Pieces of a dream

i don't exactly remember what i'd done yesterday. so it's safe to say, yesterday is history. and i hate history, the only time i ever really paid attention to history, was in form 3. coz we can write our notes - any way we want. luckily my chemical romance wasn't even exist at that time, or they'd be on every page of my notes *wink*

orait, i'm saving some of my net crdt for later. besides i've nothing to say, so daa...

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Who are you now?
Are you still the same
Or did you change somehow?
What do you do
At this very moment when I think of you?
And when I'm looking back
How we were young and stupid
Do you remember that?
Baby

No matter how I fight it
Can't deny it
Just can't let you go

I still need you
I still care about you
Though everything's been said and done
I still feel you
Like I'm right beside you
But still no word from you

Now look at me
Instead of moving on, I refuse to see
That I keep coming back
And I'm stuck in a moment
That wasn't meant to last (to last)

I've tried to fight it
Can't deny it
You don't even know

That I still need you
I still care about you
Though everything's been said and done
I still feel you
Like I'm right beside you
But still no word from you

Ohhhh Wish I could find you
Just like you found me
Then I would never let you go (without you)

Though everything's been said and done (yeah)
I still feel you (I still feel you)
Like I'm right beside you (like I'm right beside you)
But still no (still no word) word from you

Now look at me
instead of moving on I refuse to see
that I keep coming back
And I'm stuck in the moment that wasn't meant to last

I've tried to hide it
Can’t deny it
You don't even know that

I still need you
I still care about you
Though everything has been said and done
I still feel you like
I'm right beside you
There's still no word from you

I wish I could find you
Just like you found me that night
will never let you go

I'm not okay, I promise

7 days till xmas! i don't celebrate xmas. but there's gonna be a movie marathon on that day, and i heard that somebody's gotta WORK on THAT day =P slmt ari raye kaklong! majulah sukan utk negara! epi besday in adv. plg lebih pon wa kasi ekad jek =D

well, there goes another week of dec. boring dol! duk umah xbuat pape. bukak mata jek tgk tv, mkn, tgk tv, mandi, tgk tv. i'm offcially declare myself a dedicated couch-potato! literally i'm turning into one!!! =P~

emm td kaknor nikah. buat kt masjid raub, majlis ijabkabul jek. kenduri nye nxt week. the best part? abg, kaklong, kakngah, yoi blk. wa cukup hepi =)) everything went well. kt umah wa pon ade org kawen, ajib sempat la lyn kompang seround. tgh ujan plak tuh, smangat!

ohh i cut my hair on saturday, kinda regret it now. but i had to. split end - dh rupe gunung daik bcabang tiga =P besides i juz wanna hv a new look for a new year. yup, welcome 2006! time flies faster than i thought. in the last few years, so much things happened. might've forget a few. there r things that i can't forget, things that i won't forget and things that i dont wanna forget. apela yg dirapek kn labu seko nih *heh* thx to whoever thought of creating this blog thingy now i can say whatever i want. i'm a good listener, people come to me and pour their hearts out. thats juz what i never good at. i tend to keep it all to myself. juz dunno how, i dont even share my probs wif my mom. sometimes i envy my friends when they say they can talk & share everything wif their moms. it's not like she never ask or care. maybe its the way i've been brought up - i mean all the things i been thru, all the things i've seen *all these things that i've done - sang by the killers =P* or maybe its juz me. yeah, i think so. its juz me :-

anywayZz, haa thats a relief! im'ma whine again bout the same damn thing, one day =) for now that should do it. it's already 3.10 am. not sleepy, boring, dunno what to do (kt kolej dulu, time nih lepak projet - oops! syy!! =P). oo ye kaklong, bout that "unexpected guest. teka, kalo btul wa beli piza - awk byr. ekekekekekeke =P guess now i'm gonna google the 1st thing that pops into my mind, like gerard way's pics!!! muahahahaha *wink wink* later guys...

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Well if you wanted honesty, that's all you had to say
I never want to let you down or have you go
It's better off this wayFor all the dirty looks
The photographs your boyfriend took
Remember when you broke your foot
From jumping out the second floor

I'm not okayI'm not okay
I'm not okay
You wear me out

What will it take to show you that it's not the life it seems
I've told you time and time again
You sing the words but don't know what it means
To be a joke and look
Another line without a hook
I held you close as we both shook for the last time
Take a good hard look

I'm not okay
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
You wear me out

Forget about the dirty looks
The photographs your boyfriend took
You said you'd read me like a book
But the pages are all torn and frayed

I'm okay
I'm okay
I'm okay, now

But you really need to listen to me
Because I'm telling you the truth
I mean this, I'm okay(Trust me)

I'm not okay
I'm not okay
Well, I'm not okay
I'm not o-fucking-kay
I'm not okay
I'm not okay

