epi besday kaklong! tp walau bagaimana pon, dec 25 tetap dibubarkn *miahamuahaha*
ahad ptg kakngah n jon jmpt wa ngan epit blk ktn. makde bleh lg memesan benih pokok la, pasu la. semput la jugak cik keli kakngah. tu pon xjd bwk pasu lagi. pastu nk singgah t'loh jmpt anis ngan adam lg *pehh* bleh kata kalo keli tu ade mulut, nye meraung la jugak *kuakuakua*
wa amik crash course jd ibu tunggul :D alhamdulillah la, slmt sehat walafiat anak² skalian. adam baik, senyap cam ibu dia *ehem* tu ye tumpah kuah wa. sket pon xde kene mengene ngan mummy ngan umi dia yg havoc >:) anis pon, dpt nye baik. baik la sgt. "anis malu ngan abg jon..." - ngan muke² skali. gediks! *tumpah dr mummy* =P pastu dpt nye jayaaattt, astaga! nk jugak nye melompat + berdiri atas kita cam kita dukung adam. dia hengat dia ringan²?!! kire bersyukur la dgn keadaan wa yg membesar bagai juara ni *muakakakaka*
td gerak dr ktn dlm 8.30pm. 2 keta, cik keli dara ngan cik keli teruna. ikut jln lama yg sungguh la adventurous nye sbb anta ank² pulang ke pangkuan mama bon. xpuas sbenarnye. dpt tido semlm jek. ajakan utk beraye aji beramai² tu mmg tempting. tapiii...
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something has been taken
from deep inside of me
a secret i've kept locked away
no one can ever see
wounds so deep they never show they never go away
like moving pictures in my head
for years and years they've played
its easier to run
replacing this pain with something numb
its so much easier to go
than face all this pain here all alone
if i could change i would
take back the pain i would
retrace every wrong move that i made i would
if i could
stand up and take the blame i would
if i could take all the shame to the grave i would
its easier to run
replacing this pain with something numb
its so much easier to gothan face all this pain here all alone
sometimes i remember
the darkness of my past bringing back these memories i wish i didn't have
sometimes i think of letting go
and never looking back
and never moving forward so there would never be a past
just washing it aside
all of the helplessness inside
pretending i don't feel so misplaced
is so much simpler than change
Tuesday, 26 December 2006
Friday, 22 December 2006
I'm the lie living for you so you can hide
semlm pi mlk ngan mimi. buat projek underground. bpk dia xtau kami pi *miahamuahaha* wa kasitau abah pon masa bgn pg nk pi kul 6.30am =P nasibbbb la plak dia 'hemm' kan jek. pastu dh la ujan xbenti² kn. mmg nasibbbb la jugak jln² yg kami lalu tu xbanjir. ade la 1 jln tu, longkang tersumbat. jln tgh bandar mane ade sg. cuak la kejap. tu la mimi, ni kes daulat sbb durhaka kt ibu bapa. kuangkuangkuang! next time kita buat lg...
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Over the sea and far away
She's waiting like an iceberg
Waiting to change
But she's cold inside
She wants to be like the water
All the muscles tighten in her face
Buries her soul in one embrace
They're one and the same
Just like water
The fire fades away
Most of every day
Is full of tired excuses
But it's too hard to say
I wish it were simple
But we give up easily
You're close enough to see that
You're the otherside of the world to me
On comes the panic light
Holding on with fingers and feelings alike
But the time has come
To move along
The fire fades away
Most of every day
Is full of tired excuses
But it's too hard to say
I wish it were simple
But we give up easily
You're close enough to see that
You're the otherside of the world
Can you help me?
Can you let me go?
And can you still love me
When you can't see me anymore?
The fire fades away
Most of every day
Is full of tired excuses
But it's too hard to say
I wish it were simple
But we give up easily
You're close enough to see that
You're the otherside of the world
The otherside of the world
You're the otherside of the world to me
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Over the sea and far away
She's waiting like an iceberg
Waiting to change
But she's cold inside
She wants to be like the water
All the muscles tighten in her face
Buries her soul in one embrace
They're one and the same
Just like water
The fire fades away
Most of every day
Is full of tired excuses
But it's too hard to say
I wish it were simple
But we give up easily
You're close enough to see that
You're the otherside of the world to me
On comes the panic light
Holding on with fingers and feelings alike
But the time has come
To move along
The fire fades away
Most of every day
Is full of tired excuses
But it's too hard to say
I wish it were simple
But we give up easily
You're close enough to see that
You're the otherside of the world
Can you help me?
Can you let me go?
And can you still love me
When you can't see me anymore?
The fire fades away
Most of every day
Is full of tired excuses
But it's too hard to say
I wish it were simple
But we give up easily
You're close enough to see that
You're the otherside of the world
The otherside of the world
You're the otherside of the world to me
Sunday, 17 December 2006
A true friend stabs you in the front
ayayayayayayayayayayayayay.. ayayayayayaya.. yayaya.. mmmekkkkkk.. *shrieks* don't ask *geleng kpale*
thundercats, wa bleh lyn lg. not a big fan, but I grew up with "thunder.. thunder.. thunder.. THUNDERCATS!". beautiful cheetara *dreamy eyes* TAPIIII power rangers?!! isk isk. sbb haikal nk tgk, wa TERPAKSA tgk skali! cis cis dan cis lg.
along sefamili blk, sampai jumaat ptg. 18 & 19 kaklong ade kursus di kolumpo. so nk tinggal kn haikal ngan danial ngan wan bukit nye.
ingat minggu ni nk pi ktn. tp, ajib je pi ngan kodek ngan fadhil. jemput dek kakngah n jon. *jerit cam anis* ANISSSSSS, NEXT TIME IBU DTG YEEEEEEEE!!! makde, tehee *main jari* jgn laaaa sumpah nani :D i lebiu makde...
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Holding hands
Skipping like a stone
On our way
To see what we have done
The first to speak
Is the first to lie
The children cross
Their hearts & hope to die
Bite your tongue
Swear to keep your mouth shut
Ask yourself
Will i burn in Hell?
Then write it down & cast it in the well
There they are
The mob it cries for blood
To twist the tale
Into fire wood
Fan the flames
With a little lie
Then turn your cheek
Until the fire dies
The skin it peels
Like the truth, away
What it was I will never tell...
Bite your tongue, swear to keep
Keep your mouth shut
Make up something
Make up something good...
Holding hands
Skipping like a stone
Burn the witch
Burn to ash & bone
thundercats, wa bleh lyn lg. not a big fan, but I grew up with "thunder.. thunder.. thunder.. THUNDERCATS!". beautiful cheetara *dreamy eyes* TAPIIII power rangers?!! isk isk. sbb haikal nk tgk, wa TERPAKSA tgk skali! cis cis dan cis lg.
along sefamili blk, sampai jumaat ptg. 18 & 19 kaklong ade kursus di kolumpo. so nk tinggal kn haikal ngan danial ngan wan bukit nye.
ingat minggu ni nk pi ktn. tp, ajib je pi ngan kodek ngan fadhil. jemput dek kakngah n jon. *jerit cam anis* ANISSSSSS, NEXT TIME IBU DTG YEEEEEEEE!!! makde, tehee *main jari* jgn laaaa sumpah nani :D i lebiu makde...
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Holding hands
Skipping like a stone
On our way
To see what we have done
The first to speak
Is the first to lie
The children cross
Their hearts & hope to die
Bite your tongue
Swear to keep your mouth shut
Ask yourself
Will i burn in Hell?
Then write it down & cast it in the well
There they are
The mob it cries for blood
To twist the tale
Into fire wood
Fan the flames
With a little lie
Then turn your cheek
Until the fire dies
The skin it peels
Like the truth, away
What it was I will never tell...
Bite your tongue, swear to keep
Keep your mouth shut
Make up something
Make up something good...
Holding hands
Skipping like a stone
Burn the witch
Burn to ash & bone
Monday, 11 December 2006
Yuck Fou
dlm erti kata lain - "slmt mlm". wa menci sama frenster *huh*
siang td pi jengka. saja gatal. mimi ajak ikut pi anta mak dia. dr citer mimi, wa membayangkn perjalanan kami riuh la. kot dia potpet² ngan mak dia ke kan. skali? sunyi sampai bleh dgr bunyi myk keta begoncang dlm tangki. logik? xde mende yg logik dh di kepagian yg buta ni =P pasang plak pahang.fm spanjang jln *astaga*
ank aji saha, umah tepi slekoh maut, dpn surau *kuangkuangkuang* kalo obses terhadap diri sendiri, suke! nih kuah kaklong ngan kakngah la tumpah ke wa...
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Some say, now suffer all the children
And walk away a savior,
Or a madman and polluted
From gutter institutions.
Don't you breathe for me,
Undeserving of your sympathy,
Cause there ain't no way that I'm sorry for what I did.
And through it all
How could you cry for me?
Cause I don't feel bad about it.
So shut your eyes,
Kiss me goodbye,
And sleep.Just sleep.
The hardest part is letting go of
Your dreams.
A drink for the horror that I'm in,
For the good guys, and the bad guys,
For the monsters that I've been.
Three cheers for tyranny,
Unapologetic apathy,
Cause there ain't no way that I'm coming back again.
And through it all
How could you cry for me?
Cause I don't feel bad about it.
So shut your eyes,
Kiss me goodbye,
And sleep.
Just sleep.
The hardest parts
The awful things that I've seen.
Just sleep.
Wake up!
siang td pi jengka. saja gatal. mimi ajak ikut pi anta mak dia. dr citer mimi, wa membayangkn perjalanan kami riuh la. kot dia potpet² ngan mak dia ke kan. skali? sunyi sampai bleh dgr bunyi myk keta begoncang dlm tangki. logik? xde mende yg logik dh di kepagian yg buta ni =P pasang plak pahang.fm spanjang jln *astaga*
"Lemak lah manis,
Alah amboi lah amboi,
Santan kelapa.
Alah amboi lah amboi,
Kupandang lah manis,
Alah amboi lah amboi,
Anak siapa"
ank aji saha, umah tepi slekoh maut, dpn surau *kuangkuangkuang* kalo obses terhadap diri sendiri, suke! nih kuah kaklong ngan kakngah la tumpah ke wa...
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Some say, now suffer all the children
And walk away a savior,
Or a madman and polluted
From gutter institutions.
Don't you breathe for me,
Undeserving of your sympathy,
Cause there ain't no way that I'm sorry for what I did.
And through it all
How could you cry for me?
Cause I don't feel bad about it.
So shut your eyes,
Kiss me goodbye,
And sleep.Just sleep.
The hardest part is letting go of
Your dreams.
A drink for the horror that I'm in,
For the good guys, and the bad guys,
For the monsters that I've been.
Three cheers for tyranny,
Unapologetic apathy,
Cause there ain't no way that I'm coming back again.
And through it all
How could you cry for me?
Cause I don't feel bad about it.
So shut your eyes,
Kiss me goodbye,
And sleep.
Just sleep.
The hardest parts
The awful things that I've seen.
Just sleep.
Wake up!
Thursday, 7 December 2006
Laws are made to be broken
mak kata wa garang *erk* garang?!
ajib blk *yay* tamat la sudah riwayat kesan degil. tamat la sudah zaman persekolahan dia. semlm subuh² gerak pi amik dia kt muazam. isk! excited btul mak abah nih =P *wa jugak yg jd mangsa keadaan* dh salam² meninggalkn skolah tecinta, gerak pi ktn. abah renew lesen tahapekejadah.
lunch kt centre point. pastu sempat pi TC. waa sudah tukar ka? xbleh parking dpn laut? pastu parking dh kene byr? tgh ari panas bedengit tu ade yg mandi. kalo x bertuka kaler tuh, xtau la wa. dlm 2.30pm gitu singgah umah aide *surprise*
bonda nk melawat dan mengetahui citer sbenar ttg keadaan adinda tercenta =P deme bertiga branak je ade nye. ame nye pekat le kupi makde buat! saket kpale nani makde!!! *tsk tsk tsk*
4pm blah. singgah r&r t'loh. mlm sampai umah. lame xmenjerit² ngan ajib :D ajibbb!! masak megi utk kakde...
