Pieces of a dream

i don't exactly remember what i'd done yesterday. so it's safe to say, yesterday is history. and i hate history, the only time i ever really paid attention to history, was in form 3. coz we can write our notes - any way we want. luckily my chemical romance wasn't even exist at that time, or they'd be on every page of my notes *wink*

orait, i'm saving some of my net crdt for later. besides i've nothing to say, so daa...

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Who are you now?
Are you still the same
Or did you change somehow?
What do you do
At this very moment when I think of you?
And when I'm looking back
How we were young and stupid
Do you remember that?
Baby

No matter how I fight it
Can't deny it
Just can't let you go

I still need you
I still care about you
Though everything's been said and done
I still feel you
Like I'm right beside you
But still no word from you

Now look at me
Instead of moving on, I refuse to see
That I keep coming back
And I'm stuck in a moment
That wasn't meant to last (to last)

I've tried to fight it
Can't deny it
You don't even know

That I still need you
I still care about you
Though everything's been said and done
I still feel you
Like I'm right beside you
But still no word from you

Ohhhh Wish I could find you
Just like you found me
Then I would never let you go (without you)

Though everything's been said and done (yeah)
I still feel you (I still feel you)
Like I'm right beside you (like I'm right beside you)
But still no (still no word) word from you

Now look at me
instead of moving on I refuse to see
that I keep coming back
And I'm stuck in the moment that wasn't meant to last

I've tried to hide it
Can’t deny it
You don't even know that

I still need you
I still care about you
Though everything has been said and done
I still feel you like
I'm right beside you
There's still no word from you

I wish I could find you
Just like you found me that night
will never let you go

I'm not okay, I promise

7 days till xmas! i don't celebrate xmas. but there's gonna be a movie marathon on that day, and i heard that somebody's gotta WORK on THAT day =P slmt ari raye kaklong! majulah sukan utk negara! epi besday in adv. plg lebih pon wa kasi ekad jek =D

well, there goes another week of dec. boring dol! duk umah xbuat pape. bukak mata jek tgk tv, mkn, tgk tv, mandi, tgk tv. i'm offcially declare myself a dedicated couch-potato! literally i'm turning into one!!! =P~

emm td kaknor nikah. buat kt masjid raub, majlis ijabkabul jek. kenduri nye nxt week. the best part? abg, kaklong, kakngah, yoi blk. wa cukup hepi =)) everything went well. kt umah wa pon ade org kawen, ajib sempat la lyn kompang seround. tgh ujan plak tuh, smangat!

ohh i cut my hair on saturday, kinda regret it now. but i had to. split end - dh rupe gunung daik bcabang tiga =P besides i juz wanna hv a new look for a new year. yup, welcome 2006! time flies faster than i thought. in the last few years, so much things happened. might've forget a few. there r things that i can't forget, things that i won't forget and things that i dont wanna forget. apela yg dirapek kn labu seko nih *heh* thx to whoever thought of creating this blog thingy now i can say whatever i want. i'm a good listener, people come to me and pour their hearts out. thats juz what i never good at. i tend to keep it all to myself. juz dunno how, i dont even share my probs wif my mom. sometimes i envy my friends when they say they can talk & share everything wif their moms. it's not like she never ask or care. maybe its the way i've been brought up - i mean all the things i been thru, all the things i've seen *all these things that i've done - sang by the killers =P* or maybe its juz me. yeah, i think so. its juz me :-

anywayZz, haa thats a relief! im'ma whine again bout the same damn thing, one day =) for now that should do it. it's already 3.10 am. not sleepy, boring, dunno what to do (kt kolej dulu, time nih lepak projet - oops! syy!! =P). oo ye kaklong, bout that "unexpected guest. teka, kalo btul wa beli piza - awk byr. ekekekekekeke =P guess now i'm gonna google the 1st thing that pops into my mind, like gerard way's pics!!! muahahahaha *wink wink* later guys...

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Well if you wanted honesty, that's all you had to say
I never want to let you down or have you go
It's better off this wayFor all the dirty looks
The photographs your boyfriend took
Remember when you broke your foot
From jumping out the second floor

I'm not okayI'm not okay
I'm not okay
You wear me out

What will it take to show you that it's not the life it seems
I've told you time and time again
You sing the words but don't know what it means
To be a joke and look
Another line without a hook
I held you close as we both shook for the last time
Take a good hard look

I'm not okay
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
You wear me out

Forget about the dirty looks
The photographs your boyfriend took
You said you'd read me like a book
But the pages are all torn and frayed

I'm okay
I'm okay
I'm okay, now

But you really need to listen to me
Because I'm telling you the truth
I mean this, I'm okay(Trust me)

I'm not okay
I'm not okay
Well, I'm not okay
I'm not o-fucking-kay
I'm not okay
I'm not okay

But there's no sun shining through

a week passed. nothing interesting happened. no ufo crash or that sorta things =P but there's a soccer match tonite! chelsea vs wigan. i don't watch 'em, my bro does. can't stand what 22 dudes running after 1 ball for :-\ i prefer a simple game of 'batu seremban'. ahh remembering the old days *dreamy eyes*

anyways, we went to chamang last saturday. me, me pa & ma and my bro. picnic la konon, ari ujan pon. redup jek, xmandi - basuh² kaki jek =P ngikut ke mak le nih. gila nurun lembah, turun tuh xpe. nk naik smule, kejung 4ari oi!! komdian pi karak sat. anta jarum insulin kt wan. around 5.30 gerak pi the store. bought 2 cekelat! lame xmkn cekelat! later that nite abg blk. kl - raub umpama pi toilet jek (bak kata mak!) =P ahad blk smule kl. senin keje kan.

