ache over

Newborn life replacing all of us, changing this fable we live in
No longer needed here so where do we go?
Will you take a journey tonight, follow me past the walls of death?
But girl, what if there is no eternal life?

I see my vision burn, I feel my memories fade with time
But I'm too young to worry, (a melody, a memory, or just one picture)

Seize the day or die regretting the time you lost
Its empty and cold without you here, too many people to ache over
Trials in life, questions of us existing here, don't wanna die alone without you here
Please tell me what we have is real

So, what if I never hold you, or kiss your lips again?
So I never want to leave you and the memories of us to see
I beg don't leave me

Seize the day or die regretting the time you lost
It's empty and cold without you here, too many people to ache over
Trials in life, questions of us existing here, don't wanna die alone without you there
Please tell me what we have is real

(Silence you lost me, no chance for one more day)
(Silence you lost me, no chance for one more day)
I stand here alone
Falling away from you, no chance to get back home