My sisters and my brothers, still, I will not kiss you

epi besday kaklong! tp walau bagaimana pon, dec 25 tetap dibubarkn *miahamuahaha*

ahad ptg kakngah n jon jmpt wa ngan epit blk ktn. makde bleh lg memesan benih pokok la, pasu la. semput la jugak cik keli kakngah. tu pon xjd bwk pasu lagi. pastu nk singgah t'loh jmpt anis ngan adam lg *pehh* bleh kata kalo keli tu ade mulut, nye meraung la jugak *kuakuakua*

wa amik crash course jd ibu tunggul :D alhamdulillah la, slmt sehat walafiat anak² skalian. adam baik, senyap cam ibu dia *ehem* tu ye tumpah kuah wa. sket pon xde kene mengene ngan mummy ngan umi dia yg havoc >:) anis pon, dpt nye baik. baik la sgt. "anis malu ngan abg jon..." - ngan muke² skali. gediks! *tumpah dr mummy* =P pastu dpt nye jayaaattt, astaga! nk jugak nye melompat + berdiri atas kita cam kita dukung adam. dia hengat dia ringan²?!! kire bersyukur la dgn keadaan wa yg membesar bagai juara ni *muakakakaka*

td gerak dr ktn dlm 8.30pm. 2 keta, cik keli dara ngan cik keli teruna. ikut jln lama yg sungguh la adventurous nye sbb anta ank² pulang ke pangkuan mama bon. xpuas sbenarnye. dpt tido semlm jek. ajakan utk beraye aji beramai² tu mmg tempting. tapiii...

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something has been taken
from deep inside of me
a secret i've kept locked away
no one can ever see
wounds so deep they never show they never go away
like moving pictures in my head
for years and years they've played

its easier to run
replacing this pain with something numb
its so much easier to go
than face all this pain here all alone

if i could change i would
take back the pain i would
retrace every wrong move that i made i would
if i could
stand up and take the blame i would
if i could take all the shame to the grave i would

its easier to run
replacing this pain with something numb
its so much easier to gothan face all this pain here all alone

sometimes i remember
the darkness of my past bringing back these memories i wish i didn't have
sometimes i think of letting go
and never looking back
and never moving forward so there would never be a past

just washing it aside
all of the helplessness inside
pretending i don't feel so misplaced
is so much simpler than change

I'm the lie living for you so you can hide

semlm pi mlk ngan mimi. buat projek underground. bpk dia xtau kami pi *miahamuahaha* wa kasitau abah pon masa bgn pg nk pi kul 6.30am =P nasibbbb la plak dia 'hemm' kan jek. pastu dh la ujan xbenti² kn. mmg nasibbbb la jugak jln² yg kami lalu tu xbanjir. ade la 1 jln tu, longkang tersumbat. jln tgh bandar mane ade sg. cuak la kejap. tu la mimi, ni kes daulat sbb durhaka kt ibu bapa. kuangkuangkuang! next time kita buat lg...

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Over the sea and far away
She's waiting like an iceberg
Waiting to change
But she's cold inside
She wants to be like the water

All the muscles tighten in her face
Buries her soul in one embrace
They're one and the same
Just like water

The fire fades away
Most of every day
Is full of tired excuses
But it's too hard to say
I wish it were simple
But we give up easily
You're close enough to see that
You're the otherside of the world to me

On comes the panic light
Holding on with fingers and feelings alike
But the time has come
To move along

The fire fades away
Most of every day
Is full of tired excuses
But it's too hard to say
I wish it were simple
But we give up easily
You're close enough to see that
You're the otherside of the world

Can you help me?
Can you let me go?
And can you still love me
When you can't see me anymore?

The fire fades away
Most of every day
Is full of tired excuses
But it's too hard to say
I wish it were simple
But we give up easily
You're close enough to see that
You're the otherside of the world
The otherside of the world

You're the otherside of the world to me

A true friend stabs you in the front

ayayayayayayayayayayayayay.. ayayayayayaya.. yayaya.. mmmekkkkkk.. *shrieks* don't ask *geleng kpale*

thundercats, wa bleh lyn lg. not a big fan, but I grew up with "thunder.. thunder.. thunder.. THUNDERCATS!". beautiful cheetara *dreamy eyes* TAPIIII power rangers?!! isk isk. sbb haikal nk tgk, wa TERPAKSA tgk skali! cis cis dan cis lg.

along sefamili blk, sampai jumaat ptg. 18 & 19 kaklong ade kursus di kolumpo. so nk tinggal kn haikal ngan danial ngan wan bukit nye.

ingat minggu ni nk pi ktn. tp, ajib je pi ngan kodek ngan fadhil. jemput dek kakngah n jon. *jerit cam anis* ANISSSSSS, NEXT TIME IBU DTG YEEEEEEEE!!! makde, tehee *main jari* jgn laaaa sumpah nani :D i lebiu makde...

