Say it, if it's worth saving me

Something caught my attention today. was watching some movies on tv. recalled this particular scene, probably the same things going on in every film I watched before. you know when people had had enough of life, of what's happening 'round them, to them... they resort to SUICIDE.

when I was young, I thought that it's just a made up act - something that you can see in movies. that real people won't even dare to think 'bout it. but then I grew up. seen, experienced and read a lot of stuff. it has become a mere lifestyle. it's like, it is the ONLY way.

what really trigger people to do so, why. one of my lecturer told my class, 'bout a documentary. there was a japanese student who jumped off a building coz he flunked in his studies *duh* if that was me, then it'd be a miracle. coz i'd be jumping off some building, like, 287 times. and live again just to write this *tehee* thinking 'bout it, I am likely to JUMP OFF off klcc this semester *pulls hair*

I found this "depression checklist" while yahooing *I don't google, it's fast but dull and unpleasant to me eyes*:
Φ I feel sad.
Φ I feel like crying a lot.
Φ I’m bored.
Φ I feel alone.
Φ I don't really feel sad, just "empty".
Φ I don't have confidence in myself.
Φ I don't like myself.
Φ I often feel scared, but I don't know why.
Φ I feel mad, like I could just explode!
Φ I feel guilty
Φ I can't concentrate.
Φ I have a hard time remembering things.
Φ I don't want to make decisions - its too much work.
Φ I feel like I'm in a fog.
Φ I’m so tired, no matter how much I sleep.
Φ I’m frustrated with everything and everybody.
Φ I don’t have fun anymore.
Φ I feel helpless.
Φ I’m always getting into trouble.
Φ I’m restless and jittery. I can’t sit still
Φ I feel nervous.
Φ I feel disorganized, like my head is spinning.
Φ I feel self-conscious.
Φ I can’t think straight. My brain doesn’t seem to work.
Φ I feel ugly.
Φ I don’t feel like talking anymore – I just don’t have anything to say.
Φ I feel my life has no direction.
Φ I feel life isn’t worth living.
Φ I consume alcohol/take drugs regularly.
Φ My whole body feels slowed down – my speech, my walk, and my movements.
Φ I don’t want to go out with friends anymore.
Φ I don’t feel like taking care of my appearance.
Φ Occasionally, my heart pounds, I can’t catch my breath, and I feel tingly. My vision feels strange and I feel I might pass out. The feeling passes in seconds, but I’m afraid it will happen again.
Φ Sometimes I feel like I'm losing it.
Φ I feel "different" from everyone else.
Φ I smile, but inside I'm miserable.
Φ I have difficulty falling asleep or I awaken between 1 A.M. and 5 A.M. and then I can't get back to sleep.
Φ My appetite has diminished - food tastes so bland.
Φ My appetite has increased - I feel I could eat all the time.
Φ My weight has increased/decreased.
Φ I have headaches.
Φ I have stomachaches.
Φ My arms and legs hurt.
Φ I feel nauseous.
Φ I'm dizzy.
Φ Sometimes my vision seems blurred or slow
Φ I'm clumsy.
Φ My neck hurts.

checked, checked, checked. whoa! seems like I am the one who need help here *blthhhr!* haa since when did I learn to write 'bout serious matters? ;-) I guess I watched too many CSI. I should write 'bout marriage, work, religion. or maybe I shouldn't...

-->

How long how long will I slide
Separate my side
I don't
I don't believe it's bad
Slittin' my throat I
t's all I ever

I heard your voice through a photograph
I thought it up and brought up the past
Once you know you can never go back
I've got to take it on the otherside

Centuries are what it meant to me
A cemetery where I married the sea
Stranger things could never change my mind
I've got to take it on the otherside
Take it on the otherside
Take it on
Take it on

How long how long will I slide
Separate my side
I don't
I don't believe it's bad
Slittin' my throat
It's all I ever

Pour my life into a paper cup
The ashtray's full and I'm spillin' my guts
She wants to know am I still a slut
I've got to take it on the otherside

A scarlet starlet and she's in my bed
A candidate for a soul mate bled
Push the trigger and pull the thread
I've got to take it on the otherside
Take it on the otherside
Take it on
Take it on

How long how long will I slide
Separate my side
I don't
I don't believe it's bad
Slittin' my throat
It's all I ever

Turn me on, take me for a hard ride
Burn me out leave me on the otherside
I yell and tell it that
It's not my friend
I tear it down
I tear it down
But then it's born again