slase mlm along plak blk raub. rabu pi anta mentua ke mekah. jumat baru trun. haikal turns 4 next monday dec 12. beso dh ank sdare kaeh! atuk ngan nenek dia bought him a new toy excavator. "bleh bawok gi pantai nnt" - imagine a 4 yr old kid wif 'ganu accent. muahahahahaha =)) wa xbleh trima kenyataan ini!!!! *ROTF*LMAO*

btw, ari kamis dtg la unexpected visitor. "she" was here! who? teng teng teng!! what was "she" doing in raub? can i hv another teng teng teng!! =P didn't bother to ask. good to see her ok tho'.
noon td along blk ke kemaman. kaklong's working on sunday. she can barely walk now!! due in jan. another boy! dpt lg sorg sinchan!!! argh!! yg sorg nih pon dh skian. sah jd cam along ngan abg dulu la nih ;-)

well that's bout it. i'm gonna whine and annoy my bro for not letting me watch the movies tonite. enuff said...

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Everything's so blurry
and everyone's so fake
and everybody's so empty
and everything is so messed up
pre-occupied without you
I cannot live at all
My whole world surrounds you
I stumble then I crawl

You could be my someone
you could be my sea
you know that i'll protect you
from all of the obscene
I wonder what you're doing
imagine where you are
there's oceans in between us
but that's not very far

Can you take it all away
can you take it all away
when you shoved it in my face
explain again to me

Everyone is changing
there's noone left that's real
to make up your ending
and let me know just how you feel
cause I am lost without you
I cannot live at all
my whole world surrounds you
I stumble then I crawl

You could be my someone
you could be my sea
you know that i will save you
from all of the unclean
I wonder what you're doing
I wonder where you are
There's oceans in between us
but that's not very far

Nobody told me what you thought
nobody told me what to say
everyone showed you where to turn
told you where to runaway
nobody told you where to hide
nobody told you what to say
everyone showed you where to turn
showed you where to runaway

Not everything in this magical world is quite what it seems

wazzup!! it's been a while since my last entry. i'm not gonna write any nonsense 'bout what i've done today (hopefully!). but im'ma do a little movie review on the latest HP series.

watched the movie juz now. me bro borrowed the cd from his friend. BEEN DYING TO WATCH IT! but all i can say - it's a waste of 2 and a half hours of my time! >:( big disappointment!!! seriously! (should u not agree wif this, i suggest that u find another usefull site and close this window - rite now!).

ehmm why? coz i say so! *duh* ok here's the thing. #1: it's a pirated cd - btg idong harry jadah haram xnmpk! too dark! voice not so clear, even the subtitle is incorrect (what the hell is "POKICK"????? it's "PORTKEY" duffus!!).

#2: hell loads of interesting part been left out! it's like watching a movie being fast forward 8times of its original speed. anyone who read the book would notice. kelam kabut wa ckp lu! i mean, out of nowhere not 10mins the movie started the dark mark appeared. where's the quidditch world cup?! and what happen to the other 3 champs during task 1? they should've include that part coz it would've been hell of a scene to watch! (i jumpped and screamed juz by reading it, wonder what i'd do if it was made into movie). now i better not start on the other 2 tasks and what happen in between.

didn't expect 'em to make a TRILOGY out of the 4th book. but it wouldn't hurt to make it slightly longer than usual. still i must say, the part when harry reappeared with cedric (dead!) made me cry. not bcoz of cedric *wink wink* but coz harry cried - really cried! this time better than the one scene in prisoner of azkaban.

among all 4 movies, GOF is my least favourite. u guyz who haven't read the book, u should take the time to read it. wish they'll make better movie for the 5th and 6th installment (the books are as thick as the 4th, tho'). think im'ma read GOF (again!) juz to make up to what they've scrapped off the movie.

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To my mother, to my father
It's your son or it's your daughter
Are my screams loud enough for you to hear me?
Should I turn this up for you?

I sit here locked inside my head
Remembering everything you've said
This silence gets us nowhere
Gets us nowhere way too fast

The silence is what kills me
I need someone here to help me
But you don't know how to listen
And let me make my decisions

All your insults and your curses
Make me feel like I'm not a person
And I feel likeI am nothing
But you made me
So do something

Cause I'm fucked up
Because you are
Need attention
Attention you couldn't give

I sit here locked inside my head
Remembering everything you've said
This silence gets us nowhere
Gets us nowhere way too fast

In the middle of nowhere

"But there is something left in my head..."

Just finished what's supposed to be done eons ago. at last! one more to go tho' =P been up all nite. now waiting for subuh prayer. got nothing to do, done attacking every possible losers in KOC. waited for my fav clip to be played, no luck! either i missed it or they ain't playin it anymo :'(

ok that's it. juz need to scrabble a few things =)) nite/morning everyone. here I reveal my newest guilty pleasure (dunno y I like dis song so much. catchy tunes!)...