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Pray for blood
Pray for the cleansing
Pray for the flood
Pray for end of this nightmare
This lie of a life can as quickly as it came dissolve
We seek only reprieve
And welcome the darkness
The myth of a meaning, so lost and forgotten
Take hold of my hand
For you are no longer alone
Walk with me in hell
Pray for solace
Pray for resolve
Pray for a savior
Pray for deliverance
Some kind of purpose, a glimpse of a light in this void of existence
Oh...
Now witness the end of an age
Hope dies in hands of believers
Who seek the truth in the liar's eyes
Take hold of my hand
For you are no longer alone
Walk with me in hell
Walk with me in hell
Take hold of my hand
For you are no longer alone
Walk with me in hell
You're never alone
Walk with me in hell
ajib blk *yay* tamat la sudah riwayat kesan degil. tamat la sudah zaman persekolahan dia. semlm subuh² gerak pi amik dia kt muazam. isk! excited btul mak abah nih =P *wa jugak yg jd mangsa keadaan* dh salam² meninggalkn skolah tecinta, gerak pi ktn. abah renew lesen tahapekejadah.
lunch kt centre point. pastu sempat pi TC. waa sudah tukar ka? xbleh parking dpn laut? pastu parking dh kene byr? tgh ari panas bedengit tu ade yg mandi. kalo x bertuka kaler tuh, xtau la wa. dlm 2.30pm gitu singgah umah aide *surprise*
bonda nk melawat dan mengetahui citer sbenar ttg keadaan adinda tercenta =P deme bertiga branak je ade nye. ame nye pekat le kupi makde buat! saket kpale nani makde!!! *tsk tsk tsk*
4pm blah. singgah r&r t'loh. mlm sampai umah. lame xmenjerit² ngan ajib :D ajibbb!! masak megi utk kakde...
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Pray for blood
Pray for the cleansing
Pray for the flood
Pray for end of this nightmare
This lie of a life can as quickly as it came dissolve
We seek only reprieve
And welcome the darkness
The myth of a meaning, so lost and forgotten
Take hold of my hand
For you are no longer alone
Walk with me in hell
Pray for solace
Pray for resolve
Pray for a savior
Pray for deliverance
Some kind of purpose, a glimpse of a light in this void of existence
Oh...
Now witness the end of an age
Hope dies in hands of believers
Who seek the truth in the liar's eyes
Take hold of my hand
For you are no longer alone
Walk with me in hell
Walk with me in hell
Take hold of my hand
For you are no longer alone
Walk with me in hell
You're never alone
Walk with me in hell
Tuesday, 5 December 2006
Another contusion
duhai makannnnn... pd sape yg tau, tau la. xtau, buat² tau :D
cis, cis dan cis lg?! kakngah mc! *isk* kata teman seperchattan. awal wa online arini tau!!! wa menci. kesihatan terganggu. kene cocok kt montot. dh tecemar *miahamuahaha* seb baik doktor pompuan. doktor ni pon, prono! *tehee*
abih wa nk buat pe nih? lyn kak ct? kak ct lg senyap pd wa *i've met my match!* camne? ahaha slmt raye aji kak ct. jgn marah², nnt ank kenan wa - susah! =P lyn kaklong? kacau jiwa wa *kerkerkera* ahh well, chobits starts in few...
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Yeah, I got this thinkin' in my head
Yeah, you wanna say the things not said
Whats the reason?
Don't really care if you leave
Just wanna see you beaten
Don't really care if you grieve
Don't really need a reason
Hey, goodbye
I wish you stayed here
I wish you were here
Yeah, I got this feelin' in my veins
Yeah, a helpless feeling mixed with pain
What's the meaning?
I just can't believe
that you're not really with me
I just can't believe
I wonder if you'll miss me
Hey, goodbye
I wish you stayed here
I wish you were here
cis, cis dan cis lg?! kakngah mc! *isk* kata teman seperchattan. awal wa online arini tau!!! wa menci. kesihatan terganggu. kene cocok kt montot. dh tecemar *miahamuahaha* seb baik doktor pompuan. doktor ni pon, prono! *tehee*
abih wa nk buat pe nih? lyn kak ct? kak ct lg senyap pd wa *i've met my match!* camne? ahaha slmt raye aji kak ct. jgn marah², nnt ank kenan wa - susah! =P lyn kaklong? kacau jiwa wa *kerkerkera* ahh well, chobits starts in few...
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Yeah, I got this thinkin' in my head
Yeah, you wanna say the things not said
Whats the reason?
Don't really care if you leave
Just wanna see you beaten
Don't really care if you grieve
Don't really need a reason
Hey, goodbye
I wish you stayed here
I wish you were here
Yeah, I got this feelin' in my veins
Yeah, a helpless feeling mixed with pain
What's the meaning?
I just can't believe
that you're not really with me
I just can't believe
I wonder if you'll miss me
Hey, goodbye
I wish you stayed here
I wish you were here
Tuesday, 21 November 2006
Tell me if it's so
cut my hair. yeah i did! which i'ma regret for the rest of the week *mourn* TOO short! well shorter than i'd imagine *sob sob srehh* :'( ooh mummy...
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turn away
if you could get me a drink
of water cause my lips are chapped and faded
call my aunt marie
help her gather all my things
and bury me in all my favorite colors
my sisters and my brothers still
i will not kiss you
cause the hardest part of this is leaving you
now turn away
cause i'm awful just to see
cause all my hair's abandoned all my body
oh my agony
know that i will never marry
baby, i'm just soggy from the chemo
but counting down the days to go
it just aint livin
and i just hope you know
that if you say goodbye today
i'd ask you to be true
cause the hardest part of this is leaving you
cause the hardest part of this is leaving you
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turn away
if you could get me a drink
of water cause my lips are chapped and faded
call my aunt marie
help her gather all my things
and bury me in all my favorite colors
my sisters and my brothers still
i will not kiss you
cause the hardest part of this is leaving you
now turn away
cause i'm awful just to see
cause all my hair's abandoned all my body
oh my agony
know that i will never marry
baby, i'm just soggy from the chemo
but counting down the days to go
it just aint livin
and i just hope you know
that if you say goodbye today
i'd ask you to be true
cause the hardest part of this is leaving you
cause the hardest part of this is leaving you
Monday, 20 November 2006
And right now they're building a coffin your size
MOHD RINA! NK KENE BLASAH? NK TGK "ANTU"? XYAH TUNGGU PAMERAN ANTU DLM BALANG. NIH LIVE, NO BARRIER. BIASA ADE 1, KALI NI ADE 2. HUH!
deep breath, fuhhh! *calms down*
semlm lps subuh pi muazam. mak nk sgt jumpe ajib sblum dia start paper spm. bg air, kueh siput, itu ini, "buat bebaik", yada yada yada. lps zuhr, babai², gerak pi kemaman.
5.30pm sampai umah along. cucu skang dh masuk nusery. mula kata nk tido sana. tp atas sbb² tertentu, kami blk gak lps maghrib. dan wa xpatut kasi abah drive mlm *sakit kpalak wa duk tekejut manjang* apekn daya blakang wa kejung. benti kt r&r t'loh. amik angin, buang angin, pekena neskopi tin *kembali menjd teraju utama* sampai umah 12am. pehh! melepek dol!
arini, punye la smangat, org tu kata nk blk sini. "apakn daya, dh takdir". ade bau² durhaka? ahh! bak kata kakngah, wa peduli hape =P rase nk pi potong rambut la. tp gile lama tunggu panjang nih. sayang la plak...
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No time for goodbye he said
As he faded away
Don't put your life in someone's hands
Their bound to steal it away
Don't hide your mistakes
'Cause they'll find you, burn you
Then he said
If you want to get out alive
Run for your life
If you want to get out alive
Run for your life
This is my last time she said
As she faded away
It's hard to imagine
But one day you'll end up like me
Then she said
If you want to get out alive
Run for your life
If you want to get out alive
Run for your life
If you want to get out alive (If you want to get out alive)
Run for your life (Life)
If you want to get out alive (If you want to get out alive)
Run for your life
If I stay it won't be long
Till I'm burning on the inside
If I go I can only hope
That I make it to the other side
If you want to get out alive
Run for your life
If you want to get out alive
Hold on for
If you want to get out alive (If you want to get out alive)
Run for your life
If you want to get out alive (If you want to get out alive)
Hold on for
If I stay, it won't be long
Till I'm burning on the inside
If I go I can only hope
That I make it to the other side
If I stay, it won't be long
Till I'm burning on the inside
If I go, if I go
Burning on the inside!
deep breath, fuhhh! *calms down*
semlm lps subuh pi muazam. mak nk sgt jumpe ajib sblum dia start paper spm. bg air, kueh siput, itu ini, "buat bebaik", yada yada yada. lps zuhr, babai², gerak pi kemaman.
5.30pm sampai umah along. cucu skang dh masuk nusery. mula kata nk tido sana. tp atas sbb² tertentu, kami blk gak lps maghrib. dan wa xpatut kasi abah drive mlm *sakit kpalak wa duk tekejut manjang* apekn daya blakang wa kejung. benti kt r&r t'loh. amik angin, buang angin, pekena neskopi tin *kembali menjd teraju utama* sampai umah 12am. pehh! melepek dol!
arini, punye la smangat, org tu kata nk blk sini. "apakn daya, dh takdir". ade bau² durhaka? ahh! bak kata kakngah, wa peduli hape =P rase nk pi potong rambut la. tp gile lama tunggu panjang nih. sayang la plak...
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No time for goodbye he said
As he faded away
Don't put your life in someone's hands
Their bound to steal it away
Don't hide your mistakes
'Cause they'll find you, burn you
Then he said
If you want to get out alive
Run for your life
If you want to get out alive
Run for your life
This is my last time she said
As she faded away
It's hard to imagine
But one day you'll end up like me
Then she said
If you want to get out alive
Run for your life
If you want to get out alive
Run for your life
If you want to get out alive (If you want to get out alive)
Run for your life (Life)
If you want to get out alive (If you want to get out alive)
Run for your life
If I stay it won't be long
Till I'm burning on the inside
If I go I can only hope
That I make it to the other side
If you want to get out alive
Run for your life
If you want to get out alive
Hold on for
If you want to get out alive (If you want to get out alive)
Run for your life
If you want to get out alive (If you want to get out alive)
Hold on for
If I stay, it won't be long
Till I'm burning on the inside
If I go I can only hope
That I make it to the other side
If I stay, it won't be long
Till I'm burning on the inside
If I go, if I go
Burning on the inside!
Friday, 10 November 2006
And when you go don't return to me, my love
ari yg membosankn. punye la awal wa bgn. internet connection cam tutttt!! sampai ke tgh ari. disco jek manjang. siang² pon lyn disco =P wa menci btul. bile elok, ASIK LYN KAKNGAHHHHH JEK! :D ade bau² durhaka? "buku baru" dibuka dgn niat utk dipenuhkn kan *miahamuahaha* raye aji nnt wa mintak ampun lg ye kakngah ye >:)
pastu, tiba²! teng teng teng... wa rasa nk blk umah. wa pon blk. sempat bg brg kt member, tot tet tot tet ngumpat, 9pm wa blah. jamming dr pandan indah?! atuk dia cun la!! dh mlm oi! jamming lg?! tsk tsk. singgah mcd lg *wajib!* 11.30pm sampai sini. dkt smpg bkt fraser ade pak polisi tahan. dia bleh lama tenung wa cam dia xpenah tgk spesis wa. camne tu? wa siap tegur "ngape pakcik?!" baru dia kata jln *huh*
mak abah xtau wa nk blk. tehee seb baikkkk xkene marah. kalo x, masuk paper "sorg ank dipakse tido luar oleh kedua ibu bapa" geleng kpale...