It's a combination for disaster

got home thur. nite. me mum wasn't feeling well. she'd a rough day at work. altho' I didn't realize 'bout it 'til today :D fri. morning, off to ktn. me dad had to pay something, I dunno. then, went straight to along's crib.

arrived around 1.30p.m. danial kemain lg kalo mnegur org - "atuk pekabar? nenek pekabar? makde pekabar?". muahahaha wa agak jek la. mohd tuh baru 4bln umo nye. tp homeh! =)
saje la bejln, mak abah nk nengok cucu nih td. xde pe mnarik pon, except for persidangan meja bujur *ehem* kakngah, kaklong - mau full report? :D

sat. morning, kemas² nk blk - singgah the store kmmn. beli kain, baju kebaya! *ahh!* mak la nih, menggoda wa utk membeli. wa kalo dh digoda sebegitu *choih* ape lg bekenan plak kaler nye. beli utk kaklong liza gak selai. pesan kt along, "jgn lupe carikan kain utk kaklong ye, buat baju kebaye". along bleh plak mengerang busuk! sungguh xmemberi semangat kt kaklong langsung!

siap² - blk. supposed blk awal sbb ajib nk blk plak, ngan kengkwn naik bas. konon nye bas dr ktn 2.30p.m. 2-3 kali call, elok jek la. dh sampai, tgh tunggu, dh dlm bas. me, mak & abah stopped at hentian t'loh for zuhr. tgh lunch ajib call. "kakde kt ner? ade kesulitan. tiket bas yg cikgu beli nih, tiket bas ari jumaat". wa punye terkesima. GHEGHE la cikgu dia nih!! gheghe pon cerdik tau!!! annies - "umi kebab!" :D

ape lg kn, mak 'pot pet pot pet'. wa dh migrain mnahan ke-tension-nan di ketengahan ari yg bute. last² diorg amik la tiket ke kl, nnt benti sblum simpang masuk bntg. bas gerak kul 4p.m. kami blum 3.30p.m dh sampai karak. singgah umah wan. 6.30p.m ajib sampai.

blk tuh saing ngan org² pantai timur nk blk becuti. bdk cuti skolah kn. dh lame xskolah nih, xprasan plak sume org pon cuti. ingatkn ajib jek =P dkt kul 8p.m gak la sampai umah.
wa flat!!! biasa abah ade gak tanye "kakde letih? biar abah bwk keta plak". arini xde *ehehe* xkesah le. sok dia nk keje, kalo dia letih susah plak kn. wa pon suke jek >:)

ingat nk study, tp kalo dh duk atas katil kn :D jgn harap la! pasni off komputer, "study"...

-->

Get up, get up, get up, get up, lift your head
Come on, come on, get up out of bed
Today's the day you hold the world with your song
Go now, go now, go now, help escalate
Angels come down, help with this parade
To hear your voice ring out
Come on and shout it
Let your song be heard

This is the time
This is the day that we've been waiting for
All the world will stop to watch you shine

Hey now, hey now, hey now, hey now sing your hymn
This is the new national anthem
We will all stand on guard to let you be heard
Let go, let go, let go all the cannons
How beautiful this world has become
Now everyone will see what I believe
That these words should be sung

This is the time
This is the day that we've been waiting for
All the world will stop to watch you shine
This is the time
This is the day that we've been waiting for
All the world believes that you will shine

And if you fall
And if you fall
And if you trust and
Yes it will come true

Hey, hey
Yeah!

Ra ta ta da di ra ta ta, ra ta da di da di da

movie review!!! last time I did on Harry Potter's GoF. well here's the thing, I'm not really a movie buff. I don't go and watch every single movie that's come out. I don't even know how to buy movie tickets! I might juz call someone and say "weh korg! wa sesat dlm panggung nih" - how la? =P I usually wait 2-3 years when the movie finally played on tv. That's what happen wif LOTR, I waited for hbo to play 'em. Same goes wif every other movies that I'd watch :D

ok rite now I'm gonna do da vinci code. yup - THE da vinci code. the ONE that everybody's been waiting for. the one that I'VE been waiting for *I should've stick wif me own way and wait for it to be shown on hbo* -_-'

oh bear in mind, I'd read the book 1st. so...

last nite went to watch da vinci code wif kakngah. 9.30p.m sampai umah dia, scored 2 TGV 1utama midnite tix =) movie only starts at 11.45p.m so we went out to eat 1st. ade mcD 24hrs kt KBU tuh. full wif students - studying! *aisyoo* kami nk mkn xde tmpt. study tmpt lain la beb. kalo dh pi mcd tuh, ngadap mcd jek la.