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Holding hands
Skipping like a stone
On our way
To see what we have done
The first to speak
Is the first to lie
The children cross
Their hearts & hope to die

Bite your tongue
Swear to keep your mouth shut

Ask yourself
Will i burn in Hell?
Then write it down & cast it in the well
There they are
The mob it cries for blood
To twist the tale
Into fire wood
Fan the flames
With a little lie
Then turn your cheek
Until the fire dies
The skin it peels
Like the truth, away
What it was I will never tell...

Bite your tongue, swear to keep
Keep your mouth shut
Make up something
Make up something good...
Holding hands
Skipping like a stone
Burn the witch
Burn to ash & bone

Yuck Fou

dlm erti kata lain - "slmt mlm". wa menci sama frenster *huh*

siang td pi jengka. saja gatal. mimi ajak ikut pi anta mak dia. dr citer mimi, wa membayangkn perjalanan kami riuh la. kot dia potpet² ngan mak dia ke kan. skali? sunyi sampai bleh dgr bunyi myk keta begoncang dlm tangki. logik? xde mende yg logik dh di kepagian yg buta ni =P pasang plak pahang.fm spanjang jln *astaga*

"Lemak lah manis,
Alah amboi lah amboi,
Santan kelapa.
Alah amboi lah amboi,
Kupandang lah manis,
Alah amboi lah amboi,
Anak siapa"

ank aji saha, umah tepi slekoh maut, dpn surau *kuangkuangkuang* kalo obses terhadap diri sendiri, suke! nih kuah kaklong ngan kakngah la tumpah ke wa...

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Some say, now suffer all the children
And walk away a savior,
Or a madman and polluted
From gutter institutions.
Don't you breathe for me,
Undeserving of your sympathy,
Cause there ain't no way that I'm sorry for what I did.

And through it all
How could you cry for me?
Cause I don't feel bad about it.
So shut your eyes,
Kiss me goodbye,
And sleep.Just sleep.

The hardest part is letting go of
Your dreams.

A drink for the horror that I'm in,
For the good guys, and the bad guys,
For the monsters that I've been.
Three cheers for tyranny,
Unapologetic apathy,
Cause there ain't no way that I'm coming back again.

And through it all
How could you cry for me?
Cause I don't feel bad about it.
So shut your eyes,
Kiss me goodbye,
And sleep.
Just sleep.

The hardest parts
The awful things that I've seen.

Just sleep.

Wake up!

Laws are made to be broken

mak kata wa garang *erk* garang?!

ajib blk *yay* tamat la sudah riwayat kesan degil. tamat la sudah zaman persekolahan dia. semlm subuh² gerak pi amik dia kt muazam. isk! excited btul mak abah nih =P *wa jugak yg jd mangsa keadaan* dh salam² meninggalkn skolah tecinta, gerak pi ktn. abah renew lesen tahapekejadah.

lunch kt centre point. pastu sempat pi TC. waa sudah tukar ka? xbleh parking dpn laut? pastu parking dh kene byr? tgh ari panas bedengit tu ade yg mandi. kalo x bertuka kaler tuh, xtau la wa. dlm 2.30pm gitu singgah umah aide *surprise*

bonda nk melawat dan mengetahui citer sbenar ttg keadaan adinda tercenta =P deme bertiga branak je ade nye. ame nye pekat le kupi makde buat! saket kpale nani makde!!! *tsk tsk tsk*

4pm blah. singgah r&r t'loh. mlm sampai umah. lame xmenjerit² ngan ajib :D ajibbb!! masak megi utk kakde...

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Pray for blood
Pray for the cleansing
Pray for the flood
Pray for end of this nightmare
This lie of a life can as quickly as it came dissolve

We seek only reprieve
And welcome the darkness
The myth of a meaning, so lost and forgotten

Take hold of my hand
For you are no longer alone
Walk with me in hell

Pray for solace
Pray for resolve
Pray for a savior
Pray for deliverance
Some kind of purpose, a glimpse of a light in this void of existence

Oh...
Now witness the end of an age
Hope dies in hands of believers
Who seek the truth in the liar's eyes

Take hold of my hand
For you are no longer alone
Walk with me in hell

Walk with me in hell

Take hold of my hand
For you are no longer alone

Walk with me in hell

You're never alone
Walk with me in hell

Another contusion

duhai makannnnn... pd sape yg tau, tau la. xtau, buat² tau :D

cis, cis dan cis lg?! kakngah mc! *isk* kata teman seperchattan. awal wa online arini tau!!! wa menci. kesihatan terganggu. kene cocok kt montot. dh tecemar *miahamuahaha* seb baik doktor pompuan. doktor ni pon, prono! *tehee*

abih wa nk buat pe nih? lyn kak ct? kak ct lg senyap pd wa *i've met my match!* camne? ahaha slmt raye aji kak ct. jgn marah², nnt ank kenan wa - susah! =P lyn kaklong? kacau jiwa wa *kerkerkera* ahh well, chobits starts in few...