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Mama we all go to hell
Mama we all go to hell
I'm writing this letter and wishing you well
Mama we all go to hell
Mama we're all gonna die
Mama we're all gonna die
Stop asking me questions, I'd hate to see you cry
Mama we're all gonna die
And when we go don't blame us
We let the fire just bathe us
You made us oh so famous
We’ll never let you go
And when you go don't return to me my love
Mama we're all full of lies
Mama we're meant for the flies
And right now they're building a coffin your size
Mama we're all full of lies
Well mother what the war did to my legs and to my tongue
You should have raised a baby girl
I should have been a better son
If you could coddle the infection, they can amputate at once
You should have been
I could have been a better son
And when we go don't blame us
We let this fire just bathe us
You made us oh so famous
We'll never let you go
She said "You ain't no son of mine"
For what you done they're gonna find
A place for you and just you mind your manners when you go
And when you go don't return to me my love
That's right
Mama we all go to hell
Mama we all go to hell
It’s really quite pleasant except for the smell
Mama we all go to hell
Mama, Mama, Mama
And if you would call me your sweetheart
I'd maybe then sing you a song
But there's shit that I've done with this fuck of a gun
You would cry out your eyes all night long
We’re damned after all
Through fortune and flame we fall
And if you can stay that I’ll show you the way
To return from the ashes you call
We all carry on
When our brothers in arms are gone
So raise your glass high for tomorrow we die
And return from the ashes you call
Monday, 6 November 2006
Lets end it on this
dh puas melepaskn kerinduan pd kg halaman, I'm back!! :D wa akhirnya telah pulang ke pangkal jln *tp bak kata kakngah, raya sebln. cuti la sebln!* =P masa utk ngadap final exam + submit asgmt + projek.
blk pg sbb nk pi open house kaklong. kakngah buat janji karam singh walia *wa majuk lg tau!* >:P kata nk tunggu wa kt mobil. wa menci. kaklong buat open house beramai² ngan kwn² dia, kt umah kak syidah. nasibbbb wa ingat jln ke umah tu. abg ngan kak ct pon ade.
letih dh mkn, pi jln² cari pasal ngan kakngah. midvalley! masuk speedy capai mcr's black parade *yeah yeah* pastu masuk sinma kakngah cari rantai. isk! cam pompuan! wa rase cam wa salah masuk kedai pon ade =P saje la plak jln tower records kan. MCR TU ADE LIMITED EDITION NYE!! tp rege rm200. cis cis dan cis lg. ade sape² nk blanje? *tehee* wa menci btul.
dlm 5pm jon jmpt kakngah. wa mls blk lg, pi mph. mlm ni menu dinner wa - plastik mph. fresh! *geleng kpale* ade benda lupe beli. jadah aram beads yg huruf² susun buat gelang/keychain etc. next time!
kaklong, jgn lupe mende wa ckp td siang. nk lekas setel, lekas la blk ye...
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Go!
To un-explain the unforgivable,
Drain all the blood and give the kids a show.
By streetlight, this dark night, a séance down below,
There's things that I have done,
You never should ever know
And without you is how I disappear,
And live my life alone forever now.
And without you is how I disappear,
And live my life alone forever now.
Who walks among the famous living dead,
Drowns all the boys and girls inside your bed.
And if you could talk to me, tell me if it's so,
That all the good girls go to heaven.
Well, heaven knows
That without you is how I disappear
And live my life alone forever now.
And without you is how I disappear
And live my life alone forever now.
Can you hear me cry out to you?
Words I thought I'd choke on, figure out.
I'm really not so with you anymore,
I'm just a ghost,
So I can't hurt you anymore,
So I can't hurt you anymore!
And now, you wanna see how far down I can sink?
Let me go, FUCK!
So, you can, well now so, you can
I'm so far away from you.
Well now so, you can.
And without you is how I disappear
And without you is how I disappear
(Woah ooo...)
And without you is how I disappear
And without you is how I disappear
Forever, forever now
blk pg sbb nk pi open house kaklong. kakngah buat janji karam singh walia *wa majuk lg tau!* >:P kata nk tunggu wa kt mobil. wa menci. kaklong buat open house beramai² ngan kwn² dia, kt umah kak syidah. nasibbbb wa ingat jln ke umah tu. abg ngan kak ct pon ade.
letih dh mkn, pi jln² cari pasal ngan kakngah. midvalley! masuk speedy capai mcr's black parade *yeah yeah* pastu masuk sinma kakngah cari rantai. isk! cam pompuan! wa rase cam wa salah masuk kedai pon ade =P saje la plak jln tower records kan. MCR TU ADE LIMITED EDITION NYE!! tp rege rm200. cis cis dan cis lg. ade sape² nk blanje? *tehee* wa menci btul.
dlm 5pm jon jmpt kakngah. wa mls blk lg, pi mph. mlm ni menu dinner wa - plastik mph. fresh! *geleng kpale* ade benda lupe beli. jadah aram beads yg huruf² susun buat gelang/keychain etc. next time!
kaklong, jgn lupe mende wa ckp td siang. nk lekas setel, lekas la blk ye...
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Go!
To un-explain the unforgivable,
Drain all the blood and give the kids a show.
By streetlight, this dark night, a séance down below,
There's things that I have done,
You never should ever know
And without you is how I disappear,
And live my life alone forever now.
And without you is how I disappear,
And live my life alone forever now.
Who walks among the famous living dead,
Drowns all the boys and girls inside your bed.
And if you could talk to me, tell me if it's so,
That all the good girls go to heaven.
Well, heaven knows
That without you is how I disappear
And live my life alone forever now.
And without you is how I disappear
And live my life alone forever now.
Can you hear me cry out to you?
Words I thought I'd choke on, figure out.
I'm really not so with you anymore,
I'm just a ghost,
So I can't hurt you anymore,
So I can't hurt you anymore!
And now, you wanna see how far down I can sink?
Let me go, FUCK!
So, you can, well now so, you can
I'm so far away from you.
Well now so, you can.
And without you is how I disappear
And without you is how I disappear
(Woah ooo...)
And without you is how I disappear
And without you is how I disappear
Forever, forever now
Monday, 30 October 2006
Lie too much
my 2006 raya epic...
Oct 20:
mlm tuh wa ngan kakngah tido umah kaklong. altho', kakngah xla "tido". dia buat projek underground ;) tuh kene tanye kakngah =P sahur 4am kt bangsar (?) ngan dira. ke kak dira? *slmt berkenalan* :D
Oct 21:
masing² tido xbape cukup. kakngah la teruk, 2jam jek kot. tuh la, buat lg projek underground =P dlm 9am gerak dr tmpt kaklong menuju ke kg halaman. OKC dijalanan! OKC tu kaklong kata makne nye OZZA's Kelisa Club. cik keli kaklong, cik keli kakngah, cik keli wa. pergh! cam italian job wa ckp lu. ape lg kami membontoti kaklong kn. kaklong dia mmg buat jln tuh cam ade cop OZZA situ :D wa suke jek. bederet jek keta kami kan - silver/putih/silver. gile rapat², xkasi org overtake di antara kami =P
tunggu jon kt tol gombak. kalo italian job tu, dia dpt elak traffic kn. tp kami xterdaye la plak. lyn headbangin sbb jamming *muakakaka* sampai kt janda baik tu, lalu ikut jln lame. "iklan: ade segolongan chinese nih bwk BMW & MERC convertible. wa chop bmw itam tu ye!" jln lame lengang. mmg jd jln kami, cam xbiasa =P sampai bntg jon masuk hiway smule, kami meneruskn italian job kami.
start jamming smule dkt simpang mempaga, kot. wa pon bkn ingat ngat which is which. sume org nk blk kg kn, so ape salah nye kalo jln je tanpa memotong kn. driver² hak cerdik pandai nih, lalu kt bahu jln belah kiri. menyesakkan lg pon ade sbenarnye. sbb kt dpn nun nnt dia nk masuk smule kan. haa kaklong dgn bangga nya block bahu jln tuh. mule wa ingat dia nk ikut jugak lalu situ kn. dia belok, btul ke kiri, bile keta dpn stop dia pon stop. kakngah pon ngikut jugak. wa saje makin ke tgh. maka yg dikiri xdpt jln. yg motong di tgh, xbleh masuk dkt² kami jugak. miahamuahahahahaha
well, OKC mmg kejam. yg memotong tu lg kejam sbenarnye. lek la beb! sume org pon blk kg. kalo jln jek sebaris, kn lancar. pak polisi nye kebab. dh dkt smpg bkt fraser tu baru la muncul. baru la xde yg berani nk memotong kan.
1pm sampai umah. kaklong kakngah xjd buke same. kesilapan teknikal yg xdpt dielakkan. mase salam korg nk blah tuh, bergenang air mata wa tau! wa menci! tu sbb wa xmau slm sgt =P cis cis dan cis lg :'(
oleh sbb mak ngan kaklong liza dh start menyiput from 11am lg. wa sampai tu trus tolong la. wa jugak yg smangat nk buat kan. baru siap 2kilo. ade lg 2kilo blum bancuh. sok sahur mak bancuh n kami menyiput lg.
Oct 22:
wa bgn lewat =P mlm td tido lmbt. sahur gile meriah. ramai org kan. danial pon dh jaga masa sahur tu. wa bangga btul dpt ank sdare bgn awal dr mak sdare :D menyiput 2nd round. another 2kilo. mmg berdedikasi la wa arini. mak abah buat rendang. eiii sbb pose kn, mnahan jek la bau rendang nye, bau kueh siput nye *tsk tsk*
wa dh xrase ibu jari wa oleh sbb penyiputan secara extreme. ingat nk buat almond london. tp tinggal esok jek dh sblum raye. nk kemas sket umah.
Oct 23:
kemas umah?! jadah aram atuk dia cun la! =P jd ari berehat. mmg seharian xbuat ape pon. siap bleh tido lg. along naik umah pak mentua. thn nih turn raye belah kaklong liza nye.
bebuka, tamat la ramadhan. sayu dol. umah senyap sbb xde haikal ngan danial. pastu ade plak citer aide BERKEMUNGKINAN BESAR xblk sini *sob sob sreh* sumpah! wa nangis gile² nangis. siap main sms ngan kakngah sambil tu :D
sbenarnye kn wa nk call. tp wa rase korg dgr wa nangis jek dr wa beckp *tehee* pastu ingat nk mms, wa baru jek sebut 'calamacikum' - wa nangis!! bleh? *aduhh*
Oct 24:
raya!!!! 3am wa dh jaga. pusing kiri kanan, 5am wa dh mandi *brrr! cejuk!* mak, abah, abg, ajib pi smayang raye. wa konon nye xpi sbb teman kak ct la *hark ptuih* malas pi jek sbenarnye :D kami tgk sultan smayang raye kt tv =P tema baju raye wa thn nih? BERANI MATI! jeng jeng jeng! *miahamuahaha*
along sefamili trun skejap. kami bersalaman ank branak. cam biasa, wa aje la pon yg nangis xtentu pasal. wa: "slmt ari raye mak, nani mintak maap - sob sob srehhh!". mak: "mak tau, awk tu nakal". SAMBIL GELAK dia ckp?! cis cis dan cis lg. kita punye la emo! *tsk tsk* abih mekap wa =P siap², along blah. kami pon blah pi blk karak.
umah wan, umah wan alang, umah wan ngah, umah wan de. pehh! sebu perot wa mkn lemang + rendang. mmg seharian xjumpe nasik biasa la! blk ptg tu mmg melepek. ngantuk + letih. mlm konon nye nk naik umah pakcik derus. abg, kak ct ngan ajib jek pi.