10.40p.m gerak pi 1utama. lama la berdiri nunggu turn masuk. 11.45p.m - start la iklan dia. dari 1... 1... tunggu punya tunggu. 12.05a.m baru wyg start *atuk dia! kami dh keras nengok iklan*

yadaa, yadaa, yadaa. standard la ade part yg lain dr novel kan. skali kn, ade akak duk sbelah kakngah nih bleh menjerit. dia ingat tgk puntianak harum sundal mlm ke ape nk jerit² *xbleh msk wyg* puntianak harum sundal mlm pon xde part yg patut dijerit kan. then wa bajet gak la, most audience yg dtg mlm tuh have read the book. "haa teabing nih yg buat hal nih" - aloo miss! jgn la kasi spoil movie! dh bace tuh diam jek la. tgk movie buat la cam xpenah bace buku. kuar wyg kang baru la nk compare ke ape ke *now u know y I hate going to the movies*

2.20a.m - le fin *thank god*. dlm keadaan blur², wa anta kakngah blk umah dia. kakngah: "blk leklok, jgn bwk prono td". akakak tell u about that later =P wa blk, mkn angin. pukul 3pg kn. lengang jek.

now about the movie. 1st thing that popped to my mind - duh! that's it?! what the ?! half of the script is in french. lucky us for the malay subtitle. the chasing scene is so - french! *no offence* looks ridiculous to me anyway. the story itself is not well delivered. still, at last we know the Holy Grail is found.

the casts - Paul Bettany did well, I think. he potrayed Silas perfectly that I really felt pity for him. however, they made silas looks like darth vader it made me wonder whether I was watching the rite movie or not =P Tom Hanks as Robert Langdon - ermmm I just don't FEEL 'Robert Langdon' in him. it is sort of a let down, you know - it's TOM HANKS!! *lucky for Dan Brown, his book sells well* screw other characters =P

the worst: the story wasn't meant to be a movie, at least for now. somebody has to come up with a new approach of delivering the story. make it as 'highly acclaimed' as it can be - or less clueless o_O

the best: haha :D I wrote something about prono up there^^. biasakn kalo tgk wyg, scene² yg xpatut ni di-censored kn. there, suddenly silas *Paul Bettany <3* us ="))">

my recommendation: for those who haven't read the book, go watch the movie. just for fun. try not to get confuse tho' =P for those who have read the book, get a pirated cd *tehee* for those who have watched the movie, haven't read the book - buy one. if you must, steal one! I'd so much fun reading the book that I regret ever going to the cinema.

now now, I'm done dissing 'bout it. so kakngah, X-men 3 nxt week? wa plak blanje ;-)

p/s: prono is not "siku" or misspelled word. it's actually 'porno' but we (as in me, kakngah n kaklong) made it as our own word. where did it come from? it might sound a bit offensive to some people =P so for now we'll keep the real meaning to our-own-silly-selves...

-->

Kiss the devil's mark
like a self-denial without temptation
she suffers from shame
prodigious perversions
it's her final dimension

feel affection for her longings
lamentation for no reason why
deep mistrust over matter
seduce it's will to melt away

she's plagued with pain
making me insane
passionate repulsion
kiss the evil inside
that you cannot deny
smiling at your sufferings

feel affection for her longings
lamentation for no reason why
deep mistrust over matter
seduce its will to melt away

I won't see you tonight - coz I'll be sleeping 'til next millenia

I'm too tired + sleepy to write what I'm suppose to write. lets make it a short one.
@ back in you-know-where, this morning.@ haven't slept since yesterday *BIG yawn*
@ haven't had any meal since morning *pak pung pak mustape*
@ haven't done my 8001-delayed-since-God-knows-when asgmts *points a big gun to me head*
@ seein' double rite now, so if any misspelled word - that's what me, kakngah n kaklong called "taip pakai siku"

err that's it?! Zzzz...