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Time goes by so slowly
Every little thing that you say or do
I'm hung upI'm hung up on you
Waiting for your call
Baby night and day
I'm fed up
I'm tired of waiting on you

Time goes by so slowly for those who wait
No time to hesitate
Those who run seem to have all the fun
I'm caught up
I don't know what to do

Time goes by so slowly
I don't know what to do

Every little thing that you say or do
I'm hung up
I'm hung up on you
Waiting for your call
Baby night and day
I'm fed up
I'm tired of waiting on you

Ring ring ring goes the telephone
The lights are on but there's no-one home
Tick tick tock it's a quarter to two
And I'm done
I'm hanging up on you

I can't keep on waiting for you
I know that you're still hesitating
Don't cry for me
'cause I'll find my way
you'll wake up one day
but it'll be too late

Every little thing that you say or do
I'm hung upI'm hung up on you
Waiting for your call
Baby night and day
I'm fed up
I'm tired of waiting on you

Kekasih awal dan akhir

"If only tears could bring you back"

u were wondering bout my title? hv no reason at all. i was browsing thru my lyric collection and there it was - Jamal Abdillah's Kekasih Awal Dan Akhir. god knows how it got into my comp! ;-) "i don't care!" as ricky martin sings his not so appealing song. as long as this post has a title, anything will do (ayat kaklong, copyrighted tuh!!! =P)

kay, i hv a new obsession - KINGS OF CHAOS!!! abg le yg bwk wabak nih! i know, u'd probably think "it's yesterdays news, girl!". t'hell wif u! it's new to me! much simpler than i thought it'd be. tekan situ, tekan sini, serang sana, serang sini. voila! seda² turns abih, duit ade dkt 2juta. muahahaha! ade la player offer jd commander, but i already hv one =P~ a good one too ;-\ "kakde, slalu upgrade yg nih. yg tuh xyah usik pon xpe. yg penting yg nih musti tinggi. slalu naikkan hak tuh, yg sana tuh biar. yg nih xpe". slmt ari raye abg! raya sbln kn. blk beli piza ye. takat double cheese burger mcd jek xpe ah! nani bleh beli sendiri! >:P

peh! sedap eskrem Xchoc nih, shingga menjilat buku lali!! kol 12 tgh mlm mkn eskrem? raub ade 7e skang kn =P

ehmm ttg arini. bgn kol10, mkn kueh bwg (lebih kueh raya). abah, mak, ajib lps ke benta (brekfes!) shopping skali le kot. penuh le sbakul. kol11 diorg blk, n.lemak utk wa 2bungkus (skit dol! tuh sbb 2bungkus) =P ajib pi main kompang, abah keje, mak tgk tv. wa tgk tv kejap pastu sambung membungkang sampai ptg. comp nih dh 2ari xtutup. duk render animation, gile lame! 1 1/2 mins nye animation render sampai 12jam!

adei! internet nih dh 8x disco dh, suh tutup aa maksud tersirat dan tersurat nye =P~ thats all 4 today kids! tune in again same time, same place, same channel. me - signing off...

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I tried to be perfect, but nothing was worth it
I don't believe it makes me real
I thought it'd be easy, but no one believes me
I meant all the things that I said.
If you believe it's in my soul
I'd say all the words that I know
Just to see if it would show
That I'm trying to let you know
That I'm better off on my own.
This place is so empty
My thoughts are so tempting
I don't know how it got so bad
Sometimes it's so crazy
That nothing can save me,
But it's the only thing that I have.
If you believe it's in my soul
I'd say all the words that I know
Just to see if it would show
That I'm trying to let you know
That I'm better off on my own.
I tried to be perfect it just wasn't worth it
Nothing could ever be so wrong
It's hard to believe me
It never gets easy
I guess I knew that all along.
If you believe it's in my soul
I'd say all the words that I know
Just to see if it would show
That I'm trying to let you know
That I'm better off on my own

Not meant for me

rite. have nothing to say, but i juz have to share this wif all of u out there.

now there's a lot of things goin on in my mind. muahahahahaha *wink* *drool* *dreaming*. however, since it's not relevant enuff to state it here (it's so controversial, i'd be on ntv7's edisi siasat - ape kejadah nye yg dipk kn dek bdk nih?!) =P

well i'm watching Santa Clause 2 for the 2nd time today, and god knows how many times i've watched it b4. btw it's 2.45 am. so that's it. nite everyone! (or morning?).