Oct 25:
ari kami menanti di umah. ari ujan. ujan rahmat. sbb bdk² xdpt dtg beraye *miahamuahaha* kalo x, kejap.. "salamekom!". jap lg, "salamekom!". xsampai 5min lg, "salamekom!". huh!
chu ani singgah umah. sedih jek, chu him dh xde :( pastu, teka sape sampai? *teng teng teng* moi beloved cousins! *peluk ciums* tanpa aide. makde jek ngan kaklong, kakngah, epit, anis. aide nih kn, wa majuk baru tau. xmau blk ktn pasni bleh? tp kalo aide buat rendang, wa baru blk *akakaka* :D
yg mnarik, wa x 'kebanjiran' tatkala memeluk makde *tgn kt dagu* kemajuan tuh! sbb dh bengkak mata mlm raye sensorg kn. puas la kot =P maklong ghiyut singgah jugak, tau makde ade sini. ujan kt luar, kt dlm pon "ujan" *geleng kpale*
yg paling sensasi - jon dtg?! yg paling kontroversi - jon panggil abah, "abah"?! wa suspek siot. cam wa kata dlm sms wa kt kakngah: hokme kalo xjd jugak, wa plak ganti aide - majuk xmau blk raub. bleh?
dlm 3.30pm gitu kot, abg ngan kak ct blk mlk. sume pon blk gak. wa baru ingat bleh duk lepak kn. tiba² makde dah ngan along faizal sampai. penuh perut wa merasa air nescafe jek 1ari nih *burppp*
Oct 26:
xde pe best pon. org karak dtg umah. aki alang, wan ngah, serta ahli kluarga yg wa xkenal sape *miahamuahaha* baru raye ke-3 wa dh durhaka *geleng kpale*
belah ptg pi umah mak ndak. langkah kanan kami siot! niat nk beraye jek. skali abg wan nye ade buat mkn². alhamdulillahhhh!
Oct 27:
ajib eksiden, bleh? saje jek cari glemer jd sebahagian drpd statistik =P ngan merc plak tuh! high taste siot! highhhh jugak blood pressure mak wa *geleng kpale*
teruk xteruk la kn. angka 8 la jugak tayar motor tu :D ajib nye lebam² sket, hadi selaku pembonceng kt blakang - TERBANG to the other side of the car. wa dpt byg kn. ala² citer hollywood la *tsk tsk*
bile dia citer blk slps kejadian tuh, mmg wa gelak guling². aiii la korg nih kn!
Oct 28:
"ehem²" singgah umah. diskus hal mummy monster. blum habih lg aa =P along blk kmaman dkt² noon - kata nk beli hoodie utk nani. mane nye?!
pastu mak ndak ank branak singgah. uihhh mmg teman seper-umpatan mak la tuh *jgn la sape² ajar mak ndak ngan MAK WA lyn frenster* =P riuh la kejap. ank abg wan yg sulong tu, geram jek wa nk picit². bagai dipam²!
abg wan tanye ngape plat keta wa 'K'. "ke ade kwn org kedah ni?" - cet! soklan xrelevan :D
Oct 29:
td pi anta ajib blk muazam. ikut bera. wa tension btul la jln tu. tp td sempat singgah tasik bera. xde la selawa yg disangka, gaye tasik kt tmn bkt koman tu jek =P kot tiba² berenang jek anaconda kan *tgk tv byk sgt* makde tanye xsinggah ktn ke. sob sob srehhh! lain kali ye makde ye.
jln ngale ke kolumpo jamming siot! tp xla sejamming biasa. takat beratur jek. org dh ramai blk awal kot. kt bntg wa kasi abah drive. blakang tengkorok wa dh keras. sampai umah 10pm mmg wa nmpk tilam jek dh. sempat tgk robots 15min gitu, pastu robots tgk wa. sedar² boogeyman tgh menjerit². budusss! kuuu semangat! tekejut tau *tsk*
mak abah dh bgn sahur. wa pose nxt week la. pose kt umah byk dugaan *miahamuahaha* sambung tido jap bleh? sok kakngah, awk online la sensorg ek. wa konpem membuta xhengat donia...
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Don't hear, don't deem.
Drown in before you dive.
Don't care, commit to your self destruction drive.
I kiss the ground with love beyond forever
Flip off the sky with bleeding fingers till I die
Enemy, take a one good look at me.
Eradicate what you'll always be
Your tainted flesh, polluted soul through a mirror I behold.
Throw a punch, shards bleed on the floor
Tearing me apart but I don't care anymore.
Should I regret or ask myself ARE YOU DEAD YET?
Wake up, don't cry.
Regenerate to deny the truth,
The fiction you live in blindfold your eyes.
Disclosure, self loathing.
This time you've gone too far.
Or could it be, my nemesis that you are me?
Enemy, take a one good look at me.
Eradicate what you'll always be
Your tainted flesh, polluted soul through a mirror I behold.
Throw a punch, shards bleed on the floor
Tearing me apart but I don't care anymore.
Should I regret or ask myself ARE YOU DEAD YET?
Oct 20:
mlm tuh wa ngan kakngah tido umah kaklong. altho', kakngah xla "tido". dia buat projek underground ;) tuh kene tanye kakngah =P sahur 4am kt bangsar (?) ngan dira. ke kak dira? *slmt berkenalan* :D
Oct 21:
masing² tido xbape cukup. kakngah la teruk, 2jam jek kot. tuh la, buat lg projek underground =P dlm 9am gerak dr tmpt kaklong menuju ke kg halaman. OKC dijalanan! OKC tu kaklong kata makne nye OZZA's Kelisa Club. cik keli kaklong, cik keli kakngah, cik keli wa. pergh! cam italian job wa ckp lu. ape lg kami membontoti kaklong kn. kaklong dia mmg buat jln tuh cam ade cop OZZA situ :D wa suke jek. bederet jek keta kami kan - silver/putih/silver. gile rapat², xkasi org overtake di antara kami =P
tunggu jon kt tol gombak. kalo italian job tu, dia dpt elak traffic kn. tp kami xterdaye la plak. lyn headbangin sbb jamming *muakakaka* sampai kt janda baik tu, lalu ikut jln lame. "iklan: ade segolongan chinese nih bwk BMW & MERC convertible. wa chop bmw itam tu ye!" jln lame lengang. mmg jd jln kami, cam xbiasa =P sampai bntg jon masuk hiway smule, kami meneruskn italian job kami.
start jamming smule dkt simpang mempaga, kot. wa pon bkn ingat ngat which is which. sume org nk blk kg kn, so ape salah nye kalo jln je tanpa memotong kn. driver² hak cerdik pandai nih, lalu kt bahu jln belah kiri. menyesakkan lg pon ade sbenarnye. sbb kt dpn nun nnt dia nk masuk smule kan. haa kaklong dgn bangga nya block bahu jln tuh. mule wa ingat dia nk ikut jugak lalu situ kn. dia belok, btul ke kiri, bile keta dpn stop dia pon stop. kakngah pon ngikut jugak. wa saje makin ke tgh. maka yg dikiri xdpt jln. yg motong di tgh, xbleh masuk dkt² kami jugak. miahamuahahahahaha
well, OKC mmg kejam. yg memotong tu lg kejam sbenarnye. lek la beb! sume org pon blk kg. kalo jln jek sebaris, kn lancar. pak polisi nye kebab. dh dkt smpg bkt fraser tu baru la muncul. baru la xde yg berani nk memotong kan.
1pm sampai umah. kaklong kakngah xjd buke same. kesilapan teknikal yg xdpt dielakkan. mase salam korg nk blah tuh, bergenang air mata wa tau! wa menci! tu sbb wa xmau slm sgt =P cis cis dan cis lg :'(
oleh sbb mak ngan kaklong liza dh start menyiput from 11am lg. wa sampai tu trus tolong la. wa jugak yg smangat nk buat kan. baru siap 2kilo. ade lg 2kilo blum bancuh. sok sahur mak bancuh n kami menyiput lg.
Oct 22:
wa bgn lewat =P mlm td tido lmbt. sahur gile meriah. ramai org kan. danial pon dh jaga masa sahur tu. wa bangga btul dpt ank sdare bgn awal dr mak sdare :D menyiput 2nd round. another 2kilo. mmg berdedikasi la wa arini. mak abah buat rendang. eiii sbb pose kn, mnahan jek la bau rendang nye, bau kueh siput nye *tsk tsk*
wa dh xrase ibu jari wa oleh sbb penyiputan secara extreme. ingat nk buat almond london. tp tinggal esok jek dh sblum raye. nk kemas sket umah.
Oct 23:
kemas umah?! jadah aram atuk dia cun la! =P jd ari berehat. mmg seharian xbuat ape pon. siap bleh tido lg. along naik umah pak mentua. thn nih turn raye belah kaklong liza nye.
bebuka, tamat la ramadhan. sayu dol. umah senyap sbb xde haikal ngan danial. pastu ade plak citer aide BERKEMUNGKINAN BESAR xblk sini *sob sob sreh* sumpah! wa nangis gile² nangis. siap main sms ngan kakngah sambil tu :D
sbenarnye kn wa nk call. tp wa rase korg dgr wa nangis jek dr wa beckp *tehee* pastu ingat nk mms, wa baru jek sebut 'calamacikum' - wa nangis!! bleh? *aduhh*
Oct 24:
raya!!!! 3am wa dh jaga. pusing kiri kanan, 5am wa dh mandi *brrr! cejuk!* mak, abah, abg, ajib pi smayang raye. wa konon nye xpi sbb teman kak ct la *hark ptuih* malas pi jek sbenarnye :D kami tgk sultan smayang raye kt tv =P tema baju raye wa thn nih? BERANI MATI! jeng jeng jeng! *miahamuahaha*
along sefamili trun skejap. kami bersalaman ank branak. cam biasa, wa aje la pon yg nangis xtentu pasal. wa: "slmt ari raye mak, nani mintak maap - sob sob srehhh!". mak: "mak tau, awk tu nakal". SAMBIL GELAK dia ckp?! cis cis dan cis lg. kita punye la emo! *tsk tsk* abih mekap wa =P siap², along blah. kami pon blah pi blk karak.
umah wan, umah wan alang, umah wan ngah, umah wan de. pehh! sebu perot wa mkn lemang + rendang. mmg seharian xjumpe nasik biasa la! blk ptg tu mmg melepek. ngantuk + letih. mlm konon nye nk naik umah pakcik derus. abg, kak ct ngan ajib jek pi.
Oct 25:
ari kami menanti di umah. ari ujan. ujan rahmat. sbb bdk² xdpt dtg beraye *miahamuahaha* kalo x, kejap.. "salamekom!". jap lg, "salamekom!". xsampai 5min lg, "salamekom!". huh!
chu ani singgah umah. sedih jek, chu him dh xde :( pastu, teka sape sampai? *teng teng teng* moi beloved cousins! *peluk ciums* tanpa aide. makde jek ngan kaklong, kakngah, epit, anis. aide nih kn, wa majuk baru tau. xmau blk ktn pasni bleh? tp kalo aide buat rendang, wa baru blk *akakaka* :D
yg mnarik, wa x 'kebanjiran' tatkala memeluk makde *tgn kt dagu* kemajuan tuh! sbb dh bengkak mata mlm raye sensorg kn. puas la kot =P maklong ghiyut singgah jugak, tau makde ade sini. ujan kt luar, kt dlm pon "ujan" *geleng kpale*
yg paling sensasi - jon dtg?! yg paling kontroversi - jon panggil abah, "abah"?! wa suspek siot. cam wa kata dlm sms wa kt kakngah: hokme kalo xjd jugak, wa plak ganti aide - majuk xmau blk raub. bleh?
dlm 3.30pm gitu kot, abg ngan kak ct blk mlk. sume pon blk gak. wa baru ingat bleh duk lepak kn. tiba² makde dah ngan along faizal sampai. penuh perut wa merasa air nescafe jek 1ari nih *burppp*
Oct 26:
xde pe best pon. org karak dtg umah. aki alang, wan ngah, serta ahli kluarga yg wa xkenal sape *miahamuahaha* baru raye ke-3 wa dh durhaka *geleng kpale*
belah ptg pi umah mak ndak. langkah kanan kami siot! niat nk beraye jek. skali abg wan nye ade buat mkn². alhamdulillahhhh!
Oct 27:
ajib eksiden, bleh? saje jek cari glemer jd sebahagian drpd statistik =P ngan merc plak tuh! high taste siot! highhhh jugak blood pressure mak wa *geleng kpale*
teruk xteruk la kn. angka 8 la jugak tayar motor tu :D ajib nye lebam² sket, hadi selaku pembonceng kt blakang - TERBANG to the other side of the car. wa dpt byg kn. ala² citer hollywood la *tsk tsk*
bile dia citer blk slps kejadian tuh, mmg wa gelak guling². aiii la korg nih kn!