-->

Are you sleeping
Are you sleeping

Brother John
Brother John

Morning Bells are ringing
Morning Bells are ringing

Ding Dong Bell
Ding Dong Bell

If I could, then I would

"makkk! nani dh blk!!" ahahahaha "kakde blk sorg jek?" em alahai bonda. blk be2 kang tekujat plak kang =P ;-)

kul 10.30 p.m sampai. hasil pecutan dan daya tarikan graviti yg membunuh sume nyamuk² yg berterbangan =P seriously! start abg pindah, rajin blk ngan dia. ape lg dkt² dia nk kawen arituh, lg la rajin nye blk ngan dia. last week pon blk ngan abg & kak ct jugak! rase cam lame xblk kg sensorg. ape lg kn. merempitttttttt!!!

nasib plak xujan! lg wa suke! mlm mmg patut² xde polis :D tiba²... jeng jeng jeng!! *suspen* btul lps tol bntg tuh, jpj buat roadblock! mule ingat pak polisi. ketaq dol! gile nk eksiden rase =P rupenye jpj saje jek main tahan². "mintak orograp bleh?" ehehe xde ah! xtau niat sbenar, tp sume keta kene tahan la. check roadtax, lesen - "lesen nih dh renew? mati ni dik" ihiks! "tampal kt blakang bang" =P ahahaha pastuh, kembali membuat pecutan penamat!!! huh best²!

gatal pi beli nescafe tin td kn, dh xbleh tido. lyn blade trinity 2nd round *tgk ryan reynolds jek* =P~ lapa la plak kn. kita mkn dulu...

-->

I...don't wanna go through this life
Without you, by my side
And I-I-I, got it all worked out
In my head, is all its got to be

It'll be you and me
Up in the trees
And the forest will give us the answer
It'll be you and I
Up in the sky
It's a combination for disaster

We, we make believe
In a world we rule together
We-e-e-e, can build our dreams
With a knot tied tight
To last forever

And it'll be you and me
Up in the trees
And the forest will give us the answer
It'll be you and I
Up in the sky
It's a combination for disaster

Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah yeah, yeah
We got one shot
So let's use our imaginations

Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah yeah, yeah
You're all that I've got
So where do we go from he-e-e-re

And It'll be you and me
Up in the trees
And the forest will give us the answer
It'll be you and I
Up in the sky
It's a combination for disaster

And I know
There's more for us in this life
If we hold on
If we hold strong

And I know
There's more for us in this life
Can we hold on
Can we hold on

I bet that you look good on the dancefloor

juz another ordinary weekend of may. waisting my time *and loving it* - at my parents' :D already home by thursday nite, wif my abg & kak ct. watched Supernatural rerun at 2a.m *<3 Jared Padalecki* then ZzzzZz!!

fri, 10 a.m off to kenduri cukur cucu maklong riot. dtg memenuhkn majlis ngan mkn tgh ari jek =P sat. afternoon pi lata jarum *woohoo* sejok dol! berendam jap jek, ari ujan. nxt time piknik pi ramai². lame dh rase nya xpiknik ramai² kan :-

blk kl td pg, abah mak ikut anta brg ke umah abg. smpt singgah lentang, mak la nk sgt singgah. wa ngan kak ct celup² kaki jek :D siap² sume mak abah blk around 3p.m. moi? abih tgk miss congeniality baru blk umah sewa.

bosan - ingat nk kuar ngan maRk. dia xmau, wa ronda alamanda sensorg. ramai org rupenye. slalu pi kosong jek =P 6.30p.m blah *tunggu parking free jek* la ni xtau nk buat pe. lyn mainstream rock with tim kt red 104.9 *promote kt sume* =P hitz.fm pon ade school of rock repeat at 2a.m *premier on sat. afternoon 3-4p.m* xsume lagu yg wa suke. but at least *absolutely* NO songs like biarlah rahsia - siti nurhaliza & shake it off - mariah carey!!! *yurgh!!!*

well here's one that'd been played at the start of the show: RHCP - Dani California. oh! and happy mothers' day to me mum and all mothers out there...

-->

Gettin' born in the state of Mississippi
Papa was a copper and momma was a hippie
In Alabama, she would swing a hammer
Price you gotta pay when you break the panorama
She never knew that there was anything more than poor
What in the world does your company take me for

Black bandana, sweet Louisiana
Robbin' on a bank in the state of Indiana
She's a runner, rebel and a stunner
Condemned everywhere sayin' baby whatcha gonna
Lookin down the barrel of a hot metal .45
Just another way to survive

California rest in peace,
Simultaneous release,
California Show your teeth,
She's my priestess I'm your priest
Yeah Yeah

She's a lover, baby and a fighter
she shoulda seen it comin when it got a little brighter
with a name like Dani California
The day was gonna come when
I was gonna mourn ya
A little loaded she was stealing another breath
I love my baby to death