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You think you're smart

You're not, it's plain to see

That you want me to fall off

It's killing me, let's see

You've got the gall

Come take it all

The jury is coming

Coming to tear me apart

All this bitching and moaning

Come on it's on

I'm trapped in this world

Lonely and fading

Heartbroke and waiting

For you to come

We are stuck in this world

That's not meant for me

For me

So what you got

One last shot

It seems to me

That you're not needed

Come on

It's killing me, let's see

You got the gall

Come take it all

The jury is coming

Coming to tear me apart

All this bitching and moaning

Come on it's on

I'm trapped in this world

Lonely and fading

Heartbroke and waiting

For you to come

We are stuck in this world

That's not meant for me

For me

Falling apart to half time

"I cry silently, I cry inside of me, I cry hopelessly, Cause I know I'll never breathe your love again..."

tgh tgk tiga abdul, smbl lyn kings of chaos. attack!!! dgn riak dan bongkak nye. padahal ade projek xsiap nih =P warghh spoil la tiga abdul tgh scene cintan *blthhrr!* tido kt kandang kuda. ekeke. movie dolu², nk dijadikn cite. kandang kuda pon jd!!! *ihiks!* menyerang sat. hah! duit 834K!!! how's that! =D bleh beli blackpowder missile lg sebjk. muahahahaha >:D

1,184,920 gold!!!! warghhhkakakakaka =D >:D =P~ beta suka! cukup², jgn tamak haloba. upgrade situ sket, sini sket. turn pon dh abih huhuhu. adeh letih! =P chief khadam!

ermm no story mory the morning glory. sbb duk umah lg, xbuat pape. membuta, tgk tv, mkn, lyn solitaire, mkn lg, tgk tv lg, tebungkang lg. i hv exam dis friday, 3d animation & modelling. jgn xcaye!! sronot blaja, tp bile nk buat sendri tuh mls sket. leceh! tuh yg projek xsesiap lg nih. idea kering! xtau nk buat psl ape. buat crazy frog pon best kn. tp xde ke-original-an la plak kn. biasa pepg buta nih la byk idea, nih dh nmpk byg bantal ngan katil jek dh. hehek!

orait ah. nk surf internet, kot ade pape yg bleh mendtgkn idea² bernas disaat² kritikal nih. wa mmg suke jek buat keje last² minit nih. alaa Numb3rs la plak main la ni. pakwe ensem blakon dol! biasa blakon citer bodo² jek, skali dlm nih jd mat genius! lyn tv la dulu ek tehee... *wink wink*

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I'm being haunted by a whisper
A chill comes over me
I've been trapped inside this moment
I'm not a victim, I'm not a freak

Free me
before I slip away
Heal me
wake me from this day
Can somebody help me?

I've seen the face of my affliction
of my reality
I'm being tortured by the future
of things that are yet to be
I'm being haunted by a vision
it's like the morning never comes
I feel the burden of confusion
always searching... on the run

Free me
before I slip away
Heal me
wake me from this day
Can somebody help me?

Now, I'm not a hero... no
but the weight of the world's
is on my soul
these imagines burn my eyes
they're burning me up inside

Free me
before I slip away
Heal me
wake me from this day
Can somebody help me?

God put a smile upon your face

wahh sminggu dh lps syawal. raya ke8 dh arinih (it's actually 2.22 in the morning) just woke up after dozing for half an hour kot. mule wa tgk csi, pastu csi buat autopsi kt wa muekekeke =P okla readers² skalian (korg xde keje lain ke dr mbaca blog org nih ;-)) kita stat citer dr raya ke4.

abg is officially engaged!!! akhirnya! i'm not okayyyyyyy.. u wear me out!! *iklan sket, wa tgh lyn mcr live on bbc - ulangan la tp*. ha abg kaeh btunang dh! suke dia. bkn slalu btunang ye bang ye =)) ari ahad tuh bgn punye la pg. wa ngan k.ngah lyn enset, tdo kul3.30pg. ha amik! kene bgn kul5.30. rase mual, nk muntah, nk pensan, yg penting NGATOKSS la! pdn muke! siap punye siap, kami be2 gak yg last skali trun. mekap dol! muahahaha =D

around 7 - 7.30am gerak dr raub. kotnye la, xmandang jam pon. benti kt hajrah bentong, pekena roti canai skeping. abg xmkn! minum jek. hek hek! oh ye, dr raub 6keta. pot pet siap mkn sume, gerak benti kt hentian gombak. joined by pakteh sekuarge (6keta n counting). nk dijd kan citer la kn, keta abg buat hal. kire gempar n gempak gak aa skejap. sian abg (ni blog wa ke blog abg, penuh ngan 'abg' jek dh). tinggal la keta kesygn kt kl. dia naik ngan along. isi² keta dia dibahagi la kt keta² lain - tolak 1 keta.

woohoo!!! when i feel heavy metal!! woohoo!! *eklan lg! mcr buat cover blur - song 2 live! woohoo!!* kami pon bransur la peplahan. plahan?! cannot la, wa dh biasa bwk sensorg kn. kalo xpusing 3kali meter tuh xsah. abah kata gerak jek la memsg janji sampai tol alor gajah kump. wa ape lg, dgn bangganya zoommmm!! 8-O kt tol sg. besi, k.linah n husband plak join (tmbh blk 1 keta). ha abg (lg!) btunang jek 7keta, agak² kawen nnt sewa bas keat kita ekekekekekekekeke (slmt ari raya =P~)

kt hentian senawang, abah potong! laju woooooo! bkn sng nk tgk abah bwk laju. wa benti kt situ, k.ngah kene bwk keta. si anis nk ke mummy nye plak. xpela, wa dpt le bwk truna² idaman mlaya. dh benti kt tol a.gajah, naik lg epit plak. nye bantai la buat xsmenggah 1keta tuh, rasa cam "korg trun jln kaki!". seb baik le adik², biol wa duk seketa ngan dorg 8-P~ belok nye belok nye signal nye brek, around noon sampai destinasi yg dituju.

