Sunday, 29 April 2007

Love song for the dear departed

I miss them. my "dear departed".

pi 1utama ngan kakngah. xjumpe tower records. bleh gitu? ke pandangan kami dikaburi, saje xkasi nmpk tower records. I DESPERATELY need, at least, one new cd. necrophagist. korn. evanescence. decapitated. 36crazyfist. arctic monkeys. megadeth. lamb of god. all that remains. katatonia. moonspell. anyone? ;-)

"sori nani. xbleh ajak awk tido umah". atas sbb² keselamat. ngape 'keselamat'? tanye kakngah. heh. tido umah awk pon bkn ade ape best pon. astro xpasang². kalo x, bleh gak lyn anime ke. ni pepagi bute duk tgk org ngabih ke kredit main game kt channel 8.

ari cuti, tapi ramai org. bkn sume patut blk kg ke? eh, wa xblk kan? teng teng teng. bkn senang nk tgk wa berweekend di perantauan. org² di raub 2-3 kali call tanye blk x blk. wa, yg tergolong dlm golongan vip ni, mmg kalo skali xblk sume org jd xkeruan la. cewah! mu a a a =P

nanti siang, jln tar. ikut kakngah cari kain langsir. kakngah? langsir? rasa cam pompuan dol! akaka. ni blog wa ke blog kakngah. asik kuar "kakngah" je. hah lagi. skang kira bape byk "kakngah" wa tulis :D

Saturday, 28 April 2007

Can you see me fascinated?

went out for a midnight snack. tpm's McD's is MY spot! drive thru je tapi. pastu lepak r&r tol sgbesi tu. bleh? wa sendiri xpaham .scratches head. planned to go to midvalley. cancelled last minute. kot tiba² siang sok bleh bejln ngan kakngah ke kan.

I found a long lost friend. or rather, he found me. 7 years. sorry Jaleel, but I still don't remember you at all. I've reformatted my 'memory' quite a few times already. data lost. haha. anyway, we talk on IM since then. catching up on each others life. seems he's doing fine. thinking about it, I wonder what happened to the others. my penpals. yep back then I used to have few 'pals. I just love the idea of exchanging REAL mail rather than email. the excitement of waiting for the postman to come, reading each other handwriting. and "hey, I got this for you" - old stamps. and "been collecting these, hope you like it" - phone cards. or "here I was at..." - holiday pictures.

reminiscing again. love doing it, hate the feelings I get.

not sleepy yet. should finish up reading dean koontz's. 200+ pages more.

Thursday, 26 April 2007

Ding!

actually this is my first entry. the rest I transferred from my old blog, which I got bored of. welcome! if there were any of you taking your time (or rather wasting your time) reading this. that is, if you could understand what I was talking about.

if you were wondering why I used song names/lyrics for most of my posts title. well sometimes it is what or how I feel at the moment. sometimes it's just part of a song that I like. the content itself might be connected, or it might not. I write whatever pleases me. if I happened to offend anyone, then I'm sorry. freedom of speech. it's how life is. Cold. Hard. Truth.

do check out my myspace's and friendster's profile. not that I befriended Axl Rose nor did I have Clinton in my friendlist. add me, say hi. or just hit me in yahoo messenger: hanie_ss. I'm on skype too: demolition.lover216.

now, count how many IFs and ORs I used just to get to this point ;-)

anyhoo, do leave me a comment or diss me. or anything.