Who knew the other side of you
Who knew that other side you proved
Too True to say goodbye to you
Too true too sad sad sad

First to fade her, gifted and I made her
One for the now and eleven for the later
Never made it, Up to Minnesota
North Dakota man was a comin' for the quota
DOWN in the badlands she was saving the best for last
it only hurts when I laugh
Gone too fast

See you at the bitter end

had a pretty bad day! started off ok. ms ct's class was cancelled *yay* woke up late *on purpose* lyn kakngah ngan kaklong *terpakse* =P ihiks!

the night b4 dh janji ngan org nk kuar. mula kul 4p.m. atas sbb² xdpt dielakkn, postpone kul 5.30p.m. so wa pon smangat la nih nk kuar. masuk jek kunci keta, enjin xidopppppppppppp!!! wargh!!! biadapZzz sungguh keta!!

msg abg. tlupe plak along ade dkt² jek *oops* call along. dia sempat smayang hajat *lame la nunggu maknenye* >:) check punya check, konpem bateri kong. round la tmpt yg dia tau, cari punye cari ade la kedai bukak. beli bateri baru.

blk smule kt cik keli wa, dh maghrib. perjumpaan dh lama kensel *sob sob srehh!* nevermind, nxt time ok bebeh! ;-) wa pon dh xde prasaan nk bejln. along - "awk nk kemane, kakde". wa - "pi drive thru jek la along". hee :D mmg rezki wa la, dia ajak pi mkn. wa suke jek, tadah perut jek *ekekekeke*

pi try nasi ayam mesia ade kt sini. bleh la thn. standard rege fastfood la gak. sempat la ngumpat ngan along 2-3 round. reti ngumpat gak rupenye dia nih =)) mase anta wa blk umah sewa, ade la gerai n.lemak bukak dpn pakgad. bau ayam dia, masyukk! along teringin - "buat bekal mlm kang". wa tumpang lg seperut =P "burger daging special 1 bang". hee bekal mlm kang gak!

maka berakhirla kisah tragis wa arini. sok sblum blk kg, singgah la kedai yg wa patut pi arini. kempunan kang xelok gak kn! dh². nk buat asgmt, nk buat asgmt, nk buat asgmt...

-->

94 hours of regret for me to realize what I held
Unfading beauty, not just a face
I held its innocence within my heart, now I won't let go
The torment of your eyes has awakened my soul
The pain of a moment's time
will forever beg your forgiveness

Because beneath this stare is a desperate fight to stay alive

Thur. May 04:
"oh oh oh blk kg! oh oh oh blk kg! oh oh oh blk kg! ada kerahan tenagaaaa!!" =P blk ngan kaklong. around 6.30pm tunggu dia kt vista. sms wa kemain lg, cam dh lame nunggu. padahal sampai pon blum. wa sampai dulu! *huh* bwk blk gula², lilin *wangi!*, karpet, bunga telur, beg ciput² nk kasi org mlk. "antikk!" bak kata annies. pink kaler u! wa sukak!

wa drive. kaklong konon nk tido. last² kami ngumpat sepanjang jln >:) wa ke-migrain-nan sbenarnye. tp xbleh lyn. nnt majlis xjln =)) tambah plak blk time jam! wargh! seb baik blk ngan kaklong. sampai kul 9p.m. jmpt izah dulu. tenaga keje xcukup nih!! kakngah xbleh cuti! cengkelat!!! sok blk kemas umah, angkat krusi, mop lantai, decorate bilik abg! jari² kami dh tergeliat melilit bekas gula² =P~

erm mlm nih jek byk menda dh siap. kami ber3 jek buat! chaiyok! mmg berdedikasi la kami! bunga gula² siap, kotak gula² siap. masing² cekap cam operator pengeluaran :D

la ni? *4a.m* kaklong ngan izah dh tebungkang. mak abah lg la awal dh. wa? xbleh tido, minum nescafe tin ungu. skt kpalak! sok sambil beli brg² utk majlis nih, cari selendang nk melaram ari majlis pon best kn! nk melaram lebih² nih, majlis sape nih?!! abg ke wa??!! ihiks!