bwk tepak nih, ingatkn ade la yg nk menyambut. disuruh nye kita letak sendiri *tsk tsk* tuh thn lg la. nih dh duk mule majlis nih, dibhn nye la pot pet pot pet kuar nujum pak blalang la (adoiiiii! lapa tuhhhhh!!!) abg kira besyukur le xde kt atas. pastuh kt krusi tmpt sarung cincin, bleh plak ade LIPAS!!! wargh!!! geligeligeligeligeligeligeligeligeligeligeligeligeli yuck! harkk tuihh! pesal la kuar sensiang buta, kuar aa blah mlm, wa dh blk =P

dipendekkan citer, btunang le mamat ngan minah nih. kami bwk dulang 7, dibls 12 ke 14. ntah le xkira. byk mknan jek, suke la! kueh raya, kek, kek lg, buah²an, baulu beso kecik, bunga telur, bunga rampai, sireh, baju songkok abg, ade lg ke? kire slmt la. alhamdulillah...

blk dh dkt asar, singgah kt hentian seremban. GILE BAGAK RAMEI ORG!!! sume nk keje senin nye kan. dlm keta wa ade ajib, pade, kodek, epit *name memsg gangster kg dusun!*. bebdk nih biadapZz sungguh la! kejung pipi wa gelak =)) bkn slalu wa nk mrasa ramai adik. laki plak tuh, rasa nk ditampar sensorg =P bile blk tuh memsg jek dh la. k.long k.ngah blk kl, aide dr mlk lg dh blah xikut kl. wa benti kt projet gombak, abg amik pade. wa pecut dr tol gmbk pi bentong 15min (rekod baru wa) dgn ujan nye, mlm nye, ramai keta nye. y? sbb wa ingat abg dh tinggalkn kami *tsk tsk*

akhir citer, bentong - raub xbleh nk lelaju, potong². lane ke kl jammed! penuh! tetiba jln yg gelap jd terang - spt diberkati bak kata k.ngah. sampai umah dkt 10pm. abg nk tgk smallville skali kuar kalho na hoo. kuang kuang kuang! wa gelak guling² =D sok nye wa sakit kpala, sampai le la nih 4 ari kendian bedenyut lg. sungguh wa nangis, gile skt! *:-( tp raya kali nih yg plg best la smenjak dh besar² nih. pe lg dpt 2gether² reramai, walo pun utk 1mlm jek. mintak² masih ade raya thn dpn, n makin meriah hendaknye =)) slmt ari raya n maaf zahir & batin kt sume²... :'-)

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Wooooo Hooooooo!

I got my head checked
By a jumbo jet
It wasn't easy
but nothing is... no

When I feel heavy metal
And I'm pins and I'm needles
Well, I lie and I'm easy
All the time but I am never sure why I need you
Pleased to meet you

I got my head done
When I was young
It's not my problem
It's not my problem

When I feel heavy metal
And I'm pins and I'm needles
Well, I lie and I'm easy
All the time but I am never sure why I need you
Pleased to meet you

Oh Yeah

Come, angel of unknown

1st day of raya. lps berslman di pg raya, mintak ampun maap, nangis skit² (kene jaga bedak dol!) blk karak. pe best? dpt duit raya!!!! muahahaha sronot bangka² dpt duit raya lg. ade la 90hengget gak, tuh kira byk gile dh utk kaum² yg patut xde peruntukan dh nih =P
sampai around noon trus pi umah wan dulu (lewat sbb mohd² skalian pi masjid dulu, along naik ke bkt dulu). mende yg dituju, lemang! lembut, xmcm lemang biasa beli. tesandar le skali pulun. mmg xsentuh mende lain dh, xde ruang ehehe =D

dh dkt asar nk ke bentong sbenanye, tp dlm pd nk cpt nih td singgah plak dulu umah makteh. mmg kejap jek la tp. org² tua² sempat le ngumpat sket² pastuh blah le. sampai umah wan de kt bentong dlm kul5 kot. smayang.. mkn!!! 8-D nasik himpit plak, pedas! ratah rendang ayam, pergh! rase cam nk "wan, bungkus!". =P~ kata biadapZz plak kang kan.

6.30 blk umah, mak nk ngeja kedai spek. dkt kul7 sampai, dlm ati ade skit sedih. y? terlps diary of: my chemical romance!!!! huwaaaaaaaaaa!!! :'( xpe la raye nye psl kan. janji duit raya ade beb! bleh beli cd! yes! s.o.a.d nk kuar baru lg! tower record, nnt kan kemunculan ku! =))

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Stay out of the light
Or the photographs that I gave you
You can say a prayer if you need to
Or just get in line and I’ll grieve you

Can I meet you, alone
Another night and I’ll see you
Another night and I’ll be you
Some other way to continue
To hide my face

Another knife in my hands
A stain that never comes off the sheets
Clean me offI'm so dirty, babe
The kind of dirty
Where the water never cleans off the clothes
I keep a book of the names and those

Only go so far to bury them
So deep and down we go

Touched by angels though
I fall out of grace
I did it all so maybe
I’d live this everyday

Another knife in my hands
A stain that never comes off the sheets
Clean me offI’m so dirty, babe
It ain't the money
And it sure as hell ain't just for the fame
It’s for the bodies I claim and those