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Yeah, I got this thinkin' in my head
Yeah, you wanna say the things not said

Whats the reason?

Don't really care if you leave
Just wanna see you beaten
Don't really care if you grieve
Don't really need a reason

Hey, goodbye
I wish you stayed here
I wish you were here

Yeah, I got this feelin' in my veins
Yeah, a helpless feeling mixed with pain

What's the meaning?

I just can't believe
that you're not really with me
I just can't believe
I wonder if you'll miss me

Hey, goodbye
I wish you stayed here
I wish you were here

Tell me if it's so

cut my hair. yeah i did! which i'ma regret for the rest of the week *mourn* TOO short! well shorter than i'd imagine *sob sob srehh* :'( ooh mummy...

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turn away
if you could get me a drink
of water cause my lips are chapped and faded
call my aunt marie
help her gather all my things
and bury me in all my favorite colors
my sisters and my brothers still
i will not kiss you

cause the hardest part of this is leaving you

now turn away
cause i'm awful just to see
cause all my hair's abandoned all my body
oh my agony
know that i will never marry
baby, i'm just soggy from the chemo
but counting down the days to go
it just aint livin
and i just hope you know

that if you say goodbye today
i'd ask you to be true

cause the hardest part of this is leaving you
cause the hardest part of this is leaving you

And right now they're building a coffin your size

MOHD RINA! NK KENE BLASAH? NK TGK "ANTU"? XYAH TUNGGU PAMERAN ANTU DLM BALANG. NIH LIVE, NO BARRIER. BIASA ADE 1, KALI NI ADE 2. HUH!

deep breath, fuhhh! *calms down*

semlm lps subuh pi muazam. mak nk sgt jumpe ajib sblum dia start paper spm. bg air, kueh siput, itu ini, "buat bebaik", yada yada yada. lps zuhr, babai², gerak pi kemaman.

5.30pm sampai umah along. cucu skang dh masuk nusery. mula kata nk tido sana. tp atas sbb² tertentu, kami blk gak lps maghrib. dan wa xpatut kasi abah drive mlm *sakit kpalak wa duk tekejut manjang* apekn daya blakang wa kejung. benti kt r&r t'loh. amik angin, buang angin, pekena neskopi tin *kembali menjd teraju utama* sampai umah 12am. pehh! melepek dol!

arini, punye la smangat, org tu kata nk blk sini. "apakn daya, dh takdir". ade bau² durhaka? ahh! bak kata kakngah, wa peduli hape =P rase nk pi potong rambut la. tp gile lama tunggu panjang nih. sayang la plak...

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No time for goodbye he said
As he faded away
Don't put your life in someone's hands
Their bound to steal it away
Don't hide your mistakes
'Cause they'll find you, burn you
Then he said

If you want to get out alive
Run for your life
If you want to get out alive
Run for your life

This is my last time she said
As she faded away
It's hard to imagine
But one day you'll end up like me
Then she said

If you want to get out alive
Run for your life
If you want to get out alive
Run for your life
If you want to get out alive (If you want to get out alive)
Run for your life (Life)
If you want to get out alive (If you want to get out alive)
Run for your life

If I stay it won't be long
Till I'm burning on the inside
If I go I can only hope
That I make it to the other side
If you want to get out alive
Run for your life
If you want to get out alive
Hold on for

If you want to get out alive (If you want to get out alive)
Run for your life
If you want to get out alive (If you want to get out alive)
Hold on for

If I stay, it won't be long
Till I'm burning on the inside
If I go I can only hope
That I make it to the other side
If I stay, it won't be long
Till I'm burning on the inside
If I go, if I go

Burning on the inside!