Fri. May 05:
dh xingat dh ape buat. *hoh* mak abah pi jmpt ajib kt muazam. kami kt umah? wa bgn awal?!! 8a.m wa dh siap². tp ngantuk gak la. 3jam tido. 10a.m kuar ngan kaklong ngan izah. cari kelengkapan yg xlengkap =P brunch kt kedai tepi pdg. 1st time, bleh tahan la kedai tuh. siap² blk. masa utk kerahan tenaga lg -_-'

maklong zie dtg ngan alang + izni. maklong 'Ratu Sima' dtg buat pelamin. kami meneruskn usaha *chaiyok* bungkus lilin, buat bunga telur, buat potpoury *melebur jariku*

abah, mak, ajib sampai petang. lebih awal dr jangkaan. abah bad mood sket. ajib xbleh blk sbenar nye, tp xkasi tau. so bile mak abah dh sampai sane, xkan cikgu dia nk kata xbleh. dh la dtg dr jauh. kang kata kejam plak. masuk tv plak =P

kami siapkn la pape yg patut. kemas bilik abg, bunga telur tuh dipintal². gift bag utk org melaka selesai. kakngah sampai 9pm lebih gitu, membunjut baulu =P. abg ngan kak ct sampai kul 12a.m. saje jek blk mlm. curik tulang?! =P

Sat. May 06:
jam 7.15a.m - "kt dapur tuh mak dh msk nsk lemak. bgn la buat sambal nye. abihkn la ikan bilis tuh. nnt bleh beli lain. goreng la telur skali ye. dgr x ni? mak ngan abah nk ke pekan". ya Allah ya tuhanku! mak mmg kejam! kami tido lewat makkkkkkkkkkk!!! *tsk tsk tsk*

mlepek², yg pi masak.. masak, naik mandi. trun² jek riuh. maklong riot dtg ngan family. ruang tamu dh clear! wah! luas dunia kurasakan :D dtg tolong mane yg patut². susun kerusi bwh dickson. maklong 'Ratu Sima' sambung buat pelamin. pot pet pot pet gelak², gurau². family pakteh dtg, family paklang, wan, makde dah ngan cucu - suma tido umah. mak beleter ke pakcik masak biri² utk tahlil. cadang suh dia buat, kami dpt yg siap jek. tetiba dia kata nk dtg umah, buat kt umah kami. dh dtg tuh, ingatkn nk buat trus la. sambil tuh bleh lg berborak, lauk nye x jugak bermasak. ari dh petang. org byk nk buat menda lain lg. kami² yg lain nih jauh dr mak, kaklong yg duk dekat mak. so terkena la serpihan² amarah nye tuh *ihiks*

dlm 6.30pm, kami sempat memandi bunga kn abg ngan kak ct. xde ape pon, saje suke². kami budak² jek. saje memunahkn abg ngan kak ct. bile lg kn. kawen sekali jek. nih la masa adik² nk bergurau kasar. nnt² xbleh dh, kang durhaka. =) mmg xlama pon, sbb lepas tuh abah sound, nk ready utk tahlil =P mlm tuh lepas isyak, tahlil la.

ramai la gak dr jangkaan. org surau, sedara², org melaka yg dtg awal, kwn² ajib. kami membungkus bubur kekah budak tuh kelam kabut la gak. arahan bercampur aduk =P xbleh ngumpat lebih². kang tebkr, durhaka!

selesai 1lg majlis. mlm tuh sambung bertelur =P bungkus telur kt bunga telur, ngan isi baulu. sambil tuh pasang rakaman mase kt melaka. riuh la kejap. macam tgk senario pon ade 8-)
kaklong sempat menginai kak ct. along pi bwk pemuda harapan bangsa, pi menampal tanda kawen abg pukul 1a.m. kang ade plak yg sesat xjumpe umah kn. mintak belikn air gaeh =P tunggu punya tunggu punya tunggu... 2.30a.m kami tido. diorg kul 3 baru blk kot.

Sun. May 07:
mlm semlm tido merata². ade tido atas, ade tido bwh. wa lelap dpn tv ngan abah, mak. sedar² dh ade slimut. sape slimut ntah. pg tuh makteh buat n.goreng ikan sadin, lebih makan tahlil. sehingga menjilat ibu jari kaki! =P

kemas sane sini sket. kaklong sempat berinai, ape lg. tumpang la setangan - "nk gak kaklong!". oleh karena dh lewat nih td, xsempat kering btul dh basuh. nmpk la sket nih ha. blum kul 12 tgh ari org dh dtg mkn. memula nmpk cam xramai org jek dtg. sbb sket² org dtg. mak abah dh pi menyambut tetamu.