Only go so far to bury them
So deep and down we go

Down
And down we go
And we all fall down

And we'll all dance along to the tune of your death
We’ll love again, we'll laugh again
And it's better off this way

And never again, and never again
They gave us two shots to the back of the head
And we're all dead now

I tried, one more night, one more night
Well I’m laughing', crying', laughing'I tried, well I tried, well I tried
Cause I tried, but I lied
I tried

And we'll love again and we'll laugh again
We’ll try again and we'll dance again
And it's better off this way
So much better off this way
I can't clean the blood off the sheets in my bed

Never again, and never again
They gave us two shots to the back of the head
And we're all dead now

This shoulder

ole! ole! ole! yippaa! tetiba mainstage psg ricky martin daa. zmn mude² ensem la, skang nih dh tua xminat dh. lagu pon xbest. arini xde citer sbenanye. duk umah xde buat pe pon, kemas umah pon xsampai 15% siap! raye oiii!!! *tsk tsk*

tv pon bosan pepg buta nih. "un, dos, tres.. un pasito pa'lante maria! un, dos, tres.. un pasito pa'atras..." wargh!!! senor enrique martino here got me distracted la! ekeke =D anywayZz, raya dh dkt ngat dh. so nk le ngucap slmt ari raya kt sesape yg stumble upon my luvly-humble-full-of-craps blog nih.

orait, out of idea. i'll leave today's post wif a piece of my mind, sorta...

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Thanks for all you've done
I've missed you for so long
I can't believe you're gone and
You still live in meI feel you in the wind
You guide me constantly

I never knew what it was to be alone....no
'Cause you were always there for me
You were always home waiting

But now I come home
And I miss your face so
Smiling down on me
I close my eyes to see

And I know
You're a part of me
And its your song
That sets me free
I sing it while
I feel I can't hold on
I sing tonight
'Cause it comforts me

I carry the things that remind me of you
In loving memory of the one that was so true
You were as kind as you could be
And even though you're gone
You still mean the world to me

I never knew what it was to be alone....no
'Cause you were always there for me
You were always home waiting

But now I come home
And its not the same no
It feels empty and alone
I can't believe you're gone

And I know
You're a part of me
And it's your song
That sets me free
I sing it while
I feel I can't hold on
I sing tonight
'Cause it comforts me

I'm glad He set you free from sorrow
But I'll still love you more tomorrow
And you'll be here
With me still

All you did you did with feeling
And you always found a meaning
And you always will
And you always will
And you always will

And I know
You're a part of me
And it's your song
That sets me freeI sing it while
I feel I can't hold on
I sing tonight
'Cause it comforts me

Somewhere only we know

yep!! i'm here, somewhere only 'we' know... home! ajib's home too!! haven't seen him for like - a month? 2months? rindu dol! ngantuk xtdo 1mlm pon bleh ilang bile tgk dia blk =) gile sronot. la nih dia dh tebungkang! mak abah pon same. mane x, kul 2pg dr raub ke muazam pi jmpt mohd seko tuh! xnk le dilepaskan naik bas ke.

wa gak yg xtdo². ngantuks bangat xhengat nih! mtv kuar lagu sesedap, xbleh tdo. tunggu peberet band nye lagu. arini jek dh 3kali tgk. muahahahaha puas ati! =D anybody seen madonna's new vid? pergh!! tuh jek yg mampu kuar. teknologi makin canggih nih kan.

ape lg nk ngomel kt sini? haa tomorrow's to-do list: kemas umah!!!!!!!!! at last! i'm in raya mood. nk buat kueh lg, kueh siput kueh wajib. kalo xde xsah raya. kalo rajin nk buat almond london. kalo buat kueh slain kueh siput, mak xtolong *tsk tsk* xlarat dia ah! langsir xabih jahit lg.

abg blk sok! yeah! bleh suh beli cheezy wedges 8P~ along dh dedkt raye baru blk kot. pastuh nnt insyaAllah kaklong n kroni blk!! yesss! nih lg sorg lame xjumpe. mau banjir raub kejap =P agak² meriah n mnarik la kot raya kali nih. why? teng teng teng... kita kembali slps siaran penaja *wink*

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I walked across an empty land
I knew the pathway like the back of my hand
I felt the earth beneath my feet
Sat by the river and it made me complete

Oh simple thing where have you gone
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin

I came across a fallen tree
I felt the branches of it looking at me
Is this the place we used to love?
Is this the place that I've been dreaming of?

Oh simple thing where have you gone
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin
So if you have a minute why don't we go
Talk about it
somewhere only we know?
This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go
Somewhere only we know?
Somewhere only we know?

The unnamed feeling

"I got a heart full of pain, head full of stress, handfull of anger - held in my chest!"

that's exactly how i feel tonite. donno y. women, sumtimes we do confused wif our own feelings n thoughts =) apokobondo ekau merapek nih jang!? sbena nye xde citer pon arini, sbb xbuat pape pon arini. duk umah mlepek jek. surf² internet. chatting² ngan kengkwn. godek² komputer nih, which is now so full wif craps n GERARD WAY'S PICs - cute! *drools* =P~
anywayz bosan² nih nk gak le menconteng kt dlm blog nih. so here's a pic of jeng jeng jeng - lord of sexiness, cuteness n ensem-ness (for now n for me la kan)...

and of course, my so-called "unnamed feeling" confession...