Oct 28:
"ehem²" singgah umah. diskus hal mummy monster. blum habih lg aa =P along blk kmaman dkt² noon - kata nk beli hoodie utk nani. mane nye?!
pastu mak ndak ank branak singgah. uihhh mmg teman seper-umpatan mak la tuh *jgn la sape² ajar mak ndak ngan MAK WA lyn frenster* =P riuh la kejap. ank abg wan yg sulong tu, geram jek wa nk picit². bagai dipam²!
abg wan tanye ngape plat keta wa 'K'. "ke ade kwn org kedah ni?" - cet! soklan xrelevan :D
Oct 29:
td pi anta ajib blk muazam. ikut bera. wa tension btul la jln tu. tp td sempat singgah tasik bera. xde la selawa yg disangka, gaye tasik kt tmn bkt koman tu jek =P kot tiba² berenang jek anaconda kan *tgk tv byk sgt* makde tanye xsinggah ktn ke. sob sob srehhh! lain kali ye makde ye.
jln ngale ke kolumpo jamming siot! tp xla sejamming biasa. takat beratur jek. org dh ramai blk awal kot. kt bntg wa kasi abah drive. blakang tengkorok wa dh keras. sampai umah 10pm mmg wa nmpk tilam jek dh. sempat tgk robots 15min gitu, pastu robots tgk wa. sedar² boogeyman tgh menjerit². budusss! kuuu semangat! tekejut tau *tsk*
mak abah dh bgn sahur. wa pose nxt week la. pose kt umah byk dugaan *miahamuahaha* sambung tido jap bleh? sok kakngah, awk online la sensorg ek. wa konpem membuta xhengat donia...
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Don't hear, don't deem.
Drown in before you dive.
Don't care, commit to your self destruction drive.
I kiss the ground with love beyond forever
Flip off the sky with bleeding fingers till I die
Enemy, take a one good look at me.
Eradicate what you'll always be
Your tainted flesh, polluted soul through a mirror I behold.
Throw a punch, shards bleed on the floor
Tearing me apart but I don't care anymore.
Should I regret or ask myself ARE YOU DEAD YET?
Wake up, don't cry.
Regenerate to deny the truth,
The fiction you live in blindfold your eyes.
Disclosure, self loathing.
This time you've gone too far.
Or could it be, my nemesis that you are me?
Enemy, take a one good look at me.
Eradicate what you'll always be
Your tainted flesh, polluted soul through a mirror I behold.
Throw a punch, shards bleed on the floor
Tearing me apart but I don't care anymore.
Should I regret or ask myself ARE YOU DEAD YET?
Wednesday, 18 October 2006
But you insist that I don't exist
bleh? tehee...
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If you feel, so empty so used up,
so let down, if you feel,
so angry, so ripped off,
so stepped on,
youre not the only one,
refusing, to back down,
youre not the only one, so get up!
Lets start a riot, a riot lets start a riot,
lets start a riot, a riot, lets start a riot,
if you feel, sofilthy so dirty, so fucked up
if you feel, so walked on, so hateful, so pissed off,
youre not the only one, refusing, to back down,
youre not the, only one, so get up!
Lets start a riot, a riot lets start a riot
lets start a riot, a riot lets start a riot...
if you feel, so empty, so used up, so let down
if you feel, so angry, just get up!
Sunday, 15 October 2006
Every breath leaves me one less to my last
umi nih nk kene blasah. xjd pi kasitau la 5jam awal. seb baik wa baru lps tol sg. besi. kalo x, mmg wa naik umah blasah awk dulu baru wa blk =P
blk merempit :D ngantuk sbenarnye. jgn sok² sampai saman jek dh. ade 1 roadblock kt exit tol bntg. kt lee rubber 1, pastu kt slekoh maut jln baru *lori slalu parking tuh* potong stim daa. jauh skit sambung smule kan *miahamuahaha*
sampai umah, abah ngecat pintu. aisyoo! wa pening siot! kn dh ade odourless paint skang *ako mustapa tehee* apesal xpakai?! sampai skang bau! lemas.. lemas...
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in the sunlight of your smile
in the summer of our life
in the magic of love
storms above scattered away
lovers dreaming in the night
reaching for paradise
but as the dark shadows fade
love slips away
on an empty stretch of beach
in the pattern of the waves
drawing pictures with my hand
in the sand, I see your face
skipping pebbles on the sea
wishing for Paradise
sand castles crumble below
the restless tides ebb and flow
listening to a shell
hoping for your voice
beautiful Maria of my soul
though we'll always be apart
locked forever in a dream
if I ever love again
even then, nothing will change
and the taste of you remains
clinging to Paradise
but as the distance from you grows
all that my heart ever knows
hunger for your kiss
longing for your touch
beautiful Maria of my soul
filling all my nights
haunting all my days
beautiful Maria of my soul
blk merempit :D ngantuk sbenarnye. jgn sok² sampai saman jek dh. ade 1 roadblock kt exit tol bntg. kt lee rubber 1, pastu kt slekoh maut jln baru *lori slalu parking tuh* potong stim daa. jauh skit sambung smule kan *miahamuahaha*
sampai umah, abah ngecat pintu. aisyoo! wa pening siot! kn dh ade odourless paint skang *ako mustapa tehee* apesal xpakai?! sampai skang bau! lemas.. lemas...
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in the sunlight of your smile
in the summer of our life
in the magic of love
storms above scattered away
lovers dreaming in the night
reaching for paradise
but as the dark shadows fade
love slips away
on an empty stretch of beach
in the pattern of the waves
drawing pictures with my hand
in the sand, I see your face
skipping pebbles on the sea
wishing for Paradise
sand castles crumble below
the restless tides ebb and flow
listening to a shell
hoping for your voice
beautiful Maria of my soul
though we'll always be apart
locked forever in a dream
if I ever love again
even then, nothing will change
and the taste of you remains
clinging to Paradise
but as the distance from you grows
all that my heart ever knows
hunger for your kiss
longing for your touch
beautiful Maria of my soul
filling all my nights
haunting all my days
beautiful Maria of my soul
Saturday, 14 October 2006
Cold to how you feel
baru blk kuar mkn ngan kakngah. pi mcd bdr utama *24hrs ok* =P ramai org dol! dh tgh² mlm. ingatkn kami jek. mengurangkn pahle pose kami sampai kul 1am. pastu blah :D uptown kn dh tuka tmpt. kakngah xtau ktner. kalo x, bleh gak kami jenjln. nvm, nxt time. mcm xbiasa *miahamuahaha*
siang nnt nk pi jln tar plak. BWK kakngah pi cari baju raye. wa baru tau jon xsuke jln tmpt² camtu. sesak. wa pon xsuke. tp tuh la syurga baju raye =P sok kalo dh sampai MLM RAYE baru nk cari baju? gedeboih la *akakaka* dia sendiri pon mls bejln sbenar nye. sok silap² dh jumpe yg dkt, capai jek =P
agak² kedai cd dlm campble sok bukak awal x? mintak² la bukak! aminnnn...
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I can't escape this hell
So many times I've tried
But I'm still caged inside
Somebody get me through this nightmare
I can't control myself
So what if you can see
The darkest side of me
No one would ever change this animal I have become
Help me believe,
It's not the real me
Somebody help me tame this animal (this animal x's 2)
I can't escape myself
So many times I've lied
But there's still rage inside
Somebody get me through this nightmare
I can't control myself
So what if you can see
The darkest side of me
No one would ever change this animal I have become
Help me believe,
It's not the real me
Somebody help me tame this animal I have become
Help me believe,
It's not the real me
Somebody help me tame this animal
Somebody help me through this nightmare
I can't control myself
Somebody wake me from this nightmare
I can't escape this hell
This Animal
siang nnt nk pi jln tar plak. BWK kakngah pi cari baju raye. wa baru tau jon xsuke jln tmpt² camtu. sesak. wa pon xsuke. tp tuh la syurga baju raye =P sok kalo dh sampai MLM RAYE baru nk cari baju? gedeboih la *akakaka* dia sendiri pon mls bejln sbenar nye. sok silap² dh jumpe yg dkt, capai jek =P
agak² kedai cd dlm campble sok bukak awal x? mintak² la bukak! aminnnn...
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I can't escape this hell
So many times I've tried
But I'm still caged inside
Somebody get me through this nightmare
I can't control myself
So what if you can see
The darkest side of me
No one would ever change this animal I have become
Help me believe,
It's not the real me
Somebody help me tame this animal (this animal x's 2)
I can't escape myself
So many times I've lied
But there's still rage inside
Somebody get me through this nightmare
I can't control myself
So what if you can see
The darkest side of me
No one would ever change this animal I have become
Help me believe,
It's not the real me
Somebody help me tame this animal I have become
Help me believe,
It's not the real me
Somebody help me tame this animal
Somebody help me through this nightmare
I can't control myself
Somebody wake me from this nightmare
I can't escape this hell
This Animal
Wednesday, 11 October 2006
But I'm still caged inside
lame xjumpe maRk. td kuar ngan dia pi midv. 8.45pm jemput kt lrt U. midv pon ala² nk tutup kn. kami xlama pon. masuk tower records dulu *sahur mkn cd* pastu maRk beli sluar jeans. wa nk gak! xpe, nxt week ye maRk! hoh nk cari tudung lg kan?! *adei*
dkt kul 10 gitu - kedai² pon dh tutup², kami pon blah. sambil anta maRk blk singgah mcd jln phg. peh! sudah tuka ka? wa dh xkenal isi mcd tuh. betapa lamenye xsinggah situ. lame gak la lepak situ. mkn, ngumpat, menyelampit, mkn lg, ngumpat lg. kul 12 jugak la baru kami gerak.
blk td saje wa drive slow². sronok rupenye. walopun jerebu kn. sunyi, aman jek. bile kene time nye la. kalo time jam, xde nye aman de =P 1.15am wa sampai umah - parking dkt ngan pakgad dh penuh! cis! bln pose ni sume org baik plak. kalo x, ni la time paling afdhal diorg nk kuar.
ngantuk. tp lps subuh kang la baru tido. sok bkn ade klas pon. td kakngah cuti, tinggal kn wa sensorg terkontang-kanting. haa sok wa plak mengontang-kanting kan dia *bm wa 4 jek aritu* :D majuk dh ibu nih, umi...
I'm looking at you through the glass,
don't know how much time has passed
Oh God it feels like forever,
but no one ever tells you that
Forever feels like home,
sitting all alone inside your head...
Cause I'm looking at you through the glass,
don't know how much time has passed
All I know is that it feels like forever,
but no one ever tells you that
Forever feels like home,
sitting all alone inside your head...
How do you feel?
That is the question...
But I forget you don't expect an easy answer
When something like a soul becomes initialized and folded up like
Paper dolls and little notes, you can't expect a bit of hope
And while you're outside looking in,
describing what you see
Remember what you're staring at is me
Cause I'm looking at you through the glass,
don't know how much time has passed
All I know is that it feels like forever,
but no one ever tells you that
Forever feels like home,
sitting all alone inside your head...
How much is real?
So much to question
An epidemic of the mannequins contaminating everything
We thought came from the heart - but never did right from the start
Just listen to the noises - null and void instead of voices
Before you tell yourself
It's just a different scene
Remembering is just different from what you've seen
And it's the stars, the stars that shine for you
And it's the stars, the stars that lie to you
And it's the stars, the stars that shine for you
And it's the stars, the stars that lie to you
I'm looking at you through the glass,
don't know how much time has passed
Oh God it feels like forever, but no one ever tells you that
Forever feels like home,
sitting all alone inside your head
dkt kul 10 gitu - kedai² pon dh tutup², kami pon blah. sambil anta maRk blk singgah mcd jln phg. peh! sudah tuka ka? wa dh xkenal isi mcd tuh. betapa lamenye xsinggah situ. lame gak la lepak situ. mkn, ngumpat, menyelampit, mkn lg, ngumpat lg. kul 12 jugak la baru kami gerak.
blk td saje wa drive slow². sronok rupenye. walopun jerebu kn. sunyi, aman jek. bile kene time nye la. kalo time jam, xde nye aman de =P 1.15am wa sampai umah - parking dkt ngan pakgad dh penuh! cis! bln pose ni sume org baik plak. kalo x, ni la time paling afdhal diorg nk kuar.
ngantuk. tp lps subuh kang la baru tido. sok bkn ade klas pon. td kakngah cuti, tinggal kn wa sensorg terkontang-kanting. haa sok wa plak mengontang-kanting kan dia *bm wa 4 jek aritu* :D majuk dh ibu nih, umi...