Wednesday, 11 April 2007

Seeing is believing

april sudaa?! *geleng kpale*

pesanan sblum membaca blog wa: jgn pandang blakang. mu a a a! kaklong ajak tgk wayang. wa pon terbekenan plak bile tgk iklan citer 'jgn pandang blakang' tu. so ikut la jugak. wa, kaklong, kakngah, kak ja, kak dira, carha. semangat je wa gerak 5pm tau sbb kata wayang start 8pm. siap jmpt kakngah kt umah dia. sampai² cineleisure kata 10pm! coih! kalo x, sempat lg wa tgk cardcaptor sakura ngan alice academy tau!

kaklong salah escalator. dia nk naik yg ngala turun. siap ade yg tunjuk, "naik sbelah sana kak". oi kak, lps ni kami xmau dh jln dgn akak ye. adik² malu dh *tsk tsk* smentara tu pi mkn kt mynews cafe. bkn mystorybook cafe ye kaklong ye =P dia ni kan, patut la kalo bagi tunjuk arah manjang nye kami ni sesat. dia sendiri xtentu name benda nye *geleng kpale* bejalan la kami dr cineleisure ke TESCO!!! 3 bangunan kemudian! gile ke gile. bak kata kakngah, siap mkn nk jln blk pi wayang dh lapar semule. camne? siap mkn diorg sempat lyn bowling 1 game. wa ngan kak ja jd penyeri majlis je *hee* abih game pon dh time masuk wayang.

wa mmg jenis, kalo tgk movie (wayang ke, tv ke) wa mmg tidak akan menunjukkan sebarang perasaan. buat la antu tu boo! tiba² ke, jerit ke. tp kalo lawak hak mmg splastik-surgery tu, mmg wa gelak guling². so kpd org sekeliling, jgn la risau ngape wa xberbunyi pon masa tgk wayang. lg satu, wa menci la cangat² lancung² kt makhluk² Allah yg suke berbunyi xkena tmpt. duk dlm panggung, jgn matikan bunyi enset je. mulut pon tolong la kasi zip. x concentrate dol! sampai rasa cam, korang ni tgk mr bean ke tgk citer antu?! pastu ade plak jenis, "dah abih dh?". "dh xde dh antu tu?". "btul xde dh muke antu tu kt skrin?". budus ke budus? dh takut tgk, buat pe masuk tgk. tuka tiket pi tgk citer industan ke kan. jgn memberi tekanan pd jiran seat sbelah menyebelah.

yg paling meninggalkan impak maksima, scene antu raya tu ikut pierre waktu dia bwk keta. dr tepi, atas, dlm keta, muncul dpn keta. ya tuhannnnn! apesal? sbb kami² ni biasa dh, tiba² rasa nk blk ke kg halaman masing², suke suki je blk. 12 tgh mlm pon, 12 tgh mlm la. peduli hape kami kan. tapi skang?!!! kene fikir 18 kali ciot. standard la jln tu, kiri kanan kubur kan. gelap, kosong je. skali skala ade la keta lain ke kan. kalo lalu tu, mmg buat dunno je. sbb xfikir pape pon. la ni dh tgk citer, musti la terbayang². tekanan la sungguh!

abih wayang 12am. pi agros plak. wa order nescafe ais, kakngah pon gatal order sama. pastu bile blk umah xbleh tido, marah wa ngape ajak dia minum nescafe. elo! ade wa kata, meh la kita order nescafe skali?! blasah kang! dan pasal bunyi tu kan kakngah. wa masih lg tertanye² bunyi apekah itu *lagu starwars* wa mmg terjaga sbb bunyi tu kuat, nyaring dan bunyi nye tu satu. isk xberjaya la wa nk describe smule. dah kami plak nk buat citer - jgn tgk luar tingkap dr tingkat 15 dikala pukul 4 pagi. bleh? mana ahmad idham...

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In this farewell
There's no blood
There's no alibi
'Cause I've drawn regret
From the truth of a thousand lies

So let mercy come and wash away

What I've done
I'll face myself
To cross out what I've become
Erase myself
And let go of what I've done

Put to rest
What you thought of me
While I clean this slate
With the hands of Uncertainty

So let mercy come and wash away

What I've done
I'll face myself
To cross out what I've become
Erase myself
And let go of what I've done

What I've done
I'll start again
And whatever pain may come
Today, this ends
I'm forgiving

What I've done
I'll face myself
To cross out what I've become
Erase myself
And let go of what I've done

Forgiving what I've done