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something has been taken
from deep inside of me
a secret i've kept locked away
no one can ever see
wounds so deep they never show they never go away
like moving pictures in my head
for years and years they've played

if i could change i would
take back the pain i would
retrace every wrong move that i made i would
if i could stand up and take the blame i would
if i could take all the shame to the grave i would

its easier to run
replacing this pain with something numb
its so much easier to go
than face all this pain here all alone

sometimes i remember
the darkness of my past
bringing back these memories
i wish i didn't have
sometimes i think of letting go
and never looking back
and never moving forward
so there would never be a past

its easier to run
replacing this pain with something numb
its so much easier to go
than face all this pain here all alone

just washing it aside
all of the helplessness inside
pretending i don't feel so misplaced
is so much simpler than change

its easier to run
replacing this pain with something numb
its so much easier to go
than face all this pain here all alone

p/s: anyone kind enuf, n want to blanje me tgk wyg? corpse bride ke, excorcism of emily rose ke, harry potter n the goblet of fire ke? ;-)

For whom the bell tolls

arini ari yg best gak la. kul 4.30pg punye le semangat bgn shr. mkn koko krunch je la tp. dh setgh ari dh pose nih. tiba² "dia" kata pose arini kensel! cam nyesal pon ade. tp sronot wooo dpt minum air sejuk. pe lg tetgh pns cam td. muahahahaha >:D

oo ye, ari nih satu ari pi bejln. memula pi jln tar - masjid india, tah hape le name tmpt nye. naik lrt!! caye x caya. dh le tgh ari pns bedengit! cair mekap uhuks! beli tudung raye le konon. tudung itam selai (wajib) pastu tudung pdn ngan baju raye 1. bkn baju raye le pon, baju baru xpenah pakai. buat jd baju raye le sbb abg xnk sponsor 1 baju raye kan =P pink-ish peach! smenjak 2menjak nih kaler makin pelik² ;-)

pastuh msk globe plak. xpenah hayat tau wujudnya mende alah tuh kt situh. kwn pi tuka suar ank sdare dia. pastu msk nagoya plak (dh jd pompuan skang!) ronda² round². kt sbelah ade kamdar plak, msk la jugak. beli pengikat langsir pon. nk raye ni kn, pe lg abg nk tunang. mak smangat buat langsir baru. merah maroon! wa suke! siang kalo xdi selak langsir tuh gelap jek umah. sdp tdo dpn tv.. hrrrrr!!!

samb. plak citer. oleh karena xpose nih td kan, dh blk shopping sampai nk pensan nih td, beli la air botol. seb baik le dedua xpose. oops! tehee =D pakcik kedai tuh pon siap suh sorok lg, kot takut segan kan. silap org le pakcik! kuang kuang kuang! pi giant plak nih, giant ulu klang tmpt peberet dolu² zmn freshie (bebaru duk kl nye citer la). SALEEEEEEEEE!!!!!! skang dh phm dh ngape pompuan ade 9 nafsu!!! muahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha pompuan rupe nye wa nih, seb baik le berperasaan akhir nye. beli tank top 3lai, pakai dlm sweater la tp. ngan ehem.. spentot! pon nk citer gak ke? xrelevan! suka ati la kan. blog free. nk citer baper lai, kaler ape pon xpe. ha jwpn nye, 5lai ngan kaler². ekekekeke *wink wink*

dh siap, beli kueh sket. mkn dlm keta. pastuh brangan nk buke ktne (cam pose la). pi carrefour, 2nd peberet lepak spot. parking free sape xsuke, duk le sampai lebam pon kt situ. xde nye kena saman de. beli le ayamas, nk mrasa. rege pon standard kfc jek. tp take away! pi lpk ttwangsa, mnahan! ingat kn kitorg jek, rupe ramai yg lpk situh. mkn dlm keta. burppp jek dh ngantok, smpt lg ngumpat², mengimbau kesah² silam. akhir nye dh bosan blah le.

oiii pnjg! kalo le esei spm ari tuh pnjg camni, musti bm dpt 1 instead of 4! =P haa ni dh memlm nih biasa le. ape lg bln cantekkk ngambang. emo la sket kn. rindu²an, kt sume org la. yg ade lg, yg dh xde. emmm pd yg ade lg tuh, ingat² le kt wa. sbb wa slalu ingat kt korg. benci ke, nyampah ke, bosan ke, sedih ke, suke ke, musti ingat =)) utk yg dh xde, al fatihah... sampai masa kita jumpe insyaAllah...