I'm looking at you through the glass,
don't know how much time has passed
Oh God it feels like forever,
but no one ever tells you that
Forever feels like home,
sitting all alone inside your head...
Cause I'm looking at you through the glass,
don't know how much time has passed
All I know is that it feels like forever,
but no one ever tells you that
Forever feels like home,
sitting all alone inside your head...
How do you feel?
That is the question...
But I forget you don't expect an easy answer
When something like a soul becomes initialized and folded up like
Paper dolls and little notes, you can't expect a bit of hope
And while you're outside looking in,
describing what you see
Remember what you're staring at is me
Cause I'm looking at you through the glass,
don't know how much time has passed
All I know is that it feels like forever,
but no one ever tells you that
Forever feels like home,
sitting all alone inside your head...
How much is real?
So much to question
An epidemic of the mannequins contaminating everything
We thought came from the heart - but never did right from the start
Just listen to the noises - null and void instead of voices
Before you tell yourself
It's just a different scene
Remembering is just different from what you've seen
And it's the stars, the stars that shine for you
And it's the stars, the stars that lie to you
And it's the stars, the stars that shine for you
And it's the stars, the stars that lie to you
I'm looking at you through the glass,
don't know how much time has passed
Oh God it feels like forever, but no one ever tells you that
Forever feels like home,
sitting all alone inside your head
Monday, 9 October 2006
I don't believe in fairytales
pd korg² yg duk umah sewa kan. INGAT² LA KT TENANT YG LAIN WOI! hokme ingat, hokme jek duk sorg kt situh?! *isk isk isk* sorg bdk umah wa nih kn. rasenye dlm bilik tu dia sorg jek duduk. tp kalo letak pinggan mangkuk kotor kt dlm sink, mcm 1 kg dia jamu. pastu tinggal kt situ sminggu. clogging the sink la, dtg semut la, bau la. haa aritu, wa angkut sume letak bwh sink. arini pon wa angkat gak lg, letak pinggan mangkuk tuh bwh sink. esok luse? jgn ingat hangin mak tu xturun kt wa. wa humban satu² pinggan, mangkuk, periuk belanga minah tuh - dr tingkat 10 nih. tgk la. wa penah jerit 1umah sbb org amik slipa wa jek. ape jd? 5min kendian wa dpt slipa tuh. out of nowhere, muncul jek =P xcaye tanye maRk :D
moral of the story: jgn ingat wa senyap, wa akan "senyap" sampai bile².
enough ranting. weekend blk ktn ngan kakngah n jon. PANA siot! apesal? tanye jon *geleng kpale* dlm kul 8 wa gerak dr sini. niat nk pi midv nk cari brg. tiba² kakngah call, training kempo dia kensel. nk blk trus. cis! wa xmkn lg tau sbenarnye waktu tuh. so wa drive-thru mcd same kita reunion. kebetulan abg kaunter kita tuh jugak yg jage *adeih!* salah timing dol! dia sengih jek. abg kaunter: "2 large fries jek kak?" ekeke org nk cpt nih, bleh plak xcukup duit kertas. "duit syiling bleh kak?", "hee buat gayut ye" - hutaks lu mat! lapa nih, pronto! isk isk. tp sbb dia comel kn =P
dlm 9.45pm kot dr kl, sampai ktn midnight. anis xtido lagi! =P aide ade buat rendang ayam. dan oleh karena kakngah boikot ayam, wa jek la yg mentekedarah sepuas²nye :D burrppp!! mekacihhh maaf aide =) pastu ade pengat pisang lg! fuhh!
xde ape la pon kan. mummy xblk, keje la konon *wa nk durhaka lg nih kaklong. masuk buku! - tgk kalendar* lps keje? betenet? miahamuahaha. walopun kl tu jauh kaklong, kami tetap merasai aura² pertenetan tuh :D
dgr bdk² nih menyakat anis sampai tejerit terlolong. bukak "kelab judi islam" pukul 2pg *astaghafirullahhhh*
td 7am dh blk smule kl. kakngah grading kempo 10am. ha peciter kempo awk? sempat? I told you so. awk xcaye kita akan lmbt. degil! kakngah tido sepanjang jln. wa xtido, sbb jon ikut jln lame. wa dh lame xlalu jln tuh. wa rindu =)
lapa + ngantuk = mkn and then tido! muahaha...
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Lost in the sky
Clouds roll by and I roll with them
Arrows fly
Seas increase and then fall again
This world is spinning around me
This world is spinning without me
Every day sends future to past
Every breath leaves one less to my last
Watch the sparrow falling
Gives new meaning to it all
If not today nor yet tomorrow then some other day
I'll take seven lives for one
And then my only father's son
As sure as I ever did love him
I am not afraid
This world is spinning around me
The whole world keeps spinning around me
All life is future to past
Every breath leaves me one less to my last
Pull me under
Pull me under
Pull me under
I'm not afraid
All that I feel is honor and spite
All I can do is to set it right
Dust fills my eyes
Clouds roll by and I roll with them
Centuries cry
Orders fly and I fall again
This world is spinning inside me
The whole world is spinning inside of me
Every day sends future to past
Every step brings me closer to my last
Pull me under
Pull me under
Pull me under
I'm not afraid
Living my life too much in the sun
Only until your will is done
Oh that this too, too solid flesh would melt
moral of the story: jgn ingat wa senyap, wa akan "senyap" sampai bile².
enough ranting. weekend blk ktn ngan kakngah n jon. PANA siot! apesal? tanye jon *geleng kpale* dlm kul 8 wa gerak dr sini. niat nk pi midv nk cari brg. tiba² kakngah call, training kempo dia kensel. nk blk trus. cis! wa xmkn lg tau sbenarnye waktu tuh. so wa drive-thru mcd same kita reunion. kebetulan abg kaunter kita tuh jugak yg jage *adeih!* salah timing dol! dia sengih jek. abg kaunter: "2 large fries jek kak?" ekeke org nk cpt nih, bleh plak xcukup duit kertas. "duit syiling bleh kak?", "hee buat gayut ye" - hutaks lu mat! lapa nih, pronto! isk isk. tp sbb dia comel kn =P
dlm 9.45pm kot dr kl, sampai ktn midnight. anis xtido lagi! =P aide ade buat rendang ayam. dan oleh karena kakngah boikot ayam, wa jek la yg mentekedarah sepuas²nye :D burrppp!! mekacihhh maaf aide =) pastu ade pengat pisang lg! fuhh!
xde ape la pon kan. mummy xblk, keje la konon *wa nk durhaka lg nih kaklong. masuk buku! - tgk kalendar* lps keje? betenet? miahamuahaha. walopun kl tu jauh kaklong, kami tetap merasai aura² pertenetan tuh :D
dgr bdk² nih menyakat anis sampai tejerit terlolong. bukak "kelab judi islam" pukul 2pg *astaghafirullahhhh*
td 7am dh blk smule kl. kakngah grading kempo 10am. ha peciter kempo awk? sempat? I told you so. awk xcaye kita akan lmbt. degil! kakngah tido sepanjang jln. wa xtido, sbb jon ikut jln lame. wa dh lame xlalu jln tuh. wa rindu =)
lapa + ngantuk = mkn and then tido! muahaha...
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Lost in the sky
Clouds roll by and I roll with them
Arrows fly
Seas increase and then fall again
This world is spinning around me
This world is spinning without me
Every day sends future to past
Every breath leaves one less to my last
Watch the sparrow falling
Gives new meaning to it all
If not today nor yet tomorrow then some other day
I'll take seven lives for one
And then my only father's son
As sure as I ever did love him
I am not afraid
This world is spinning around me
The whole world keeps spinning around me
All life is future to past
Every breath leaves me one less to my last
Pull me under
Pull me under
Pull me under
I'm not afraid
All that I feel is honor and spite
All I can do is to set it right
Dust fills my eyes
Clouds roll by and I roll with them
Centuries cry
Orders fly and I fall again
This world is spinning inside me
The whole world is spinning inside of me
Every day sends future to past
Every step brings me closer to my last
Pull me under
Pull me under
Pull me under
I'm not afraid
Living my life too much in the sun
Only until your will is done
Oh that this too, too solid flesh would melt
Friday, 6 October 2006
Our days are never coming back
mlm nih (kalo ikut jam skang, dh kira semlm la) adalah detik² bersejarah bg mereka² yg terlibat. fakta penting: kejadian ni hanya dpt kami lalui setelah - along (30thn), abg (28thn), kaklong (27thn), kakngah (23thn) dan wa (22thn) idop kt dunia nih =P *lagu latar blakang - ala² kitaro. bersejarah nye pasal kan* heh :D
ape dia?! kami kuar, mkn beramai², adik bradik sahaja *isk isk* begitu bersejarah sampai wa rase nk menitis air mata =P sape plan? along.. ALONG.. A.L.O.N.G. R.I.Z.A.L!!! *jeling kalendar, tgk bile ari raye*
citer dia gini. tiba² siang td dlm ym abg invite masuk conference *tebiat ke ape* dh la online tp offline. mcm gile private & confidential cara dia invite *tehee* rupenye nk ckp along ajak kuar mkn mlm. kalo bebuke, xsempat. masing² blk dr tmpt keje kan. kami² ni agak terkesima la kejap kan *mintak² la along XKAN lyn frenster sampai bile²* =P plan punye plan, setel - mcd sg besi, petronas, 11pm.
wa pi sorg, along sorg, abg sorg (baru blk dr gym), kaklong ngan kakngah (blk dr kempo). siap bwk kamera nih! once in a lifetime experience nih mmg kena kenang sampai bila²! dan spt jangkaan - kami buat mcd tuh mcm "kami yg punye" *miahamuahaha* wa rase kn, brader kaunter mcd tu pon pening ngan kami *geleng kpale*
along ngan abg blanje kn. ape lg, order la sesuka perut masing²! biasa jek la tp. mkn buke td x hadam abih lg.
mcd tuh kan xla besar sgt. jd bile kami² yg besar nih beckp + gelak kan. astaghafirullahhhh! ya Allah ya Allah ya Tuhannnnn! nih bkn tahap family ceria, dh kritikal. family huru hara!! silap² pasnih ade tampal muke kami kt dpn pintu - dilarang masuk *kuakuakua* aduh la. senak pankreas wa gelak tau.
kakngah plak wa pon xpaham le apesal. excited sgt kot, sampai lupe sume mende >:) bagi bahse isyarat pon, xkena dgn objek. kalo la blog nih ade video blog. wa tunjuk satu² ape yg dia buat ^_^ hee slmt ari raye kakngah!
dh abih seround mkn, beli lg air 2. borak + gelak = dahaga. sambung lg. dr satu, ke satu mende citer. hak sirius black, hak gelak pecah kpala. sedar² dh dkt 1am. except for wa kn, diorg nih kene bgn keje. wa lps subuh tido pon xpe *xyah lyn kakngah dlm ym* O_o maka kami besurai la sudah.
wa xtau la org lain, tp wa hepi sgt dpt jumpe camtu. walopun skejap jek. dh besar² ni kan, baru la rase. kalo lame xjumpe ke kan. mase kecik² dulu xamik kesah. last year nye puasa ade plan nk buke same ramai². along gak la pon yg ajak nye. tp xde sape yg berkesempatan.
ckp pasal puasa. kaklong, kakngah, ajak aide blk raye nih ye. wa kemas bilik bwh tu, semata utk diorg. wa buat kueh siput byk²! print jgn xprint =P wa nk ckp ngan dia sendiri wa xbrani *heh* kalo wa nangis dpn dia ajak blk, agak² di lyn? xpon wa suh ratu airmata kita kt umah tuh call suh blk :D
dh² xbleh panjang². 4am kang router padam. xsempat plak post menda alah nih. mintak² ada masa lg nnt, kita kumpul lg ramai². wa mean sirius black nye ramai - the whole family. in the mean time, sbb puasa pon lame lg xbleh la ucap slmt raye dulu. so slmt menyempurnakan puasa lg 17 ari, insyaAllah...