rombongan melaka sampai, pengantin xsiap² lg. kene jerit ngan abah! muahahahahaha >:) pakai kompang kaset jek *kehek* berdiri kejap, amik² gamba. trus duduk mkn. xmau lengah² berarak ape sume. tgh ari, org nk pensan! sbb mak abah pi nyambut tetamu, org lain la mkn ngan pengantin.

meriah! ramai org dtg rupenye. chu him, mamak hadri, sedara belah gali, kuala dong. oh not forgetting - miss ct n family wif maklong jora. gile awal, tetamu plg awal! =P ingatkn majlis nih xde la banjir² kn. wa baru tau, kaklong kata ade banjir² gak. mak wa la. isk wa xperasan pon. hmm tp ade yg xdtg - ***

majlis lancar. ade karaoke - maklong zie, maklong kam, aki chu latif, kodek, ajib?! menarik! lepas abg ngan kak ct abih bersanding, masa kami plak melenjan pelamin. gamba² ayu, gamba² cun, gamba² xsenonoh. macam² ada! wa yg xpenah² suke begamba nih, asik laaaa sgt! suke²!

###

wahhh! mmg meletihkn, but worthit! dlm hal decoration, hantaran - kaklong plg teruk. tp kami² turut merasai. memasing lebam² mata, cramp² montot, melebur jari². iPod punye pasal kn abg! ;-) abah pon agak kurus. tension. byk menda dia handle sorg. tp dia happy sume beres.
xpenah wa rase majlis yg camni nye hepi. yg wa pon involve skali la kn. dulu time along, mase tuh memberontak sket. budak lg =P lg pon time tuh ramai org, sedara mara tolong. la ni, org xde. bkn ape, ramai yg dh xlarat. simple tp rase gak meriah nye.

anywayZz, welcome to the family kak ct. macam senyap dr wa pon ade kak ct nih =P jgn amik ati aa. perangai² kami mmg xsenonoh sket. tp xpenah ade niat nk sakit² ati. kalo rase² xbest ke, kasitau la. kadang kami main lepas aje kn =P

oh korg cepat² la tambah askar. haikal, danial ngan annies jek xcukup. team bola pon ade 11 sebelah :D until nxt wedding - wonder who's it gonna be...

-->

Humpty Dumpty sat on the wall
Humpty Dumpty had a great big fall
All the kings horses and all the kings men
Could never put it together again

There's two sides to every story

Thur. Apr 27:
class finished at 2pm. mr. gerard - "I had a minor surgery, so I won't be able to talk much". juz when I thought our class's gonna be dismissed early, he kept on talking n talking n... I still luv ur class sir! =P

supposed I'm going home rite after class. borak ngan kakngah ngan kaklong, dh kul 5.30pm. kemas sane sini, gerak. kt tol sg besi abg msg, tanye nk blk saing ke dak. :D suke jek wa. "mkn abg! kebuluq!". cam biasa, smentara nunggu dia basuh baju pi mkn dulu. org kedai tuh lupe anta air kami! *erkk! tecekik!* beli air tin.

abg bought me nescafe o' tin tuh. hamik! as a result, I couldn't sleep. so last nite I watched SWAT, Saw, The Gathering and The Notebook. almost cry, when me mom n dad woke up for subuh. "xtido lg kakde?! tahan awk?!! ngape la". mane la tau kuat air tin tuh mak.

sempat bekeroh 1 ½jam jek, before abg decided to disturb my BEAUTIFUL-DREAMLESS sleep!! argh! nasib la abang. kalo x, free jek 5 lori $%^&*# sumpahan >:) ai-het-u!!!!

Fri. Apr 28:
pg mak abah pi jmpt ajib kt muadzam. wa tinggal ngan abg jek >:) muahahaha nih la masa nye - "abg! anta keta servis!" , "beli skali gam utk glue gun ye" , "bateri cam jgn lupe!". wahh I like! rase cam pompuan sejati la. ekeke slmt ari raye abg! =P~

ajib sampai dh ptg. abg jmpt fadir. kaklong sampai mlm, bwk izah ngan kodek. kakngah xblk! saje melarikn diri drpd buat keje. biadapZz!! blasah nk? b-( dh kemas² brg yg nk bwk, inai abg. kejung la dia berinai, pdn muke. kawen skali jek bang. xtau aa kot awk nk lebih kn. :-? akakakakakaka oops!! kami pon berinai gak! rugi kakngah xde =P mlm masing² tido keras takut inai rosak.