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I miss you, miss you so bad
I don't forget you, oh it's so sad
I hope you can hear me
I remember it clearly

The day you slipped away
Was the day I found
It won't be the same, oh

I didn't get around to kiss you goodbye on the hand
I wish that I could see you again
I know that I can't

I hope you can hear me
I remember it clearly

The day you slipped away
Was the day I found
It won't be the same, ooh

I have had my wake up
Won't you wake up
I keep asking why
I can't take it
It wasn't fake
It happened you passed by

Now your gone
There you go
Somewere I can't bring you back
Now your're gone
There you go
Somewere your not coming back

The day you slipped away
Was the day I found
It won't be the same
No
The day you slipped away
Was the day I found
It won't be the same, oh

I miss you

A trip down memory lane

Warghhh!!! 1 lg paper siap! tp by the end of dis week, lect. wa akan call whoever fail THAT paper.. huwaaaaaaa... (me.. one of them!!) hope not! but still... :(( gile bagak payah rase cam nk nangis kuar air mata batu. darah xbleh, batal pose =P~ sok xde klas (yey!) bleh membungkang sampai matahari tebenam smula. tp nk pi kedai la, beli pengikat langsir (nk raye le kata ke). yg tali ke yg sepit best? ikut bajet sbena nye. yg mane murah yg tuh le beli. pastu bleh usha tudung skali ye x, baju raye wa kaler pink/peach!! muahahaha impossible!!! 8-O dh jd 8 keajaiban dunia dh ni!! ihihihi ;) tp kalo tudung itam pon pdn jek dh, tanah kain dia kaler itam. kot sume pink kang, bak kata xlect. wa "tembok begerak". sameeeee jek kaler dr atas sampai bwh. penah dh tgk, mmg sunggoh la pon tembok! aa sudah ngumpat plak. cukup². beblk pd tajuk asal yg nun kt atas nun. smlm saje le tgk album, gamba lama l tp. wa xde le gamba baru², xsuke. nnt le raya ni kalo rajin amik gamba baru. nih le gamba² yg menarik perhatian...

abah ngan mak zaman mude² dolu

braye umah tok wongso! amboi tok umah, bedak xmnahan! emm... :'

tgk le mohd 2 eko nih. muke baik, khusyuk, tawakal dan tawaduk! besa jek sket, wa yg dipangku tuh le jd bhn buli

one word... muakakakakakaKAkakakakaka (still...) akakakakakakakakakakakakakakaka >:D rambut memsg tgk le, kihik!! pesal wa xde dlm gamba nih ek.. teheee =D

The ghost of you

Arini ujan jek manjang. nk jemur baju pon segan² silu jek. klas kul12 xpi, mls!! :P pi bebuke ngan member. ngumpat², ngata². sempat shopping choki² kt carrefour, smata². nih dh tetgh mlm, masih gak ujan. pastuh tetiba tringat le plak kt arwah atuk. sob sob srehhh!! :'( mmg slalu jek tringat, tp mlm nih tah pehal lain sket. bln pose nye psl la kot. xpon nk ehem² ke, pompuan kn. warghh tisu.. tisu!! kalo blk raub, musti lalu ikut spital. bleh lalu dpn tmn kemajuan, lalu dpn umah dia. diam xdiam, 3thn dh. adoi! sentimental la plak. dh le, basah plak keyboard nih. al-fatihah utk atuk umah. miss her so much...

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I never said I’d lie in wait forever
If I died, we'd be together now
I can’t always just forget her
But she could try

At the end of the world
Or the last thing I see
You are never coming home
Never coming home
Could I, should I
And all the things that you never ever told me
And all the smiles that are ever, ever, ever

Get the feeling that you’re never
All alone and I remember now
At the top of my lungs, in my arms she dies
She dies

At the end of the world
Or the last thing I see
You are never coming home
Never coming home
Could I, should I
And all the things that you never ever told me
And all the smiles that are ever gonna haunt me
Never coming home
Never coming home
Could I, should I
And all the wounds that are ever gonna scar me
For all the ghosts that are never gonna catch me

If I fallIf I fall (down)

At the end of the world
Or the last thing I see
You are never coming home
Never coming home
Never coming home
Never coming home

And all the things that you never ever told me
And all the smiles that are ever gonna haunt me
Never coming home
Never coming home
Could I, should I
And all the wounds that are ever gonna scar me
For all the ghosts that are never gonna

Bem! Bem!

warghhh!! 1 down 5 more to go! siap paper cyberlaw.. pasni bleh jadik judge dread! muahahahaha >:D di ari2 ujan sebegini, ingin ku tujukan 1 lagu kpd sesape yg teringin nk ditujukan lagu...

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Ding ding, do bam baram bom baram bom babam bom...
What's going on? (ON?)
Ding ding
Let's do the Crazy Frog!
Ding ding
Bem bem

Ring ring ring ding ding ding
Ring ding ding ding bem bem bem
Ring ring ring ding ding ding
Ring ding ding ding bo bo

Ring ring ring ding ding ding
Ring ding ding ding bem bem bem
Ring ring ring ding ding ding
Let's do the Crazy Frog! (Break down!)

Ding ding
C-c-razy-cra-crazy
Bem bem
Let's do the Crazy Frog!

Ra ba bra bram ba brrrram brramaba brrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!

What's going on?
Ding ding
Let's do the Crazy Frog!

Ding ding
Do do!

Ring ring ring ding ding ding
Ring ding ding ding bem bem bem
Ring ring ring ding ding ding
Ring ding ding ding bo bo

Ring ring ring ding ding ding
Ring ding ding ding bem bem bem
Ring ring ring ding ding ding
Let's do the Crazy Frog!

Ding ding
C-c-razy-cra-crazy
Bem bem
Let's do the Crazy Frog!

Bem bem