But there's no sun shining through

a week passed. nothing interesting happened. no ufo crash or that sorta things =P but there's a soccer match tonite! chelsea vs wigan. i don't watch 'em, my bro does. can't stand what 22 dudes running after 1 ball for :-\ i prefer a simple game of 'batu seremban'. ahh remembering the old days *dreamy eyes*

anyways, we went to chamang last saturday. me, me pa & ma and my bro. picnic la konon, ari ujan pon. redup jek, xmandi - basuh² kaki jek =P ngikut ke mak le nih. gila nurun lembah, turun tuh xpe. nk naik smule, kejung 4ari oi!! komdian pi karak sat. anta jarum insulin kt wan. around 5.30 gerak pi the store. bought 2 cekelat! lame xmkn cekelat! later that nite abg blk. kl - raub umpama pi toilet jek (bak kata mak!) =P ahad blk smule kl. senin keje kan.

slase mlm along plak blk raub. rabu pi anta mentua ke mekah. jumat baru trun. haikal turns 4 next monday dec 12. beso dh ank sdare kaeh! atuk ngan nenek dia bought him a new toy excavator. "bleh bawok gi pantai nnt" - imagine a 4 yr old kid wif 'ganu accent. muahahahahaha =)) wa xbleh trima kenyataan ini!!!! *ROTF*LMAO*

btw, ari kamis dtg la unexpected visitor. "she" was here! who? teng teng teng!! what was "she" doing in raub? can i hv another teng teng teng!! =P didn't bother to ask. good to see her ok tho'.
noon td along blk ke kemaman. kaklong's working on sunday. she can barely walk now!! due in jan. another boy! dpt lg sorg sinchan!!! argh!! yg sorg nih pon dh skian. sah jd cam along ngan abg dulu la nih ;-)

well that's bout it. i'm gonna whine and annoy my bro for not letting me watch the movies tonite. enuff said...

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Everything's so blurry
and everyone's so fake
and everybody's so empty
and everything is so messed up
pre-occupied without you
I cannot live at all
My whole world surrounds you
I stumble then I crawl

You could be my someone
you could be my sea
you know that i'll protect you
from all of the obscene
I wonder what you're doing
imagine where you are
there's oceans in between us
but that's not very far

Can you take it all away
can you take it all away
when you shoved it in my face
explain again to me

Everyone is changing
there's noone left that's real
to make up your ending
and let me know just how you feel
cause I am lost without you
I cannot live at all
my whole world surrounds you
I stumble then I crawl

You could be my someone
you could be my sea
you know that i will save you
from all of the unclean
I wonder what you're doing
I wonder where you are
There's oceans in between us
but that's not very far

Nobody told me what you thought
nobody told me what to say
everyone showed you where to turn
told you where to runaway
nobody told you where to hide
nobody told you what to say
everyone showed you where to turn
showed you where to runaway

Not everything in this magical world is quite what it seems

wazzup!! it's been a while since my last entry. i'm not gonna write any nonsense 'bout what i've done today (hopefully!). but im'ma do a little movie review on the latest HP series.

watched the movie juz now. me bro borrowed the cd from his friend. BEEN DYING TO WATCH IT! but all i can say - it's a waste of 2 and a half hours of my time! >:( big disappointment!!! seriously! (should u not agree wif this, i suggest that u find another usefull site and close this window - rite now!).

ehmm why? coz i say so! *duh* ok here's the thing. #1: it's a pirated cd - btg idong harry jadah haram xnmpk! too dark! voice not so clear, even the subtitle is incorrect (what the hell is "POKICK"????? it's "PORTKEY" duffus!!).

#2: hell loads of interesting part been left out! it's like watching a movie being fast forward 8times of its original speed. anyone who read the book would notice. kelam kabut wa ckp lu! i mean, out of nowhere not 10mins the movie started the dark mark appeared. where's the quidditch world cup?! and what happen to the other 3 champs during task 1? they should've include that part coz it would've been hell of a scene to watch! (i jumpped and screamed juz by reading it, wonder what i'd do if it was made into movie). now i better not start on the other 2 tasks and what happen in between.

didn't expect 'em to make a TRILOGY out of the 4th book. but it wouldn't hurt to make it slightly longer than usual. still i must say, the part when harry reappeared with cedric (dead!) made me cry. not bcoz of cedric *wink wink* but coz harry cried - really cried! this time better than the one scene in prisoner of azkaban.

among all 4 movies, GOF is my least favourite. u guyz who haven't read the book, u should take the time to read it. wish they'll make better movie for the 5th and 6th installment (the books are as thick as the 4th, tho'). think im'ma read GOF (again!) juz to make up to what they've scrapped off the movie.

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To my mother, to my father
It's your son or it's your daughter
Are my screams loud enough for you to hear me?
Should I turn this up for you?

I sit here locked inside my head
Remembering everything you've said
This silence gets us nowhere
Gets us nowhere way too fast

The silence is what kills me
I need someone here to help me
But you don't know how to listen
And let me make my decisions

All your insults and your curses
Make me feel like I'm not a person
And I feel likeI am nothing
But you made me
So do something

Cause I'm fucked up
Because you are
Need attention
Attention you couldn't give

I sit here locked inside my head
Remembering everything you've said
This silence gets us nowhere
Gets us nowhere way too fast