And when you go don't return to me, my love

ari yg membosankn. punye la awal wa bgn. internet connection cam tutttt!! sampai ke tgh ari. disco jek manjang. siang² pon lyn disco =P wa menci btul. bile elok, ASIK LYN KAKNGAHHHHH JEK! :D ade bau² durhaka? "buku baru" dibuka dgn niat utk dipenuhkn kan *miahamuahaha* raye aji nnt wa mintak ampun lg ye kakngah ye >:)

pastu, tiba²! teng teng teng... wa rasa nk blk umah. wa pon blk. sempat bg brg kt member, tot tet tot tet ngumpat, 9pm wa blah. jamming dr pandan indah?! atuk dia cun la!! dh mlm oi! jamming lg?! tsk tsk. singgah mcd lg *wajib!* 11.30pm sampai sini. dkt smpg bkt fraser ade pak polisi tahan. dia bleh lama tenung wa cam dia xpenah tgk spesis wa. camne tu? wa siap tegur "ngape pakcik?!" baru dia kata jln *huh*

mak abah xtau wa nk blk. tehee seb baikkkk xkene marah. kalo x, masuk paper "sorg ank dipakse tido luar oleh kedua ibu bapa" geleng kpale...

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Mama we all go to hell
Mama we all go to hell
I'm writing this letter and wishing you well
Mama we all go to hell

Mama we're all gonna die
Mama we're all gonna die
Stop asking me questions, I'd hate to see you cry
Mama we're all gonna die

And when we go don't blame us
We let the fire just bathe us
You made us oh so famous
We’ll never let you go
And when you go don't return to me my love

Mama we're all full of lies
Mama we're meant for the flies
And right now they're building a coffin your size
Mama we're all full of lies

Well mother what the war did to my legs and to my tongue
You should have raised a baby girl
I should have been a better son
If you could coddle the infection, they can amputate at once
You should have been
I could have been a better son

And when we go don't blame us
We let this fire just bathe us
You made us oh so famous
We'll never let you go
She said "You ain't no son of mine"
For what you done they're gonna find
A place for you and just you mind your manners when you go

And when you go don't return to me my love
That's right

Mama we all go to hell
Mama we all go to hell
It’s really quite pleasant except for the smell
Mama we all go to hell

Mama, Mama, Mama

And if you would call me your sweetheart
I'd maybe then sing you a song
But there's shit that I've done with this fuck of a gun
You would cry out your eyes all night long

We’re damned after all
Through fortune and flame we fall
And if you can stay that I’ll show you the way
To return from the ashes you call

We all carry on
When our brothers in arms are gone
So raise your glass high for tomorrow we die
And return from the ashes you call

Lets end it on this

dh puas melepaskn kerinduan pd kg halaman, I'm back!! :D wa akhirnya telah pulang ke pangkal jln *tp bak kata kakngah, raya sebln. cuti la sebln!* =P masa utk ngadap final exam + submit asgmt + projek.

blk pg sbb nk pi open house kaklong. kakngah buat janji karam singh walia *wa majuk lg tau!* >:P kata nk tunggu wa kt mobil. wa menci. kaklong buat open house beramai² ngan kwn² dia, kt umah kak syidah. nasibbbb wa ingat jln ke umah tu. abg ngan kak ct pon ade.

letih dh mkn, pi jln² cari pasal ngan kakngah. midvalley! masuk speedy capai mcr's black parade *yeah yeah* pastu masuk sinma kakngah cari rantai. isk! cam pompuan! wa rase cam wa salah masuk kedai pon ade =P saje la plak jln tower records kan. MCR TU ADE LIMITED EDITION NYE!! tp rege rm200. cis cis dan cis lg. ade sape² nk blanje? *tehee* wa menci btul.

dlm 5pm jon jmpt kakngah. wa mls blk lg, pi mph. mlm ni menu dinner wa - plastik mph. fresh! *geleng kpale* ade benda lupe beli. jadah aram beads yg huruf² susun buat gelang/keychain etc. next time!

kaklong, jgn lupe mende wa ckp td siang. nk lekas setel, lekas la blk ye...

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Go!
To un-explain the unforgivable,
Drain all the blood and give the kids a show.
By streetlight, this dark night, a séance down below,
There's things that I have done,
You never should ever know

And without you is how I disappear,
And live my life alone forever now.
And without you is how I disappear,
And live my life alone forever now.

Who walks among the famous living dead,
Drowns all the boys and girls inside your bed.
And if you could talk to me, tell me if it's so,
That all the good girls go to heaven.
Well, heaven knows

That without you is how I disappear
And live my life alone forever now.
And without you is how I disappear
And live my life alone forever now.

Can you hear me cry out to you?
Words I thought I'd choke on, figure out.
I'm really not so with you anymore,
I'm just a ghost,
So I can't hurt you anymore,
So I can't hurt you anymore!

And now, you wanna see how far down I can sink?
Let me go, FUCK!

So, you can, well now so, you can
I'm so far away from you.
Well now so, you can.

And without you is how I disappear
And without you is how I disappear

(Woah ooo...)

And without you is how I disappear
And without you is how I disappear
Forever, forever now