I never understood before
Tied up in ancient history
What a feeling in my soul
Love will remain a mystery
ape dia?! kami kuar, mkn beramai², adik bradik sahaja *isk isk* begitu bersejarah sampai wa rase nk menitis air mata =P sape plan? along.. ALONG.. A.L.O.N.G. R.I.Z.A.L!!! *jeling kalendar, tgk bile ari raye*
citer dia gini. tiba² siang td dlm ym abg invite masuk conference *tebiat ke ape* dh la online tp offline. mcm gile private & confidential cara dia invite *tehee* rupenye nk ckp along ajak kuar mkn mlm. kalo bebuke, xsempat. masing² blk dr tmpt keje kan. kami² ni agak terkesima la kejap kan *mintak² la along XKAN lyn frenster sampai bile²* =P plan punye plan, setel - mcd sg besi, petronas, 11pm.
wa pi sorg, along sorg, abg sorg (baru blk dr gym), kaklong ngan kakngah (blk dr kempo). siap bwk kamera nih! once in a lifetime experience nih mmg kena kenang sampai bila²! dan spt jangkaan - kami buat mcd tuh mcm "kami yg punye" *miahamuahaha* wa rase kn, brader kaunter mcd tu pon pening ngan kami *geleng kpale*
along ngan abg blanje kn. ape lg, order la sesuka perut masing²! biasa jek la tp. mkn buke td x hadam abih lg.
mcd tuh kan xla besar sgt. jd bile kami² yg besar nih beckp + gelak kan. astaghafirullahhhh! ya Allah ya Allah ya Tuhannnnn! nih bkn tahap family ceria, dh kritikal. family huru hara!! silap² pasnih ade tampal muke kami kt dpn pintu - dilarang masuk *kuakuakua* aduh la. senak pankreas wa gelak tau.
kakngah plak wa pon xpaham le apesal. excited sgt kot, sampai lupe sume mende >:) bagi bahse isyarat pon, xkena dgn objek. kalo la blog nih ade video blog. wa tunjuk satu² ape yg dia buat ^_^ hee slmt ari raye kakngah!
dh abih seround mkn, beli lg air 2. borak + gelak = dahaga. sambung lg. dr satu, ke satu mende citer. hak sirius black, hak gelak pecah kpala. sedar² dh dkt 1am. except for wa kn, diorg nih kene bgn keje. wa lps subuh tido pon xpe *xyah lyn kakngah dlm ym* O_o maka kami besurai la sudah.
wa xtau la org lain, tp wa hepi sgt dpt jumpe camtu. walopun skejap jek. dh besar² ni kan, baru la rase. kalo lame xjumpe ke kan. mase kecik² dulu xamik kesah. last year nye puasa ade plan nk buke same ramai². along gak la pon yg ajak nye. tp xde sape yg berkesempatan.
ckp pasal puasa. kaklong, kakngah, ajak aide blk raye nih ye. wa kemas bilik bwh tu, semata utk diorg. wa buat kueh siput byk²! print jgn xprint =P wa nk ckp ngan dia sendiri wa xbrani *heh* kalo wa nangis dpn dia ajak blk, agak² di lyn? xpon wa suh ratu airmata kita kt umah tuh call suh blk :D
dh² xbleh panjang². 4am kang router padam. xsempat plak post menda alah nih. mintak² ada masa lg nnt, kita kumpul lg ramai². wa mean sirius black nye ramai - the whole family. in the mean time, sbb puasa pon lame lg xbleh la ucap slmt raye dulu. so slmt menyempurnakan puasa lg 17 ari, insyaAllah...
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I never understood before
I never knew what love was for
My heart was broke, my head was sore
What a feeling
Tied up in ancient history
I didnt believe in destiny
I look up you're standing next to me
What a feeling
What a feeling in my soul
Love burns brighter than sunshine
Brighter than sunshine
Let the rain fall, i don't care
I'm yours and suddenly you're mine
Suddenly you're mine and it's brighter than sunshine
I never saw it happening
I'd given up and given in
I just couldn't take the hurt again
What a feeling
I didn't have the strength to fight
suddenly you seemed so right
Me and you
What a feeling
What a feeling in my soul
Love burns brighter than sunshine
It's brighter than sunshine
Let the rain fall, I don't care
I'm yours and suddenly you're mine
Suddenly you're mine
It's brighter than the sun
It's brighter than the sun
It's brighter than the sun, sun, shine.
Love will remain a mystery
But give me your hand and you will see
Your heart is keeping time with me
What a feeling in my soul
Love burns brighter than sunshine
t's brighter than sunshine
Let the rain fall, I don't care
I'm yours and suddenly you're mine
Suddenly you're mine
Friday, 29 September 2006
There will be no white flag above my door
driving - do's and dont's. well i'ma start with DONT's:
<> don't drink & drive *cliché*
<> for you lovebirds out there, absolutely no bertenet while driving! shoo! get a room. yuck! singgah mcd ke kan. haa becinta la korg puas² *geleng kpale*
<> parents who got lil' kiddies - don't be like britney spears. strap 'em up! letih jek tampal "kids on board" kalo sendiri xbuat ape yg patut.
<> there's, at least, A reason why they invented the side- & rearview mirror. don't forget to use 'em!
<> don't be a show off. so you got turbo engine and eksoz with the size of serombong kapal. doesn't mean you are that much faster than me *wink* except for jon's. wa sirius black suspek keta dia *bedengung sampai la ni*
<> ahh yes, DON'T GET IN MY WAY!
the DO's:
<> mirror. signal. maneuver.
<> be courteous *?!* harkk ptuih.
ok ok. screw all those rules. just drive safely. ingat org yg tersayang *geli* speaking of which, wa miss ajib *tetiba* xsaba plak tunggu raye, dia blk cuti skolah. 25 more days...
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Die, die, die my darling
Don't utter a single word
Die, die, die my darling
Just shut your pretty eyes
I'll be seeing you again
I'll be seeing you in me
Don't cry to me a baby
Your future is in an oblong box
Don't cry to me oh baby
Should have seen the end a-comin' on, a-comin'
Don't cry to me oh baby
I don't know it was in your power
Don't cry to me oh baby
Dead-end girl for a dead-end guy
Don't cry to me oh baby
Now your life drains on the floor
Don't cry to me oh baby
Die, die, die my darling
Don't utter a single word
Die, die, die my darling
Shut your pretty mouth
I'll be seeing you again
I'll be seeing you in Hell
Die, die, die, die, die, die
<> don't drink & drive *cliché*
<> for you lovebirds out there, absolutely no bertenet while driving! shoo! get a room. yuck! singgah mcd ke kan. haa becinta la korg puas² *geleng kpale*
<> parents who got lil' kiddies - don't be like britney spears. strap 'em up! letih jek tampal "kids on board" kalo sendiri xbuat ape yg patut.
<> there's, at least, A reason why they invented the side- & rearview mirror. don't forget to use 'em!
<> don't be a show off. so you got turbo engine and eksoz with the size of serombong kapal. doesn't mean you are that much faster than me *wink* except for jon's. wa sirius black suspek keta dia *bedengung sampai la ni*
<> ahh yes, DON'T GET IN MY WAY!
the DO's:
<> mirror. signal. maneuver.
<> be courteous *?!* harkk ptuih.
ok ok. screw all those rules. just drive safely. ingat org yg tersayang *geli* speaking of which, wa miss ajib *tetiba* xsaba plak tunggu raye, dia blk cuti skolah. 25 more days...
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Die, die, die my darling
Don't utter a single word
Die, die, die my darling
Just shut your pretty eyes
I'll be seeing you again
I'll be seeing you in me
Don't cry to me a baby
Your future is in an oblong box
Don't cry to me oh baby
Should have seen the end a-comin' on, a-comin'
Don't cry to me oh baby
I don't know it was in your power
Don't cry to me oh baby
Dead-end girl for a dead-end guy
Don't cry to me oh baby
Now your life drains on the floor
Don't cry to me oh baby
Die, die, die my darling
Don't utter a single word
Die, die, die my darling
Shut your pretty mouth
I'll be seeing you again
I'll be seeing you in Hell
Die, die, die, die, die, die
Wednesday, 27 September 2006
Lets waste time chasing cars
on hiway karak! and get ticket for speeding.. miahamuahaha :D
arini bukak puasa beramai². wa, kakngah, kaklong, jon. lame jugak la kami pilih nk bebuke kt mane. dr dlm ym lg kami betaki, "nk mkn ape", "nk buka ape". jwpn? pa pe jek la... mane² jek la *geleng kpale* last², wa ngan kaklong parking kt hartamas, naik sama kakngah ngan jon. pi ou.
mkn nando's - kaklong nk blanje kan. seb baik kami xmintak pi mkn kt hotel ke kn =P kaklong punye mood: pusat peranginan terkawal. nk ditampar, KAKAK kn. kang durhaka, dia xmau plak blanje wa :D
rase nye kami ber4 jek tau. tp kn, dlm byk² meja yg lebih ramai org tuh, meja kami paling bising. how la?! bdk² nih bleh gelak kan abg waiter tuh. sian abg tuh tau, punye smangat dia serve kita =P kakngah pon excited sket. wa paham, awak kelaparan dan xsihat sgt. tapiiii jgn bikin malu kompeni beb! pasni jgn dtg nandos ou dh *tsk tsk* anywayZzz mummy, mekacihhhh maaf for bukak puasa. wa sakit kpale. mkn garlic sos tuh agaknye *adei*
pas mkn, pi ikea ikut kakngah ngan jon beli meja (?) wa dh lame tringin nk masuk situh. wahhh bantal itam, tuala itam, krusi itam, meja itam, rak cd itam!!! nnt kn kemunculan wa dikendian ari =)
ingat td kalo awal sket blk nk singgah mines cari syampu. syampu wa spesel kn, xterdpt dimerata tmpt ^_- sok xde klas kan, ape kata...
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Seems like it was yesterday
When I saw your face
You told me how proud you were,
But I walked away
If only I knew what I know today
Ooh, ooh
I would hold you in my arms
I would take the pain away
Thank you for all you've done
Forgive all your mistakes
There's nothing I wouldn't do
To hear your voice again
Sometimes I wanna call you
But I know you won't be there
Oh, I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself by hurting you
Some days I feel broke inside
But I won't admit
Sometimes I just wanna hide
'Cause it's you I miss
And it's so hard to say goodbye
When it comes to this, ooh
Would you tell me I was wrong?
Would you help understand?
Are you looking down upon me?
Are you proud of who I am?
There's nothing I wouldn't do
To have just one more chance
To look into your eyes
And see you looking back
Oh, I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself, oh
If I had just one more day
I would tell you how much that I've missed you
Since you've been away
Ooh, it's dangerous
It's so out of line
To try and turn back time
I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself..
By hurting you
arini bukak puasa beramai². wa, kakngah, kaklong, jon. lame jugak la kami pilih nk bebuke kt mane. dr dlm ym lg kami betaki, "nk mkn ape", "nk buka ape". jwpn? pa pe jek la... mane² jek la *geleng kpale* last², wa ngan kaklong parking kt hartamas, naik sama kakngah ngan jon. pi ou.
mkn nando's - kaklong nk blanje kan. seb baik kami xmintak pi mkn kt hotel ke kn =P kaklong punye mood: pusat peranginan terkawal. nk ditampar, KAKAK kn. kang durhaka, dia xmau plak blanje wa :D
rase nye kami ber4 jek tau. tp kn, dlm byk² meja yg lebih ramai org tuh, meja kami paling bising. how la?! bdk² nih bleh gelak kan abg waiter tuh. sian abg tuh tau, punye smangat dia serve kita =P kakngah pon excited sket. wa paham, awak kelaparan dan xsihat sgt. tapiiii jgn bikin malu kompeni beb! pasni jgn dtg nandos ou dh *tsk tsk* anywayZzz mummy, mekacihhhh maaf for bukak puasa. wa sakit kpale. mkn garlic sos tuh agaknye *adei*
pas mkn, pi ikea ikut kakngah ngan jon beli meja (?) wa dh lame tringin nk masuk situh. wahhh bantal itam, tuala itam, krusi itam, meja itam, rak cd itam!!! nnt kn kemunculan wa dikendian ari =)
ingat td kalo awal sket blk nk singgah mines cari syampu. syampu wa spesel kn, xterdpt dimerata tmpt ^_- sok xde klas kan, ape kata...
