The unnamed feeling

"I got a heart full of pain, head full of stress, handfull of anger - held in my chest!"

that's exactly how i feel tonite. donno y. women, sumtimes we do confused wif our own feelings n thoughts =) apokobondo ekau merapek nih jang!? sbena nye xde citer pon arini, sbb xbuat pape pon arini. duk umah mlepek jek. surf² internet. chatting² ngan kengkwn. godek² komputer nih, which is now so full wif craps n GERARD WAY'S PICs - cute! *drools* =P~
anywayz bosan² nih nk gak le menconteng kt dlm blog nih. so here's a pic of jeng jeng jeng - lord of sexiness, cuteness n ensem-ness (for now n for me la kan)...

and of course, my so-called "unnamed feeling" confession...

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something has been taken
from deep inside of me
a secret i've kept locked away
no one can ever see
wounds so deep they never show they never go away
like moving pictures in my head
for years and years they've played

if i could change i would
take back the pain i would
retrace every wrong move that i made i would
if i could stand up and take the blame i would
if i could take all the shame to the grave i would

its easier to run
replacing this pain with something numb
its so much easier to go
than face all this pain here all alone

sometimes i remember
the darkness of my past
bringing back these memories
i wish i didn't have
sometimes i think of letting go
and never looking back
and never moving forward
so there would never be a past

its easier to run
replacing this pain with something numb
its so much easier to go
than face all this pain here all alone

just washing it aside
all of the helplessness inside
pretending i don't feel so misplaced
is so much simpler than change

its easier to run
replacing this pain with something numb
its so much easier to go
than face all this pain here all alone

p/s: anyone kind enuf, n want to blanje me tgk wyg? corpse bride ke, excorcism of emily rose ke, harry potter n the goblet of fire ke? ;-)