Sat. Apr 29:
awalnye bangunnnnnn! *yawn* seb la sume brg dh kemas. dr umah gerak around 8am. along sampai dr kmmn 7.30am. "3jam along?!" rekod! keta kaklong, wa, abg, abah, along, pakngah.
kat bntg benti brekfas. tunggu keta kakngah, aide, pakchu. ikat riben! seb xbuat riben mlampau kt keta pengantin kn, letak gamba skali ngan bunga bulat! akakaka dh jd keta mayat plak =P konvoi la pi mlk.

sampai chalet dh tgh ari. "lunch disediakan" - family kak ct anta rupenye. wa xmkn, so xtau la amende yg di anta. sampai lg keta abg syakirin ngan along rijal. duduk², memain air laut, susun² hantaran, mandi², siap² - lps asar pi akad nikah.

sblum kejadian, wa sempat jeling abg kt celah² pakcik garang kt dpn dia tuh =P wa sedih siots! :'( xpe lg. dh akad, kaklong ngan mak long pi nangis dpn wa! mengongs la kaklong nih. pe lg kn, time salam banjir la mlk! :(( huwaaaaaa!!! kawen dh abg kaeh!!! sob sob srehh!!

oh ade plak upacara mandi berhias! kami ingatkn nk dijirus nye dgn air paip ke. rupenye menitik inai, panggil nye mandi berhias. ceh! kami dh smangat nk menjirus! ekekeke abih sume org pi membaling beras. best best! ipod sebijik abg! :D

lps tuh blk chalet dulu, mlm kang ade upacara lg. balasan hantaran dr kak ct penuh ngan makanan! yeehaa! kuih bkr, kek biasa, kek luar biasa, anggur, gula². mentekedarah time!!! \o/
mlm masa utk siap. "sultan mlk?!! laksamana hang tuah? or hang lekuk!!?" akakakakakak tsk tsk! kami xsmpt tgk bunga apiiiii!!! wargh!!! mintak gamba kt kak ct aje la. menitik inai lg, kt pelamin betul. pastu sesi fotografi. abg ngan kak ct malu² buaye plak! ahaks! tp gile byk posing nye. wa yg menengok pon bosan dol! ade la plak org berkaraoke kt luar. "bimbang, aku bimbanggg!!" - kami kt atas nih lg bimbang!!! =P

slesai sume², blk chalet smule. lyn blues memasing. duk tepi laut, amik² angin, buang angin *oops!* mlm utk memasing tebungkang! letih woo! sok ade 1 lg acara plak. aduhh!

Sun. Apr 30:
pg tuh diorg² nih sempat lg mandi laut! wa xbwk suar trek jek, kalo x, dh join same dh. xpe lain kali. siap utk mninggal kn abg *sob sob srehh!* "ijau baju abg?!!" wahh silau! skali lg, dayang kaklong mekap sultan mlk =P

12.30pm check out, gerak pi umah kak ct. cam dh sayu² jek. dh sampai, smpt kena tunggu lg. pasukan kompang sampai baru berarak, dr umah sbelah jek *hek hek* panas nk pensan!!! mmg sume org nk pensan pon. mak nye, makde lg la. seb la mkn sedap :D

sblum blk, aki chu latif nye sempat karaoke. astaga! dh la sampai² jek "bimbang, aku bimbanggg!". aki chu nye plak "gelisahhhh!!" *tsk tsk* kami yg mendgr nih yg gelisah tok! >:)

slesai² sume, masa utk berpisah :( memula family aide ngan kami², sbb dia nk blk arah lain. mlk banjir!!! sob sob srehh! "makde, pujuk aide blk minggu dpn ye" *ahh basah keyboard wa* kakngah! awk kasitau makde psl wa kuar sensorg tuh ye! biadapZzz! =P dh babai² diorg, masa nk tinggalkn abg plak *coih*

mak dia nangis senyap². wa bangga! along? nangis? ALONG?!!! patut wa rakam buat kenangan, silap camera dh penuh jek =P abah pon tahan² jek *ihiks* wa?? mane bleh tahannnnnn!! sambung ujan utk kali ke 81. abg, nangis bkn sebarang nangis tau - iPod sebijik! mekasih daun klape =))

###

kira 1 majlis setel! uhh letih wa nangis tau! kak ct - tuh baru intro² jek. nnt dh lelame nnt lg la =P emm nih nk ngadap majlis pink plak. so 'til my next post...

-->

Twinkle twinkle little star
How I wonder what you are
Up above the world so high
Like a diamond in the sky
Twinkle twinkle little star
How I wonder what you are