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Seems like it was yesterday
When I saw your face
You told me how proud you were,
But I walked away
If only I knew what I know today
Ooh, ooh
I would hold you in my arms
I would take the pain away
Thank you for all you've done
Forgive all your mistakes
There's nothing I wouldn't do
To hear your voice again
Sometimes I wanna call you
But I know you won't be there
Oh, I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself by hurting you
Some days I feel broke inside
But I won't admit
Sometimes I just wanna hide
'Cause it's you I miss
And it's so hard to say goodbye
When it comes to this, ooh
Would you tell me I was wrong?
Would you help understand?
Are you looking down upon me?
Are you proud of who I am?
There's nothing I wouldn't do
To have just one more chance
To look into your eyes
And see you looking back
Oh, I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself, oh
If I had just one more day
I would tell you how much that I've missed you
Since you've been away
Ooh, it's dangerous
It's so out of line
To try and turn back time
I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself..
By hurting you
Monday, 25 September 2006
So now I'll ask - do you like that
1st day of ramadhan. still at my parents'. biasa time ni wa dh blk kolumpo. tp sbb klas kul 9 sok dh ganti ari kamis, amik kesempatan la kn pose n bebuka kt umah =) biasa jek. wa, mak, abah jek. rase cam kosong plak kn *sigh* yg penting 1st day ngan mak abah. nxt week? *tgn kt dagu* kita tunggu dan lihat.
sok pg² blk ngan izah. izah?! haa 18 keajaiban dunia dh utk wa tuh! tiba² maklong call kn. xpe la, bleh gak bejln tmpt izah. xpenah lepas lg. jgn nnt TUKANG TUNJUK JLN nye pon ilang arah, dh! yg pasti kot kami sesat pon masih lg dlm s'ngor kan =P *simpanggggg!!*
kakngah, awk demam lg ke saje gatal nk demam? smangat tau wa online awal ari jumaat tuh! wa menci. sok awk online sensorg! ehhh! ade 9 file wa mintak tlg dload kan? *tehee* *puppy eyes* ya ampun ummi. mekaciiiiihhh maaf :D
mlm ni tido awal? *hark ptuih* lyn CSI 2nd round...
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Just like a star across my sky
Just like an angel of the page
You have appeared to my life
Feel like I'll never be the same
Just like a song in my heart
Just like oil on my hands
Only to love you
Still I wonder why it is
I don't argue like this
With anyone but you
You do it all the time
Blowing out my mind
You've got this look I can't describe
You make me feel I'm alive
When everything else is a fake
Without a doubt you're by my side
Heaven has been way too long
Can't find the words to write this song
Oh love
Still I wonder why it is
I don't argue like this
With anyone but you
You do it all the time
Blowing out my mind, yeah
Da da da da da da da
Da da da da da da da
I have come to understand the way it is
Its not a secret anymore
Cos we've been through that before
From tonight I know that you're the only one
I've been confused and in the dark
Now I understand
Oooh oooh
I wonder why it is
I don't argue like this
With anyone but you
I wonder why it is I won't let my guard down
For anyone but you
You do it all the time
Blowing out my mind
Just like a star across my sky
Just like an angel of the page
You have appeared to my life
Feel like I'll never be the same
Just like a song in my heart
Just like oil on my hands
sok pg² blk ngan izah. izah?! haa 18 keajaiban dunia dh utk wa tuh! tiba² maklong call kn. xpe la, bleh gak bejln tmpt izah. xpenah lepas lg. jgn nnt TUKANG TUNJUK JLN nye pon ilang arah, dh! yg pasti kot kami sesat pon masih lg dlm s'ngor kan =P *simpanggggg!!*
kakngah, awk demam lg ke saje gatal nk demam? smangat tau wa online awal ari jumaat tuh! wa menci. sok awk online sensorg! ehhh! ade 9 file wa mintak tlg dload kan? *tehee* *puppy eyes* ya ampun ummi. mekaciiiiihhh maaf :D
mlm ni tido awal? *hark ptuih* lyn CSI 2nd round...
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Just like a star across my sky
Just like an angel of the page
You have appeared to my life
Feel like I'll never be the same
Just like a song in my heart
Just like oil on my hands
Only to love you
Still I wonder why it is
I don't argue like this
With anyone but you
You do it all the time
Blowing out my mind
You've got this look I can't describe
You make me feel I'm alive
When everything else is a fake
Without a doubt you're by my side
Heaven has been way too long
Can't find the words to write this song
Oh love
Still I wonder why it is
I don't argue like this
With anyone but you
You do it all the time
Blowing out my mind, yeah
Da da da da da da da
Da da da da da da da
I have come to understand the way it is
Its not a secret anymore
Cos we've been through that before
From tonight I know that you're the only one
I've been confused and in the dark
Now I understand
Oooh oooh
I wonder why it is
I don't argue like this
With anyone but you
I wonder why it is I won't let my guard down
For anyone but you
You do it all the time
Blowing out my mind
Just like a star across my sky
Just like an angel of the page
You have appeared to my life
Feel like I'll never be the same
Just like a song in my heart
Just like oil on my hands
Friday, 22 September 2006
Attempting to give a damn: FAILED! Damn not given
wa gumbira! formal method xde midterm *kuangkuangkuang* suh buat case study. klas arini pon xde. bkn la xde, tp miss akan masuk "a.s.a.p". siap pesan sape nk blk, blk la. emmmmmm salah PESAN la missssss! miahamuahaha
ape nk buat? projek? asgmt? layan kakngah - sigh...
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I can’t control everything
And I can’t forget just what I’ve seen
And these memories take me away
To a better place than I am today
Than I am today
I devise my own demise
Hands tonight the life I’m losing
I devise my own demise
Hands tonight the life I’m losing
It’s time to say hello, goodbye (hello, goodbye)
To fade away, fade away alone
Mother f***er goodbye
I just want you today
Take me back home (take me back home)
To a better place that I’ve never known (that I’ve never known)
This life I’m losing
This life I’m living
I devise my own demise
Monday, 18 September 2006
If only I knew what I know today
xjd anta dpr kt abg. dia nye kt kerteh, kak ct kt umah kwn dia. cis cis cis dan cis lg! mmg nye berasap sendiri dh la kakngah :D
weekend xde pe yg menarik sgt. maklong ghiyot buat kekah cucu nye sabtu mlm *seb baik la maklong xreti lyn frenster kan* =P mak pi skejap belah ptg tuh. kami xpi, sbb mlm nye pi tahlil arwah chu him. mak wa kalo bab "ujan ribut petir banjir" ni, mmg dia la ratu nye. tula yg tumpah kt wa sket kan *tehee* nasib la chu ani memahami =P
td btolak ke sini 6pm. singgah umah mimi jap amik kamera. alang² pinjam nk buat projek kan, ape kata wa lenjan skali *miahamuahaha* kakngah! kaklong! putrajaya jom! mlenjan kamera mimi kt dataran putra. aquaria ke kan. aritu pi xbwk kamera.
sok klas kul 9. tuang bleh? bkn paham pon ape dia ajar! -_-' oleh itu, stadi stadi sta.. Zzzz...
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If shame had a face
I think it would kind of look like mine
If it had a home would it be my eyes
Would you believe me if I said
I'm tired of this
Well here we go now one more time
I tried to climb your steps
I tried to chase you down
I tried to see how low I could get it down to the ground
I tried to earn my way
I tried to tame this mind
You better believe that
I tried to beat this
So when will this end it goes on and on
Over and over and over again
Keep spinning around I know that it won't stop
Till I step down from this for good
I never thought
I'd end up here
Never thought I'd be standing where I am
I guess I kinda thought it would be easier than this
I guess I was wrong now one more time
So when will this end it goes on and on
Over and over and over again
Keep spinning around I know that it won't stop
Till I step down from this for good
Sick cycle carousel
This is a sick cycle carousel, yeah
Sick cycle carousel
This is a sick cycle, yeah
Sick cycle carousel
weekend xde pe yg menarik sgt. maklong ghiyot buat kekah cucu nye sabtu mlm *seb baik la maklong xreti lyn frenster kan* =P mak pi skejap belah ptg tuh. kami xpi, sbb mlm nye pi tahlil arwah chu him. mak wa kalo bab "ujan ribut petir banjir" ni, mmg dia la ratu nye. tula yg tumpah kt wa sket kan *tehee* nasib la chu ani memahami =P
td btolak ke sini 6pm. singgah umah mimi jap amik kamera. alang² pinjam nk buat projek kan, ape kata wa lenjan skali *miahamuahaha* kakngah! kaklong! putrajaya jom! mlenjan kamera mimi kt dataran putra. aquaria ke kan. aritu pi xbwk kamera.
sok klas kul 9. tuang bleh? bkn paham pon ape dia ajar! -_-' oleh itu, stadi stadi sta.. Zzzz...
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If shame had a face
I think it would kind of look like mine
If it had a home would it be my eyes
Would you believe me if I said
I'm tired of this
Well here we go now one more time
I tried to climb your steps
I tried to chase you down
I tried to see how low I could get it down to the ground
I tried to earn my way
I tried to tame this mind
You better believe that
I tried to beat this
So when will this end it goes on and on
Over and over and over again
Keep spinning around I know that it won't stop
Till I step down from this for good
I never thought
I'd end up here
Never thought I'd be standing where I am
I guess I kinda thought it would be easier than this
I guess I was wrong now one more time
So when will this end it goes on and on
Over and over and over again
Keep spinning around I know that it won't stop
Till I step down from this for good
Sick cycle carousel
This is a sick cycle carousel, yeah
Sick cycle carousel
This is a sick cycle, yeah
Sick cycle carousel
Thursday, 14 September 2006
Somehow, I just don't wanna stay and wait for a wonder
wa baru prasan. wa ade 2paper jek yg ade midterm exam nye *huahuahua* lg 3paper tuh penuh ngan projek jek *tsk!* so, 1paper siap - s/w testing. 1 lg postponed, bleh gitu? sbb klas nye sendiri dh baper kali kensel. kira lg sminggu dua la baru exam yg tuh. patut xyah buat midterm trus kan *tehee* kasi jek la asgmt byk². wa suke. pastuh anta lps due date *gelak setan* :D
keje byk sbenarnye. tp tahap kemalasan wa berada diparas maut. pe nk buat? ingat nk pi drive-thru tol sg besi kn. tp lps bace citer pasal "panjat pokok, pijak berkali²" tuh. sumpah wa seram! bleh kata wa xkuar tgh² mlm dh la. oooo sblum lupe. congrats to abg n kak ct. kak ct pregnant! *yezzzaa* bertambah askar kita weh! smoga ank sdare nnt ikut cam makde dia *ehem* pemalu, sopan lagi penuh kelembutan dan berbudi pekerti *miahamuahaha* =P
pekata wa ngabih kan novel wa. tgk bleh abih x 1 buku mlm nih...
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Are you ugly?
A liar like me?
A user, a lost soul
Someone you don't know
Money, it's no cure
A sickness so pure
Are you like me?
Are you ugly?
We are dirt
We are alone
You know we're far from sober
We are fake
We are afraid
You know it's far from over
We are dirt
We are alone
You know we're far from sober
Look closer
Are you like me?
Are you ugly?
A turner of blind eye
Why do I deny?
Medicate me
So I die happy
A strain of cancer
Chokes the answers
Are you like me?
A liar like me?
I don't care
You don't care
I'm bitter
You're angry
You don't care
I don't care
You love you
Just like me
I blame you
You blame me
I'm bitter
You're angry
You don't care
I don't care
You love you
Like me...
We are dirt
We are alone
You know we're far from sober
We are fake
We are afraid
You know it's far from over
We are dirt
We are alone
You know we're far from sober
Look closer
Are you like me?
Are you ugly?
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